The Seeking Self, The Satisfied Self

posted Nov 11, 2018, 9:43 PM by Ricardo Hidalgo

The seeking self writes to find something that is missing, to be seen and heard by the reader.
The satisfied self writes to express and share its satisfaction and to guide those seeking.

The seeking self needs something that appears to be missing. Thus, rejects what is and seeks what is not.
The satisfied self needs nothing that is not present here/now.

The seeking self experiences a fundamental sense of lack - lack of time, lack of skill, lack of safety/security, lack of support, lack of connection, lack of recognition, lack of ease, lack of fun and joy, lack of satisfaction, lack of power, lack of hope. It attributes this sense of lack to something missing here/now in the mind, body, world, or self. 

The satisfied self experiences a fundamental sense of satisfaction - nothing is missing or needed that is not present here/now, and what is present now is not needed as the source of satisfaction and well-being. Its source of satisfaction comes from nothing in the mind, body, or world, but from its very self - pure Being being aware, and recognizing its infinite, eternal, imperturbable, open, knowing nature - pure consciousness.

The seeking self looks to everything but itself for satisfaction, imagining, believing and feeling that its self is inherently lacking. Thus, it overlooks the only source of true, stable, reliable, satisfaction. At best, it finds temporary satisfaction when something or someone appears that it believed and felt it needed and its seeking comes temporarily to an end. It attributes its satisfaction to the object, other, or situation, rather than to the absence of seeking.

Notice, the seeking self appears and disappears; comes and goes. It is not present all the time. Yet the satisfied self, consciousness itself, is ever-present, knowing and touching all experience, while being made of no experience. It is what is knowing the appearance and disappearance of the seeking self. When the seeking self stops seeking temporarily, the ever-present satisfied self shines in experience. 

The ever-present, satisfied self is present, yet overlooked and apparently veiled when the seeking self appears. It is what is knowing the sense of lack and the seeking. Thus, the satisfied self remains itself and present when the seeking self appears. It needs nothing, including the disappearance of the seeking self to know itself, to be aware of itself, to recognize and be in touch with itself. It is the knowing with which all experience is known, from the darkest, despairing depression (the seeking self) to the deepest joy and bliss (the satisfied self). It is the awareness in which all experience is appearing, with which it is being known, and, ultimately out of which it is being made. It is consciousness itself.

Which of these of our true self? The appearing and disappearing seeking self or the ever-present satisfied self this is knowing the coming and going of the seeking self?

Know thyself!