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You look deeply into the power that is catnip. You've never actually smoked or taken catnip ever, even when your father took you to a catnip den just to show you how your actions could lead to horrible, terrifying places. His purpose of that exercise was to instill a duty to truth and just, and to always keep your mind in keen shape. But it ultimately made you more afraid of him.
He told you, on that trip, that your mother devoted almost her entire life to fighting for truth and justice. He told you that in her prime, she was in charge of 6 separate boycotts, 4 sit-ins, and 18 marches on the Indigoan capital. You suspect that it was more inspiration on, look on where you come from, look at where you can go. However, it kind of fell into that trap of destiny that you're battling with in this game.
Destiny is a joke. It bleaches your free will with a margarine coating. Leaving it out in the sun to dry up and get festered by the maggots of time. Destiny, in all forms, as you see it, is evil, and doesn't belong in any society, nonetheless plays a major part in our lives. If we were fated to, say, die at 20, simply due to biological means, then it is expected that you would fight against that fate in hopes for winning. But if we were fated to live a million years, you wouldn't be fighting the fate because it dictates a good outcome.
Destiny is everywhere, and yet we say it doesn't exist. Say, your family is forced to live in a neighborhood that surrounds a lake. Then you may grow up to become a fisherman or a marine biologist. But those options may not be available for you if your family is forced to live in a neighborhood surrounded only by dessert. In which case, other "options" become available, but you are still left with a potential desire for something more, something different than what was originally presented.
This isn't to say that destiny is some oppressive force that instructs all to be in its perfect image. On the contrary, most destiny or fate-bound decisions, like the ones mentioned in the previous paragraph, are completely random, and do not have a definitive point of blame. It would be easy for all decisions to be dictated by one guy or a central organization, entire lives determined by a single stroke of the pen or typing of a word. But the people who would want that deterministic fate, want opposing forces (in this newfound system) of comfort and freedom. They want freedom for themselves, but they are often victims of fate, whose backwardness dictates a movement towards the old, and the more determined.
If you were to do what you wish, instead of whatever this game choses for you, you would just want to hang out with your friends and figure out little problems, like a missing brother, or trying to figure out where some gold is buried. Trying to think of the could be with free will and no destiny seems a bit silly, as though you would be able to keep everything as it was, and not have time pass over you with its inundating might.
Even despite all the could bes and the never weres, you find a second to laugh at the current predicament that you have discovered yourself in. With one leap into a glowing cyan spirograph you have entered a new land, and you feel disappointed with how the land is. How is that even possible. One sentiment of nothing can be attributed to this, and you wouldn't be so uncanny to fall down that pit. But nihilism isn't always the answer. If nothing mattered, then why would anything really exist. If it was all designed to be useless, than why is some of it good, and some of it bad. If nothing really maters, then how has nothing not happened. How has there been so many years of so many universes in so many timelines across so many instances of it all. How has the multiverse persisted in the face of nothing.
You warm up a little to destiny. Maybe it's an ok thing. Maybe it has some flaws, but in it, all is possible. I mentioned the multiverse, but even on a spacial standpoint, the universe is pretty large, especially with multiple of them. Maybe it isn't all too bad. And if it turns out that nothing matters, than why worry about destiny if it just means nothing.
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