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The Graven Groan

The Graven Groan
by Charles E S Fairey 

I found myself haunted in a bottomless dark abode 
I looked out and only saw the world of you, 
I tried to climb but found a paralysis like sleep 
For I had entered the grave, ever so deep. 

My eyes were not eyes but blackened sockets 
My limbs seemed motionless and cold 
My spirit seemed empty and without form 
I felt like I had existed but never been born. 

I could see those shadows of the Other 
Walk over my void trapped remains, 
They walked over me looking for something 
But that something was not me but another thing. 

I felt ignored by the world which had once embraced me 
I felt outcast by the world above I had hoped to attain, 
I felt I had been left in this bottomless grave 
And lied to by those who taught of he whom saves. 

For I had been set adrift upon a dark eternal night of longing 
Set into a motionless mould of that which I once was, 
Yet still I feel an emotional sense of wanting to belong 
Yet the words I wanted to utter were useless without a tongue. 

Here I thought I will remain forever and ever 
Alone in a world of motionless boredom like terror, 
All those things I had done, I had eternity to mull over 
And all the hatred of mine actions to shoulder. 

Why did I not see that if I had seen this mine own sepulchre 
In that life I led when once above this self induced abyss, 
Then maybe upon Death's form I would have taken note 
And never have had to this warning, take to and now wrote. 

Yet why am I here writing so, here from deep deep down below 
Surely I am still beneath this heavy tomb of hallowed earth, 
In this my own self induced dark entombed 
Yet something helped me and in me bloomed. 

For the longer I waited and thought and dreamed 
The insects and fungi and roots entwined, 
And somehow they pulled me from my dreamlike slumber 
And my mind woke from its death-like state all a'sunder. 

And now I'm among the birds and the sky 
And now I survey all that which was long ago, 
All of which I had held onto dear, but now I have let go of all my fear 
And now I'm free of all life's sin, once I was there, yet no longer here. 

But here I am in the after, the time which knows no sand 
Learning that which I had seldom been taught, 
And that which I now am, a part of all things ever known 
No longer just a motionless corpse of everlasting bone.