I seeked the Truth all my life. First since my childhood I thought that music is something really special that uplifts our spirit. But later on I felt that I have so many questions about life, about myself to which music could not answer. I understood that music just made me feel nice for a while, but then I come back to reality and I had to face the challenges of the life that were far from music.
And I felt my questions were not answered. I also enjoyed singing, and I was studying it professionally, but I felt that it is something that comes from me to the outside world while I don't even know anything about my own Self. I graduated from musical school at the age of fourteen while I still was not satisfied from inside.
I wanted to study seriously something that would help me understand the world inside and outside of me.
According to Russian culture at that time (where was no place for religion) science was the thing which was supposed to answer all the questions.
Then I started studying mathematics. I went to mathematics high school for 3 years. Mathematics is such a wonderful pure science that was
always said to be very godly and divine. Yet very soon I felt it was limited as well.
In the university I studied Electrical Engineering and later on for my Masters Degree I did Applied Mathematics. I became scientist. Then I did research work in Mathematics, did my Phd.
I had hundreds of acticles, all the time wrote something new which I discovered and discribed. The general opinion about science was such in Russia: science can answer all the questions. But as a scientict myself I had to admit that could not be true: even if you to try to describe even a simplest molecule or atom you will see another whole universe inside of it - you could say they were planets inside of it, and just as I was looking for perfection to learn something completely once and for all I could not completely understand even one simple atom. So my doubts would not leave me and I was understanding that I am still quite away from the Truth.
Then the time of Perestroika came and the freedom came to the land of Russia. Many new spiritual directions and practices started to spread then among Russian people. Some came from abroad and some were "home-made".
There were some meeting of seekers too, which were organised in
a hall of a movie theatre, where the people that have been to different
directions would present to everybody what they have learned. On one of
such meetings one man who just went to Sahaja Yoga meeting couple of times
and learned how to give self-realization
shared his experience with us and he gave self-realization to everybody
present in the hall. We followed very simple statements,few steps and in
5-10 minutes everybody felt cool or hot breeze on their hands and on the
top of head.
This lecture that Shri Mataji gave was so full of love to all the people
and it touched the deepest part of my self. I liked it so much that every
day I listened to this lecture at home. And I went again and again with
this tape through the experience of
He was a manager and had about 15 people in his group. Then Shri Mataji
came to Russia and we came to Her lecture.Shri Mataji spoke in a very scientific
manner and the things She told were so deep and amazing that as a scientist
As so many people were not well in Russia She asked medical doctors
from abroad who were practicing Sahaja Yoga to come and help Russian people.
With Sahaja Yoga doctors could do much more as they could work on a subtle
level, not to count all the natural medicines from India. I understood
that Sahaja Yoga is Meta Science, it goes beyond science. Unless we get
our self-realization our mind is not connected to the reality around us,
and in such condition it is limited. Self-realization is our evolutionary
process, and the whole society rise to a new level of collective awareness
when we can feel what is going on inside of us and in the Nature.
When our power of Love is no longer mental, but we are actually connected
to the mains, and it flows through us, heals, balances, brings peace to
our friends, loved ones, to the world, to the environment and most importanly
we become our own guide on the way
At the end of lecture, Shri Mataji said: " God bless you..." It was so great to say it openly in our society so anti-religious at that time. But we knew for sure.
She said: "As scienticts you should see if it works or not, and take it as a proof."
And it worked, it was great!!!
With love and respect to All yogis, to All seekers of truth,
Raya Levitan ( I apologise for my mistakes in English).