– The conditional recognition that certain aspects of a creative or social process will forever be out of ones control, and the peace of mind and creative potential of that realization. The anticipation of both the stagnant nature of the seemingly best scenarios and the unique creative potential of the blatantly worst moments. It stands for "pathetic aesthetics". Loosely it means "do it anyway you can with no resources" or "the artful solution is the most fun". Or more confusingly "do what with, with what you have." It is not a nod to the resulting appearance necessarily, but underscores a strategy of adaptability and feistiness that one needs to have to get things done in an environment where at any moment a hundred drunken party monsters can descend upon you and cover everything with joyous screeching and booty moves. the state of “scrappy glory”. The wave is coming, and you have to get this plastic playground slide out of here! It is most efficiently illustrated, I believe, with the phrase "Is that thing bothering you? Screw it to the wall. Boom."

It also acknowledges what role "lack of control" can, or should, have over something big and complicated and social (such as a show in your house), but it also relates to having a subtle hand on things, a respect for "vibes," and an organic approach to life. Paesthetics comes out of practical need. When you ratchet the variables up and refuse to impinge upon even and asshole’s right to some kind of good time, Paesthetics will be your guide. its It’s like building a chair while being chased by a pack of wolves though a thrift store, after-hours. 

Paesthetics LLC 

– Our idea for the entity intended to be the public face of the Silent Barn. Silent barn is the physical space one would go to for shows projects and community and home. Paesthetics LLC organizes to run that space, and to figure out how anyone could conceivably run such a space, and present those findings transparently.


– A term relating to the sum total of history of stories surrounding the Silent Barn, with a focus on a weaving of unorthodox story organization. The archives, the loose threads, the half remembered nights, the cast off ideas, the unrealized dreams, the living dreams, the waves of roommates, the relationships frozen in jellied time. Any media related to the Barn, and our path represented in information. The word seems appropriate because of the connotations of obscure knowledge that statements like “if you can remember it, you didn’t have a good
time” call to mind. The arcane knowledge nightlife lived bares. What a thousand parties teach.

The Husk 

– The name for the building that was the former location of the Silent Barn at 915 Wyckoff Avenue, off the Halsey stop on the L train. The term acknowledges the amount real emotion that we all still have for the building, while admitting that we’ve moved on and left it behind like old skin. It was weird having to talk about the actual building that was the silent barn that now didn’t feel like the silent barn and in-fact was not the silent barn. That because of this transition, from physical place to organization idea back to physical place, we have a chance to change in good ways and stay the say the same in


– Declaration of affirmation or matter of fact-ness. Very rarely negative, mostly positive declaration relating to the inscrutable nature of cat communication. A natural summing up of ambiguities in social situations that require a deadpan understanding of the futility of freaking out. similar to “C'est lavie” or “hey man, I’m just a cat trying to live my life”. Sometimes a philosophically healthy attitude to have when there are shows in your house everyday.

Stunt Booking 

– The counter-intuitive booking of performances/events/gatherings with the intention of “seeing what happens”, out of curiosity. Only done with a spirit of hopeful innocent optimism or hopeful frantic desperation and works best with two floors and two stages. Encourages cross scene exposure and random social mixing. Punks making out with hippies.

Plate Glass

A strong rolled and polished glass containing few impurities, used for mirrors and large windows.

Stew, Soup, in the 

– “in the Soup” or references to “the Stew” are catch-all terms for the inspiring, exhilarating, and maddening kind of human/cultural/intimate interactions that are the experience of living at a place like The Silent Barn. The fact that the Barn was both a home and a public performance environment meant that it was not convenient to compartmentalize behavior into “appropriate for the space”; behaviors and ideas were taken at face value, considered if they were right for the moment. While making soup, you don’t hold up an ingredient and ask: “is this appropriate for soup?”, it’s better to ask: “will this meld together pleasingly or at least gloriously with the other ingredients at hand?”. Even if you are wrong, it always tastes better the second day. Even a failed soup can have more ingredients added and “woken back up” The Food metaphors go a long way, because the many steps in the process of making soup or stew call to mind the kind of mingling of different ingredients and methods that bubble and congeal to make a healthy, vibrant show and living space. Ingredients must be prepared, but can include almost anything. Balance must be achieved, but good things can come from messy experiments. Once everything’s in the pot, heat is applied and you wait for it to boil up. If it boils up,
you turn the heat down to simmer. When you go to a show, you are an ingredient in the soup; a spice, a stock, a bobbin’ tuber, boiling along, releasing flavor and nutrients. If you happen to live “in the soup” then you are privy to all the manic different ingredients day in and day out and they become easy to digest (soup is healthy, goes down easy, and is good in winter). Working toward good food and good cultured gatherings both have in mind delicious results. And they are ultimately sustaining.

LoL Chef 

– Anyone willing to spearhead a project or idea, something that could be still very undefined, causing the constant state of LoLz. Or anyone who decided to have fun with taking notes. One can really take notes on anything. Meetings, deep listening recordings, or pizza parties. The way your brain functions when it is listening and writing at the same time is a special thing, and can be considered a therapeutic brain exercise, actually making you smarter. Lolz!

The Kitchen 

- The code word for when a project or idea is "active". The mental place we actively operate projects in. Bands used to play in our Kitchen, AND food was cooked in the Kitchen. There’s nothing you can’t do in a kitchen. It’s full of tools and activity and potential. Anyone who enters is a potential chef. The Kitchen is easy to clean, great surfaces.

The Fridge 

– The code word for when a project is “on Hold”. Things go in The Fridge because they're important, not because we're throwing them away. We need to be honest with ourselves about what we're prioritizing each week. And we shouldn’t worry, because The Fridge keeps things fresh. It's better to keep most stuff in the fridge and pick at it if/when you get hungry, then to pull everything out and let it rot... I think an easy rule of thumb is if it doesn't have a 3/hr or less goal, lets just say, before the next meeting, it should go back in The Fridge. Our fridge got pretty intense over the years, after we installed a lighting board and an mp3 player. Keeping things in the fridge is intended to take the stigma away from changing project priorities week to week, preventing that black hole effect that appears when we've decided something’s important, but nobody writes an update. It doesn't get added to the agenda, and then it doesn't get talked about, and it just sits out in The Kitchen, going from stale to finally rotten...

The Skull 

“Don’t Take the Skull Out Of the Fridge” – Our fridge also contained a small skull, which for some reason was our totem omen of luck. That is, Sometimes bad things can happen suddenly, and keep happening, as if there is a vortex of bad luck threatening to suck you in at any moment, complete with bad wind and bad rain, sticky grey omens, one after another. But, thankfully, the vortex can’t always get us, and it seems that it only has a very small opening in reality that it can reach us through, as if there was a small portal of potentialities into the future of our luck. So all you need is something to plug that hole, and at the Silent Barn it came in the form of the skull in the fridge, which was there at the beginning. As long as the skull stayed in the fridge, our chance of being sucked into a future of ill tidings and rotten luck was significantly reduced. Everyone needs their totems or charms, their calming traditions. And I swear, if have enough people over sooner or later you’re going to need some psychic protection, you’ll get as superstitious as a sports team during finals.


past participle, past tense of ap·por·tion (Verb)
  1. Divide and allocate: "voting power will be apportioned according to contribution".
  2. Assign: "they did not apportion blame to anyone".

Mechanic's Lien

A mechanic's lien is a security interest in the title to property for the benefit of those who have supplied labor or materials that improve the property. The lien exists for both real property and personal property. In the realm of real property, it is called by various names, including, generically, construction lien. It is also called a materialman's lien or supplier's lien when referring to those supplying materials, a laborer's lien when referring to those supplying labor, and a design professional's lien when referring to architects or designers who contribute to a work of improvement. In the realm of personal property, it is also called an artisan's lien. The term "lien" comes from a French root, with a meaning similar to link; it is related to "liaison." Mechanic's liens on property in the United States date from the 18th century.

Without the mechanic's lien, the contractor would have a limited number of options to enforce payment of the amounts owed. Further, there is usually a long list of claimants on any failed project. To avoid the specter of various trades, materialmen and suppliers attempting to remove the improvements they have made, and to maintain a degree of equality between the various lienors on a project, the statutory lien scheme was created. Without it, Tradesperson A may try to "race" Supplier B to the courthouse, the project site or the construction lender to obtain payment. Most lien statutes instead mandate strict compliance with the formalized process they create in return for the timely resolution and balancing of claims between all parties involved - both owners and lien claimants.

The Ghost 

– the irreducible flaw or discrepancy in balancing the common DIY budget. Weather due to a single big mistake or many little mistakes, the ghost flits in and out of the columns of figures, intangible and difficult to track; this is mostly due to the impossibility of reducing the variables in running a not-really-a business, a blatantly ridiculous madhouse of uncategorizible relationships, where it could be that you drank all the beer yourself, or maybe you just spent too much on wrestling chick-peas that month. Oooooooooooo……..the ghost asks you to
feel bad, but its ultimately not your fault. Uuhhhhhhhhhooooooo…

Castle Oscar 

– The big orange cat that is our mascot, pet, expert mouser and spiritual advisor. Punk as hell, he was rescued from a shelter near new lots Ave. Brooklyn. We picked him because he didn’t seem to care that we wanted to adopt him. He bit my hand when I first tried to say hello, but not hard. When the shelter employee looked at his papers he said with a big smile “oh shit this cat is from the ghetto!” he’s not much for playing with balls, but likes the attack-your-feet-in-socks game. He’s as strong as a castle, as grand and as grave as a castle, and perpetually gives the impression of having lead a previous life of crime that he’ll never tell you about. He’s seems generally glad to have settled down into a nice calm experimental showspace.

Bed n Breakfast 

– The concept that working performers should have a place to stay for the night if they want it, and should be fed if they need it. If that means we’re a bed and breakfast than so be it. It should be acknowledged that in a live/work, public/private environment such as the Silent Barn, it seems a little more natural to let the band stay over (cause we’re just going to bed over there) and cook a big meal (because we’re just going to eat as well). If it’s even a little easier, then it probably should be done. This would exponentially increase the
amount of comraderous hangtime and speed the performers on to the next stop on tour. It also reconfigures the social relationship through food and sleep, where artists have a place in society and we’re not just transacting only money in our relationships.

Party Lab 

– The large, hilarious, multi-channel-microphone recording array in the Silent Barn, an idea that has subsequently been applied to other places of social gathering, in an effort to produce field recording abstracts of “the totality of a large event over time” for sampling projects and deep listening analysis. Its characterized by a large mixer somewhere fun inside the space and masses of snaking cable leading to mics placed in areas of congregation and activity.


– The home made arcade playing monthly curated video games by independent artists, designers, and programmers that was in the basement space of the Silent Barn, which was then installed in many spaces around the land. Characterized by homemade videogame consoles in the shapes of tanks or hanging pillars or glowing red squares on the floor or crowd-surfing bears, one can have “a babycastle” or walk inside “BabyCastles” or modify any babycastles in any possible way, including projecting it into the future, blessing it, or escaping
with it in a helicopter.

Science Sh(elf)

- research notes of local scientists. When I close my eyes to visualize Silent Barn, I see mouse brains. More like mouse brains magnified 40x, which looks like neuron shaped floaters in my visual field. When I open my eyes, I see neurons in the texture of the wall and the tiles in my bathroom. My towels contain many pyramidal neurons. The red wine stain on the floor is a spiny stellate neuron. Each splatter of bird shit on the sidewalk under the J train is a neuron extending its white and yellow process to connect to another neuron and each connection
leads to the hundreds of connections that comprise the neural network at the Central Ave stop (is it sentient? I hope so).


In folklore, the golem is a revenge enforcer made of clay by a rabbi.  All golems have a tattoo under or on their tongue. Or on their forehead


past participle, past tense of de·mise (Verb)
  1. Convey or grant (an estate) by will or lease.
  2. Transmit (a sovereign's title) by death or abdication.