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Rebuilding Tomorrow
by Brandon Rowell (Author)
Eli spent his childhood as an outcast in small-town Georgia, ridiculed for being different. College gave him a taste of freedom, but it wasn’t until he met Aaron that he believed he had found true love. Together, they built a life, a home, and a future—until one devastating moment shattered it all.
After ten years, Eli lost the love of his life and blames himself. The betrayal sent him into a spiral of self-destruction, losing himself in reckless choices and heartbreak. But when he hits rock bottom, Eli makes a choice: to heal.
Returning to Georgia to be with family, Eli unexpectedly becomes the sole guardian of his nephew. Determined to give the child a safe, loving home, he sacrifices his own happiness, living single and celibate for sixteen years, afraid of how the world might judge a gay man raising a child alone.
But when his nephew turns sixteen, he gives Eli something he never expected: permission to love again.
Taking a leap of faith, Eli meets Marcus, a man who sees him for who he truly is—past wounds and all. As their love grows, Eli must decide: Will he let go of fear and take a second chance on happiness?
A moving story of heartbreak, resilience, and the power of second chances, Rebuilding Tomorrow is a powerful LGBTQ+ novel about love, family, and the courage to rebuild.
Sometimes, the hardest part of life isn’t letting go—it’s believing you deserve something better.
Details:
Ages: 10 and Up
Pages: 403
Language: English
Publication Date: February 09, 2025
Available Formats: E-Book, Paperback, Audiobook
The air hung heavy with the scent of honeysuckle and the unspoken. It was a scent Eli knew intimately, a perfume clinging to the humid Georgia nights, just as the secret of his sexuality clung to him. He lived in a town where Sundays were sacred, where church bells chimed a melody of tradition, and where deviation from the norm was met with a silence heavier than any condemnation. His life was a carefully constructed tapestry woven with threads of conformity, a façade he maintained with a practiced ease born of necessity.
His secret life bloomed unseen, nurtured in the quiet hours. The garden, a shared space, held both solace and deception. He would slip away under the cover of darkness, sitting beneath the magnolia tree, staring at the stars, whispering his dreams to the night. In those stolen moments, he felt a sense of freedom he couldn’t find elsewhere, a temporary escape from the expectations placed upon him. But as the first hints of dawn painted the sky in soft pastels, reality would come crashing back down, and he would retreat once more behind his carefully constructed mask.
The church bells, a constant reminder of societal expectations, masked his inner turmoil. Their familiar chimes rang through the air, filling him with both comfort and dread. Each Sunday morning, he would dress in his best, sit in the wooden pews, and listen to the pastor speak of righteousness and morality. The hymns, once a source of solace, now felt like echoes of his hidden anguish, each note a reminder of the dissonance between his faith and the truth he carried within him.
His world was defined by fences—literal ones, the high wooden barriers separating their property from their neighbors', and figurative ones, the invisible walls erected by the town's unspoken rules and expectations. These fences were both protective and confining, shielding him from judgment while simultaneously isolating him from genuine connection. He longed to climb those fences, to break free from the suffocating stillness of his carefully curated existence, but fear, a cold and insistent companion, held him back. He imagined a world beyond the fences, a place where he could breathe without the weight of secrecy pressing on his chest.
Even within the walls of his own home, the silence felt oppressive. He'd catch his father’s gaze, a look that was both inquisitive and distant, as if there were questions unasked, truths unspoken. His mother, ever devout, would hum hymns as she prepared dinner, blissfully unaware of the internal war raging within her son. The weight of secrecy pressed down on him, a constant, dull ache in his chest, an ever-present reminder of the double life he lived.
He saw the couples walking hand-in-hand downtown, their affection a bittersweet reminder of what he couldn't have. He watched their families, their closeness a stark contrast to the emotional distance he felt from his own. He envied their openness, their ability to express their love and affection without fear of judgment. He knew there were others like him, others who lived their lives in the shadows, hidden away within the seemingly homogenous fabric of their community. But these others were strangers, their faces unseen, their stories unheard. The silence between them felt as vast and isolating as the Georgia plains stretching beyond the town's limits.
The weight of secrecy wasn’t just the weight of his secret. It was the weight of the unspoken, of the unacknowledged, of the unloved. It was the weight of all the possibilities, all the connections, all the expressions of love and belonging he denied himself. It was a weight that threatened to crush him, a weight that whispered insidious doubts about his worth, his value, his very existence. It gnawed at him in the quiet moments, in the empty spaces between conversations, in the long pauses where truth remained unsaid.
He spent hours contemplating the possible outcomes of revealing his true self. The scenarios played out in his head like a morbid film reel: the horrified expressions of his parents, the whispers in the church pews, the ostracization from his friends, the chilling possibility of being rejected by the only community he had ever known. He envisioned the slow unraveling of his life as he knew it, the painful disintegration of the fragile acceptance he had managed to maintain. But, despite the terrifying prospect, the desire for authenticity outweighed his fear.
His heart, a tightly wound spring, yearned for release. He dreamt of a life unburdened by the constant weight of secrecy, a life where he could walk hand-in-hand with someone he loved, where he could express his faith and his sexuality without compromise, where he could finally be seen, not as a shadow, but as the vibrant, whole person he was. But the road to such a life seemed impossibly distant, shrouded in uncertainty, lined with obstacles he feared he might never overcome.
The yearning was a constant companion, a persistent whisper against the silence, a promise of a future far different from the present he inhabited. That future, however uncertain, began to take shape, propelled by a courage he hadn’t known he possessed, a courage that was born of hope, a hope as tenacious as the honeysuckle vines that clung to the walls of his Georgia town. He clung to that hope as one clings to a lifeline, daring to believe that beyond the fences, beyond the unspoken expectations, beyond the weight of secrecy, a life of love, acceptance, and freedom could one day be his.. It was the weight of the unspoken, of the unacknowledged, of the unloved. It was the weight of all the possibilities, all the connections, all the expressions of love and belonging he denied himself. It was a weight that threatened to crush him, a weight that whispered insidious doubts about his worth, his value, his very existence.
He spent hours contemplating the possible outcomes of revealing his true self. The scenarios played out in his head like a morbid film reel: the horrified expressions of his parents, the whispers in the church pews, the ostracization from his friends, the chilling possibility of being rejected by the only community he had ever known. But, despite the terrifying prospect, the desire for authenticity outweighed his fear.
His heart, a tightly wound spring, yearned for release. He dreamt of a life unburdened by the constant weight of secrecy, a life where he could walk hand-in-hand with someone he loved, where he could express his faith and his sexuality without compromise, where he could finally be seen, not as a shadow, but as the vibrant, whole person he was. But the road to such a life seemed impossibly distant, shrouded in uncertainty, lined with obstacles he feared he might never overcome.
The yearning was a constant companion, a persistent whisper against the silence, a promise of a future far different from the present he inhabited. It came in flashes—brief moments of courage when he allowed himself to picture a life beyond the town's rigid boundaries. He imagined standing in a crowded street without fear, laughing without self-consciousness, sharing a quiet dinner with someone who truly saw him. It was a vision so vivid that, at times, he could almost touch it. Yet reality always pulled him back, reminding him of the walls he would have to break down, the judgments he would have to face.
But something inside him refused to surrender to despair. That future, however uncertain, began to take shape, propelled by a courage he hadn’t known he possessed, a courage that was born of hope, a hope as tenacious as the honeysuckle vines that clung to the walls of his Georgia town. He clung to that hope as one clings to a lifeline, daring to believe that beyond the fences, beyond the unspoken expectations, beyond the weight of secrecy, a life of love, acceptance, and freedom could one day be his. He knew that day wouldn’t come easily, that he would have to fight for it, to carve it out against the expectations that threatened to confine him. But for the first time, the possibility felt real. And that possibility, that dream, was enough to keep him moving forward, step by step, toward a future he was no longer willing to live without.