"The Hound, The Lamp Post & The Seabird"

Previously on my "Faith" page
...I ran out (of fantasy to read). Remember this was early/mid-1970's. Tolkien's books had just created a new fantasy market in the U.S. Virtually all of the fantasy you're familiar with today--both books and the worlds themselves--didn't exist yet. Except in daydreams...
I couldn't find anything to read, so I decided to write. Since I was writing fantasy anyway, I decided that I should begin by writing a world-hopping (Narnia-like) tale but for adults (i.e. me).

My Original Motivations (The Long Version)


The Hound, the Lamp Post and the Seabird

How a Hound Led to a Seabird

In midsummer 1970, I was a discontented psychology grad student, halfway between a messy break-up with a long-term boyfriend and a semester in which I would take physiology with no biology since high school while teaching psych statistics. During the day, I worked full time at the university library and tried to make sense of the physiology text. I spent my nights fending off the Hound.

The Hound of Heaven was after me, prodding me to make a decision about what I really believed. G and I had both been agnostics. I had been exposed to Christian teachings via Sunday School from about 3rd to 9th grade and then virtually nothing. For a long time, my only response to the prodding was in bookstores where I picked up books with religious-sounding titles while on the eternal hunt for fantasy books. I had read The Hobbit years ago when I was a freshman and followed it with The Lord of the Rings. G didn’t care much for fantasy and I was extremely busy, so I let my new interest drop until that summer.

Back in 1970, there was little fantasy to be had in spite of the popularity of Tolkien’s work. Lin Carter at Ballantine had reprinted a line of old titles by Lord Dunsany and Mervyn Peake. I found Lindsay’s Voyage to Arcturus in the university library. There was C. S .Lewis but, you see, Lewis was Christian and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to get into that whole "mess" of making decisions about things that might change my life.

I reached the point where I really had no other fantasy to choose from in our local bookstore, so I picked up all seven volumes of The Chronicles of Narnia. (I hate having broken sets.) When I was checking out, either the cashier or a customer suggested that I begin with The Magician’s Nephew because that way I would be reading the books in chronological order. I read The Magician’s Nephew that night and was captivated by the idea of a lion singing a world into existence and by a world so bursting with life that a fragment of a lamp post buried in its soil sprang to life. A week later, I went to an evening meeting on campus and accepted Christ as my savior.

Over the following years, I read everything I could find by Lewis and followed that with everything I could find by the other Inkling, Charles Williams. I searched repeatedly for fantasy books I had missed earlier and I found a few from time to time but Tolkien was just beginning to have an impact on the publishing world and I lived in a small town with a small bookstore. Plus, this was the 1970’s B.A. (Before Amazon)

Eventually, I decided to write a fantasy story. I had written a bit before many years earlier--mostly time travel stuff. This would be my first attempt at an actual novel. The first step would be to "become organized" and make a list of everything that my novel should have in it.

The Daydream Novel List  went rather like this:

a heroine (who would actually be me),

no elves or dragons (maybe for fear of competing with Tolkien?),

wizards, but not like Tolkien’s;

a jump from one world to another--based partially on Narnia but running back to my childhood daydreams of time travel),

the heroine would not instantly cooperate about her visit or her role (aside from Eustace, everyone visiting Narnia seemed to just follow along),

an artifact, for two reasons—1. to be mysterious here on Earth and 2. at the end to be proof that it had all been real (I disliked the insinuation in the "Wizard of Oz" film that Dorothy had envisioned Oz while delirious);

heroes who rode horses and carried weapons (a leftover from my preteen exposure to TV serial westerns;

a really –different- setting,

a sequel with overlapping characters.


When you come to the end of all the light you know, and it’s time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: Either you will be given something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.    -Edward Teller 

I love the recklessness of faith. First you leap, and then you grow wings. -William Sloane Coffin


I didn’t begin with an story outline—I hated making outlines—but just plunged in with Cara finding the as yet unidentified "artifact". Each day, my novel grew by approximately eight sheets in my 8x5 spiral notebook. Sorry about the culture shock! This was before personal computers. I had a typewriter but I couldn’t carry it around so I opted for the notebook.

After a while, perhaps a week or two, my inspiration dried up. I had taken enough English courses to realize that I didn’t know what my characters wanted or where I was heading with my plot. Plot? What plot? My list of Stuph was all on the surface. What was going on inside? Staring at the wall established the fact that the wall had cracks and the room needed painting.

Since I was still a fairly new Christian, it took a while for the penny to drop and for me to pray for guidance. I asked for help and promptly went into wool-gathering mode

What did I want? What had I been looking for at the bookstore? What had I wanted when I finished The Lord of the Rings? God wanted my salvation. I wanted another good story, not necessarily LotR II but a complex fantasy world with people I could relate to. I positively –loved- The Chronicles of Narnia but technically Lewis had written it for children. What a shame he hadn’t held off on The Last Battle and written more stories bringing in older protagonists from Earth…


I "checked in" to see if I were on the right track, and felt I had the go-ahead. Along with it, came a flood of "new ideas", which I should have considered critical from the beginning.


The Duh List

The new list of necessary story elements included:

an actual reason for the protagonist’s presence on this other world (aka a plot);

a varied cast of characters whom I must get to know intimately;

an agnostic teen or one struggling with doubts about his or her faith;

mistakes leading to regret and feelings of guilt; eventual reconciliation;

a world just as loved and saved by God as ours and Narnia—but in a different way; with a new representation for the Second Person of the Trinity;

the awe and delight of knowing God, shown as Lewis did it. Doing this meant a lot to me. In fact, this had become nearly the whole point of the exercise;

a deeply embedded yet subtle pattern in the setting and culture showing how this world’s reconciliation with God became possible.

And then a biggie, right out of the blue: An alternate history of the church beginning after the Incarnation, Christ’s Sacrifice and His return to Heaven where the abundant miracles of the Early Church would alter over time as needs changed. Enchanters would be called to wield these miraculous powers, each as granted from God. To the casual observer (or reader) it will look like magic but it wouldn’t be.

All of this subtly hidden in plain sight so as not to spook the person I used to be. No question: I was writing for all the other doubting or agnostic fantasy-readers like my old self who needed a subtle invitation to taste and see. If fellow Christians liked the book, that would be great but I needed to help those made nearly impervious to the call by what Lewis named the Watchful Dragons.

I almost forgot one necessary element. Learning how to write. Sigh. I continue to work on the foundation for that one. I pray that my desire to share the joy of knowing God makes up for my abysmal execution of the message.

I used various plot ideas as testing grounds for my characters, jiggery-poking different elements until I knew what path I was supposed to follow.

However, I was still missing a key element. I went down the shore to Ocean City New Jersey on vacation. While I was there I searched vigilantly until I found it—a silver necklace shaped like a soaring seabird. My artifact, and the representation of Narenta’s Savior.



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How a Hound Led to a Seabird