wrapped around your arms til you sat up and blew your nose,
we could talk around the warm light
but there's fright, i sensed til you walked out.
and, i knew you better than i imagined.
you were cool but the cooler there is, is numbing.
staring at the the back of your head,
expected you'd take something out.
there's your cold between the war we're having,
if i waved the flag out— then it's done.
it's done again. it's gone again.
can't picture when we'd be who we used to be.
who you were when you were entirely and in love with me.
i must not make conclusions, how is that when you always conclude when i'm still lifting a finger?
nevermind, we'll linger for as long as you can dodge it.
stood while you sat right in front of me,
sometimes i wonder if there's a man inside your entire being
did your mother not raise him?
our dads are gone and mine's waving from the better side of life.
life is all about completing well he's completing it with the family of that woman named, i don't know, kyle?
staring at the eyes i met but somehow lost on the way down there.
but i know that you know me, or the girl we didn't notice was left for maybe ten months ago.
i could beg on my knees babe, but i've been sleeping on them.
and if i did it again then you'll just comprehend how i'm willing to go down hell— so it's done.
it's done again. it's gone again.
can't picture when we'd be who we used to be.
who you were when you were entirely and in love with me.
it's done again, we understand
the letdowns are the medals we live for years
if it's four year then two more painful new years.
December 2024