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July 7th, 2025

So today, I was brought in to be a Made Man. I had to undergo a little trial to determine whether I was worthy or not, and to say the least, I passed. It taught me I needed to be strong. Both physically and mentally. Needless to say, I was worked to the bone. I can still hear the echo of the shotgun going off and taking some of the most important parts of the human body, my arms. During this induction, I met The Spirits who I had to make an offering to; a part of my soul. After coming to my senses again, I felt an odd awakening within me; a source of my newfound power. Before I went to bed, 'Soja' taught me something very useful. In the process of doing so, I peered deep into what remains of my own soul, and I saw a black flame. It seems to be the source.

July 11th, 2025

I seem to be back in normal condition now from the events of my induction. A couple of days ago, after talking with 'Lighter' about my powers, I learned that using them too much will have some kind of drawback. I was also told that each one is different, but I have yet to discover what mine really is. Am I scared? A little. But I need to be able to be strong to achieve my goals. I would like to know more, nonetheless. 

July 15th, 2025

Another normal day in Twin Pines. A man named 'Krov' from The Hunter's Black Lodge met with the Don and I got to sit in on this "meeting". Needless to say, I learned quite a bit; such as how you follow the faith of Sarkicism. I'm interested in some of the wares you have offered; mainly the different artifacts and souls you can acquire.

July 16th, 2025

I can't seem to remember everything that happened during that incursion. I remember using our abilities for the greater good, and feeling the drawback from them afterwards. However, I know I was amnesticized by the Insurgents for apparently seeing their command without a mask, and I was bloodied one way or another; blood was all over my face when it was all said and done. Don't know if it was due to injuries, or if it was part of my drawback. I guess only time will tell.

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I've been having these dreams lately. They're driving me insane. I don't know why. Get out of my head. Don't call me that. Stop saying these things. Who are you? Why am I saying this? Why do I ask these things?

Who am I? 

What is my purpose?

Was it supposed to be like this?

July 27th, 2025

I've made my offering. All I remember now, is my time within the Spirits. It was for the best, and I won't falter. I can only get stronger from here on out. Whoever I was before, no longer exists. The black flame within, will guide me in the right direction. I know it will.

July 31st, 2025

I strayed too far from the Black Flame...

August 17th, 2025

Well, 'Pocket' learned from his mistakes. Can't necessarily say learned as he was actually killed. But same thing. While it is upsetting, I feel like he should've known not to go too far with his powers. If I were to have a murderous instinct like that, I would've been two steps ahead.

August 26th, 2025

What exactly do you see in me, Rhene? Usually people are intimidated by people like me. But you? You treat me as if I was normal. You don't view me as a threat, which surprises me. It truly does. I'm not complaining, but I worry for you sometimes. Not in a bad way though, I just have known you long enough to realize something was wrong.

September 6th, 2025

Well, I was shipped off from Twin Pines. Only for a week though. Parasyte's idea of punishment needs to be studied. As far as I'm concerned, punishments don't involve spending time in a super fancy condo in the Alps. So... see it more as a vacation.

September 10th, 2025

I've made my grand return to the stage! Met up with some friends, both old and new. Oh yeah, I've got my own office now. Hopefully, others don't try and use it while I'm away. Gave Rhene my old coat as repayment for the blanket, hopefully she likes it and it's warm enough. Should be, since it kept me warm. Shout out to the Don for letting me come back early. While the condo was nice, it got pretty lonely. I need to ask people what they know of this "Scooby-Doo"...

October 3rd, 2025

I had a chat with an old friend. They told me to get out while I can. I want to, I really do, but I can't leave all the others behind- especially Rhene. Death- it's inevitable. I guess I'll accept my fate here in Twin Pines, if it meant protecting her.

October 8th, 2025

So I guess I'm up there now... Yeah. We can say that. This hammer will be very... handy.

November 18th, 2025

I watched it happen. I watched the life leave that medics eyes, with my very own. I don't want to remember, but... it keeps replaying in my mind. Over, and over, and over, and fucking over.

November 23rd, 2025

I'm just glad you both made it out alive. Don't scare us again. As for jumping into random portals that just appear out of nowhere, don't fucking do that again. I don't care if you're the Don, or even 'Bugs' for that matter- don't fucking do that again.

December 7th, 2025

I... fell asleep in front of the fire. The usual one. When I finally opened my eyes, I was somewhere else. No clue. No powers. Nothing. A new area. We need to explore. I need to make sure everyone I care about is alive. That's it.