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Faith for Healing Bipolar Disorder



FAITH FOR HEALING 



Bipolar disorder (formerly called manic depression) is a disease of the brain usually characterized by dramatic changes in mood and activity levels, ranging from depression to mania to extreme mania (psychosis). This mood disorder can be both debilitating and damaging for the social and professional life of the affected individual. I was diagnosed in December, 1982 after experiencing my first psychotic manic episode.


Scientists continue to study this complex neurological disorder. Researchers want to know more about how chemical neurotransmitters in the brain communicate with other parts of the brain and nervous system. Though there are no definitive answers, scientists do agree that bipolar disorder is a biochemical, neurological disorder and that genetic and environmental factors play a role.


The mysteries surrounding this disease led me to believe that the best I could hope for would be to develop coping strategies and a lifestyle that minimized my bipolar symptoms. I wished for a major medical breakthrough to heal this disease; the idea of a Supernatural Divine healing never entered my mind!


Most of my life I’ve been a Cessationist when it comes to some of the Spiritual Gifts  mentioned in the New Testament. In particular, I thought the gift for Divine Healing “ceased” at the end of the Apostolic Age. I ridiculed “faith healers,” believing that the healings were staged.


Despite my unbelief and reluctance, I allowed a Pastor to pray for my healing on Feb 21, 2016. He told me that God neither caused nor wanted me to be mentally ill and asked me to never say “I am mentally ill!” again. Sin, sickness, and death came into this world through Adam when Satan enticed him to sin. Jesus’ Model Prayer tells us to pray for God’s will to be done in earth as it is in heaven, and there’s no sickness in heaven. Psalm 103:3 says he heals ALL of our diseases. Jesus died on the cross for our transgressions, our iniquities, and for our infirmities. By his stripes we are [already have been] healed! We just need to accept this free gift of healing just as we received the free gift of salvation.


On December 20, 2017 I prayed with Todd White on Daystar TV, and my hearing was healed. Later that day I prayed a similar prayer, and an unknown mass in my right lung disappeared. Curious to learn more about Todd White and his LifestyleChristianity.com ministry, I attended my first PowerandLove.org event in Orlando on Feb 21-24, 2018.


Thursday February 22 had been a long day. It was probably between 11:00-11:30 pm when I returned to my extended stay hotel. The older building had concrete balconies with iron railings that extended the length of each side of the three floors. When I got off the elevator I turned the wrong way and went through the doors leading to the other side of the building. Observing the numbers on the rooms, I knew I was lost. A woman was standing there, leaning over the railing, smoking a dark cigarette (or cigar), looking like the bottom had just fallen out of her world!


She told me where my room was, but the Holy Spirit told me to talk with and pray for her. I hesitated a moment, but reasoned that if I prayed for her she MIGHT be healed, but if I didn’t, the outcome would be that she definitely would NOT be healed!


I began by giving her a couple of minutes of my testimony with four main points: a) I had been in a longterm care facility in 2012; b) my bipolar disorder was healed almost exactly two years ago; c) my hearing was healed in Dec, 2017; and d) I was attending a conference to learn about praying for others to be healed.


I then inquired if she had any pain or illnesses. She said, “I am bipolar.” I told the Holy Spirit that I was the only person with bipolar disorder that I knew of that had been healed from that horrible disease. I asked Him why He gave me such a tough one for my first assignment. I’d prayed for the healing of my hearing and the mass in my lung in December; in January I prayed for the healing of my grandson who was coming down with the flu. I had never prayed for a complete stranger to be healed, but I told the Holy Spirit “I said I’d pray for her, and I’m all in!”


She and I bonded in a conversation about our bipolar experiences. I found out that her grandfather was a devout Christ follower, that she became a Christian at age eight, and that she was extremely mad at God for letting her be sexually abused from ages 3-15. She had been depressed ever since her daughter was born. She was in and out of mental hospitals, and she’d attempted suicide four times. She’d never been able to take care of her four-month-old granddaughter. The only positive memories she could recall were some times when her daughter was young and when she played softball and volleyball in high school.


I asked if she had pain anywhere. She said she hurt all over her body; she’d experienced excruciating pain for over 7 yrs. She had taken morphine, oxycontin, hydrocodone, and other drugs. Then she added that she’d been diagnosed with MS in 1999. My level of faith for healing quickly sunk to about 10% as I asked God “Are you kidding me? Bipolar disorder AND multiple sclerosis?” But I was all in. The worst that could happen was that nothing would happen!


I asked if she’d like for me to pray with her, and she said “Yes.” After getting permission to touch her, I put my arm around her, lowered my head, and began to pray and to command that these two infirmities leave her body. When I finished, I looked up and saw her standing up straight with a huge smile on her face. My first thought was that maybe aliens had picked up the woman who was leaning over the railing with a dejected look on her face and replaced her with this exuberant one. 


I was thinking “one down, but what about the MS?” I asked her about her pain level. She checked out each part of her body and said there was a little numbness in one of her legs. I asked if she wanted me to pray again, and she said “No. It will probably be gone when you come by on Sunday to see me before you leave.”


She kept saying, “I don’t believe this. I never thought anything like this could ever happen to me!” I silently thought “You’re not half as surprised as I am!” I asked what the next thing she wanted to do now that she was healed. She said she’d like to pick up her young granddaughter and take care of her all by herself, without supervision.


Seven months later, out of the blue, I received a text from her.


“…I hope you don't mind me reaching out to you, but I just have to tell you what you did for me! I've been a Christian my whole life, but for about 30 years I had dramatically lost my faith. If you recall, I had been abused my entire child/teenage years and suffer from bipolar and MS. I started trying to restore my faith in 2017, yet still having many struggles, many questions, and desperately wanting to love God again.


You put your hands on me that night and prayed for me! Whatever God did through you that night changed my life, my heart, my soul, and yes my faith! I love God again!! I feel him in my life and many things have been changing for me. I pray all the time. My husband has come back to his faith; we pray together! 


I just want to say thank you for taking the time to say hi that night and helping a person become whole again!! I consider you an Angel sent to me in my greatest ever time of need!!  Always your friend, …” 






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Meemaw Surrendered,
Oct 18, 2018, 8:13 AM
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