1987

Reggie's personal statement in 1987:

 

“I have had a wonderful life – I can’t say that enough; if I had to die tomorrow it would be just fine, as I have lived – you have to have lived to be able to accept your own death. I’ve had a lot of love and support from my family, my lovers, my friends. I have been lucky enough to have been surrounded by wonderful people and have tried to circumvent those who have not been.

I am not afraid of death and maybe it’s because I don’t think of it as the end; when I walk through that tunnel into the light, I really believe there is something beyond – that this is just the end of existence as we know it and we move into something else. 

I have known many people who are diagnosed with this disease, and other terminally ill people through my profession, who hang onto this little piece of paper they call “hope” in their hand. A lot of them die with it still clutched in their hand. My hope lies in the future. I don’t believe there will be a cure for me. I can take AZT or whatever drugs are developed to prolong my life for a time, but my hope is for finding a vaccine to prevent children of the future from getting HIV.

There is so much work to do. I am not as strong as I once was and I have to tell myself to realize that I cannot do everything, even though my head is always racing with things to take care of. My body sometimes can no longer keep up with my mind. I will continue to do as much as I can for as long as I have the strength to keep going.            

I only hope that I know when the moment comes that it is my time to die; it would make things so much easier! I could hold my lover and kiss good-night and then go to sleep.

I truly have had such a wonderful life!”

Reggie Williams, San Francisco, 1987