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·  Monday, March 10, 2008 9:24 PM, PDT

Hi everyone. I had a second so I thought I would send an update. First off, I want to thank you for all your prayers. It's been such a long day. I'll give a quick update.

Jake took me to the ER Sat because I was having horrible stomach pains and bleeding. They checked me in and long story short, admitted me because my potassium levels were dangerously low. They did an EKG and a CAT scan. The cat scan showed that I had some kind of tumor in my intestines. All day, they have been flushing my system out and I had a biopsy. They showed some masses in my intestines and as of right how, they don't know if it's cancer. I should know tomorrow. I do have another mass outside my lower intestines and a large mass behind my uterus and lesions on my liver. The doctors think I have cancer but won't know for sure until they do we do more test.

THis morning was really hard for me. I didt get my room until 2 am and thats when it hit me that I was sick...just being wheeled through the hospital alone. This morning I was really emotional too. I'm just glad to have today over with. It's a relief. I'm tired...haven't slept since Friday night. I just got moved into a private room and Jake is staying with me thankfully. Jake has been amazing and he's a slight for sore eyes.

But overall, I feel at peace right now. I have full trust in God and the doctors that they can heel me. My husband and children need me so I'm going to do whatever I have to to get through this. I've been though cancer before with Aaron and I can do it again. Please continue to pray. I can feel them. I'm going to go snuggle with Jake and hopefully get some sleep tonight. Pray for Jade and Brynne too. They're really worried about me.

I'm strong....I know God will help me through this. I can feel him so close.

Amanda and Jeni, please pass this news on. Sorry for the typos...I'm a little foggy right now.

Good night.



·  Tuesday, March 11, 2008 3:21 PM, PDT

Hi everyone,

Well, I had my liver biopsy done and the results weren't as good as I was hoping. I have tumors all over my liver. If it was in just a section, they could have cut it out but since it's all over the place they can only do chemo. But we are still waiting to find out where it's coming from. We haven't heard the results from my intestine biopsy yet and I'm waiting to see an OB surgeon to figure out what's going on with the tumor behind my uterus. So when we know where the cancer is coming from, we'll know how to attack it. The doctor looked through all my ultrasounds that I had with Jacob and he didn't see anything so that means that this is most likely a very aggressive cancer which could be a good thing. When it's an aggressive growing cancer, it responds well to treatment. So we're still waiting to hear.

Jessica brought the kids today. I can tell Jadyn is a little freaked out. She's the one I worry about the most. The poor little girl has been through enough. I just hope that they can stay busy and hopefully in a week I can go home. They said they will most likely do my first treatment of chemo here to see how I tolerate it.

How am I handling this...I'm sure you guys are all wondering. It's hard....we were so blindsided by this. But, I know...I KNOW I will get through this. God is going to use me in some way. I've been through too much. I'm ready to fight this and I'm ready to win. My children need me and I have the most amazing husband that I want to spend a long time with. Jake has been the most amazing thing in my life besides my children and I feel so blessed to have him here with me.

Thank you to all the prayers....and please keep them coming. I need them so bad right now. I still feel at peace and know I will get through this. My parents need prayer as well. They've already lost a child and I'm sure the thought of this is heartbreaking...so please pray for them and my family. This isn't an easy thing...but I will get through it....I just know it....no doubt in my mind. I am strong, young, and I'm a fighter....always have been. I have faith in God and I know he will take care of me. Cancer is nothing for God to handle.

I am going to go now...hoping the ob doctor comes soon. Jake went home to shower and put the baby down for a nap. Jessica took the girls to the park. Jake is going to go to work tomorrow which I think that will be good for him. Tomorrow is another day.

I will keep you guys updated. Feel free to forward this on as you please. Again, thank you for all your support and prayers....and PLEASE keep them coming....please

I love you all.



·  Wednesday, March 12, 2008 12:52 PM, CDT

Gooooooooood morning!!!

Lets see....where do I start. Last night the doctor that did my intestine thing came in and told Jake and I that the results came back negative...I don't have any cancer inside my colon. He said he doesnt know about the outside though and won't know until they open me up. He said the inside could look good but the outside could be a mess. The only thing I'm a little worried about is having a bag coming out of my body where....well, you know...all your stuff goes. He said that I have 20 cms of colon and he only needs 10 cms to hook all the pluming back up...so lets hope for the best huh??? So they said that they are wanting to cut me open and go in and start cutting out whatever needs to be gone. They might have to cut down the middle of my stomach but I'm hoping they can just use my c-section scan....wishful thinking I know.

After that doctor left, Jake helped me shower and we laid in bed and watched tv and then talked in bed for a while. It's hard being in his shoes (I know since I've been there). I can fight....but he's almost helpless. It's a hard place to be. He went home about 1030 I think. They moved me down to the oncology floor (room 209) and I can say that night times down here aren't the best. Someone fell last night, another person was moaning in pain and the mood wasn't as happy-go-lucky as the cardiac floor. I really missed my kids last night...knowing that their in bed little so sweet and innocent (HA j/k) makes me want to be home so bad to kiss them and love them and let them know that mommy is perfectly okay...and I will be okay. So I had a long cry last night and I cried out to God and it felt so good to release some emotion and actually allow myself to feel what is going on. My IV makes this sound....it sounds exactly like a rocking chair....rocking back and forth. After my cry, I visualized God in the rocking chair holding me and rocking me back and forth and it put me right to sleep. I love that sound now!

My place where they took my liver biopsy isn't that sore anymore and I can breath much better thankfully.

This morning the oncologist came in and said that my blood shows no trace of anything going on which is odd. He said that I'm 'unique' and I said "Thats right I am!!! Don't ever forget it!! You don't know who you're dealing with here do ya!!" and laughed. He said that they're hoping to get all the results back today. The results that we have are just quick ones so they're going to do more screening.

Then later on this morning, Dr. Hanson came in which I just love to pieces. He's so cool. He's my OB doctor that will be going in with the general surgeon. It was his day off but he just wanted to stop by and tell me that they still don't know anything. He said that the surgery will be a little worse then a c-sections...especially if they have to take some of my colon out. So we'll see.

I did find out that I can put regular jammies on...yahoooooooooooooooooooo.

Jake is going to stay with me tonight which I'm really looking forward too. Last night I was reading this 'heeling verses' out of the bible and I was just looking for some kind of sign that everything is going to be fine. I mean, I can do anything and get through it but it would be nice to be sure....even though that's where your faith comes into play. But anyways, I read this verse and I had this feeling come over me...cant explain it....like it was the holy spirit. The verse said "Your faith has healed you; go...be heeled from your disease" I laid my head back and repeated it over and over again.

So far, I know it's only been like 3 or 4 days, but it's been an amazing experience. I just can't explain it. I know the hard part is yet to come but I'm ready for it. Everyone out there....seriously, you should take advantage over every single minute you have because this life is such an awesome journey. Enjoy it and breathe it in. Love your husbands and your children and every single person around you. They all affect your life...even the person standing in front of you in Vons. Take advantage of every blessing you have and be thankful for it. I have been so blessed with my life and everything God has given you. I could only hope that every single one of you could have the happiness I have so deep in my soul.

Anyways, I'm flapping. I think I covered everything. My dad should be here soon with some coffee soon...SWEET!!! I'll update you all when I have some results.


And to everyone that has sent me flowers....WOW!!!!!!!!!!! I am in serious heaven over here! My room is overflowing with flower and I just love it love it love it. I am so thankful for them. Yeah!!!!



·  Thursday, March 13, 2008 10:30 AM, PDT

Going Home!!!!!!!!

Thank GOD!!!

My oncolgist came in here this morning. He said that they still don't have all the screening back yet...hopefully today or tomorrow. He said that they're still trying to figure out where the primary cancer place came from. He said that it either came from my GYN stuff, GI (intestines), or GU (bladder system). They don't think it came from my GU, maybe my GI and then maybe my intestines heeled but they're leading towards it being my GYN....which they can have all of that as far as I'm concernd. lol I asked him how long I would be here and told him that my oldest daughter is having a really hard time. He said that he feels there is no reason why I need to be here...they're not treating me, my body and heart is working fine so I can go home. He said chemo will be out patient anyways. Oh, he also said that he would like to avoid surgery if they can...it will just depend on what kind of cancer theyre dealing with. He said they may schrink it first and then remove it or do it the other way around. Dr. Roth came in and said that he doesnt see any reason why I need to be here either....that I should be home with me kids. I told him that we were planning on taking the girls to Dland this weekend and if I would still be able to do that....if Splash mount. would kill me. He said "Well it would kill me, but you'd be fine." lol So depending if everything goes good, we'll be taking the kids and spending the good one on one time with them on Saturday. That's still up in the air of course. Dr. Hansen (my ob doc) came in this morning as well and he agreed. He said to call every day and check in and when they hear something, they will call me but don't be afraid to call them.

Jess brought the kids by yesterday and Jadyn is having such a hard time. She told me that it feels like I died because I'm not at home anymore. She just doesn't understand and she's been through so much already. Little Brynne just wants talk...I don't know where she got THAT from. lol My little fat man....all I gotta say is he better not start crawling until I can be there!!!

But I GET TO GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jake should be here any minute and the first thing we're going to do is go by Jadyns school and I'm going to surprise her....she's coming home with me. I can't wait!!! Counting the minutes!!!

Pastor Ray, just like you prayed and told me I would be at church, I plan on being there and I would like to speak if I can. :-) So hopefully that can happen.

I will continue to keep you updated. You all have been the biggest blessing for me and Jake. Your support has been so wonderful and I'm thankful for that.

Now....I'm gonna get off this thing so I can brush my teeth before my husband gets here....lol





·  Friday, March 14, 2008 7:56 AM, PDT

Good morning....

So nice to be waking up in my own bed instead of waking up to someone putting a needle in my vein. :-)

Well yesterday came and went and still no news. It feels SO good to be at home with my family. Jacob just woke up a little bit ago and his little morning smile was heartwarming! The girls just woke up and came to give me a huge hug.

After we left the hospital yesterday, we went straight to Jades school. She acted like she wasn't surprised and 'played it cool' but you can tell by that big ol' smile on her face. I was able to talk to her teacher a little and I am so thankful for her. She's such a good match for Jadyn and I can send her off to school knowing that she'll be loved.

Sleeping was a little hard last night and I feel a little weak this morning but I'm going to get in the shower and actually do my long hair and take advantage of having it. (that just made me giggle). I also have a nail appt (I know...priorities) and my cousin and I are going to go stock up my house with some things and I'm going to try to relax for the rest of the day....which is hard for me. I'm a busy body and 'sitting on the job' isn't something I can do easily....but I'll work hard on it. Someone's gotta do it huh?

Funny thing happened. I went to the Christian book store about a week in a half ago to get a study for a friend that's going through a really hard time right now. This book jumped out at me the second I saw it and I bought it for them. It's called "Courageous Faith. Trusting God when times are tough" by Keith Bower. I mailed it out right away and for some reason, it got returned in the mail for no real reason. It's been sitting on my counter ever since. This morning, I decided I would spend some time in prayer and I grabbed it. I decided I would take advantage of it and when I opened it up and read the introduction, the author wrote it after his wife went through breast cancer. It goes through the book of Esther. Little did I know when I was buying this book that God intended it to be for me....not my friend. Funny how He works huh?? Thought that was pretty cool.

I left a message for the doctor this morning to see if they have results yet........hoping. I will update you all when I get some news.

Have a good day guys!!! Please continue to pray.




·  Saturday, March 15, 2008 10:03 PM, PDT


Maybe this time I can remember which day it is huh? I messed up on 'Friday's' update and put Thursday. Just wanted to see who was payin' attention and who wasn't. j/k

Well, lets do the facts first...that's where I like to start. Lets back up to Friday evening. A GYN oncologist called while I was napped and wants to see me Tuesday afternoon to go over a 'game plan'. My oncologist from the hospital called about 7 to fill me in on what they knew. He said they still don't know the primary source and sometimes they never really find out...but, they think it's coming from a gynecological area....women parts. He did tell me that I have a stage 4 cancer...that once it goes to my liver, bones, or lungs it's considered stage 4. Chemo will most likely start the end of next week. He said that we will do one treatment and see if there are any changes. If there is, that means that they are correct by thinking it was GYN primary. He said after 2 treatments, they will most likely do surgery to remove the tumors by my ovaries and uterus. I will have anywhere between 4 to 8 treatments...the average is 6 and they will be every 3 weeks. I asked about radiation and he said probably not but we'll see. He said when we do surgery, they may do a full hysterectomy.

I want to warn you, that I really want to share my true feelings with all of you. I journal a lot....but it helps me to write to you all so I feel like I'm not alone out there. The support from all of you makes all the difference in the world. So even though I'm sharing my true raw feelings, it helps to share them and it's a little bit therapeutic for me.

Today was a little bit of a hard day. Jake and I spent some time last night crying together. When he holds me, I feel so little and just broken. I have the best life I could have ever asked for. My kids are miracles and my husband....well most people don't have husbands and marriages like we have. He truly is my best friend. We talk about every minute of our days together. He's just....I can't put words to it. Those who know Jake, know a little bit of what I feel. He's special....that's all I can say. I really take 'taking care of him' seriously and last night, it hit me that the life that we knew is gone. It's changed...it's not the same....and that's scary. It felt good to hold each other and admit to each other that we are scared. We're just going to take one treatment at a time....one day....one hour if we have to.

I keep having dark dreams which make the mornings hard. This morning I woke up and wanted to crawl in the fetal position. After another good cry in the shower, I was ready to start my day with the girls and Jake. We dropped the baby off with my sister in law and went to Sea World...didn't want to go out of the city. On our way there, Jake played a song for me...Alicia Keys "Nobody"....he said he heard it the other day and he couldn't stop crying....and I looked over and he had tears rolling down his face as we were driving down the freeway.....corny I know but it just shows his heart. I just love him to pieces!!! I'm starting to get sore on my right side by my ovary so it's a constant reminder, but nothing could have brought me down for the rest of the day. To spend the day just the four of us was so special. We watched Shamu and I had tears of joy because I'm just so happy. I see Jades smile and how she always wants to be snugging with me...and Brynne...she's a spittin' image of me and she makes me laugh all the time now. I loved our day....

Every day there is ups and downs. If I look at the big picture, I truly am SO excited...I'm excited to know God is going to take my life and change it and I know I have so much to life left. God has me in this suspense and I know he's going to do something crazy....that has me on the edge of my seat. But if I look at the small picture....chemo...that's scary. To know there are drugs that are going to go into my veins that kill everything in me. That's a scary thing!...and I feel that. I need to pray for more strength. I need to remember that those drugs are going to save my life....and it's going to be hard....but that's what molds us....that's what makes me stronger. That is what is going to make me who I am....going through that will make me to who God wants me to be so I can praise him and keep bringing all the glory to God.

It feels good to cry...it lets me know that I am letting myself 'feel' this. I'm not shutting myself off to the fact that this IS real. I really do have cancer. Wow...cancer. Can you believe it?? I just shake my head in almost disbelief....but it's real. This is life. This is the hand I've been dealt....and you know what??? I'm gonna kick some serious booty!! I'm gonna beat this thing....and it's going to be in some huge way. That's just the way God works.

I'm tired now....going to crawl into bed. I'm excited about my day tomorrow. Excited to go to church and watch my husband drum! I've been looking forward to that for days. Good night!



·  Sunday, March 16, 2008 7:09 PM, CDT


Feelin' like a million bucks!!!! That's the only way I can explain it. I woke up feeling pretty good but after church today......wow.....I just don't have the words. I just feel so renewed and I feel like I'm living in a new body! I'm not sore anymore either!!

For those who weren't at church today, I'll fill you in a little. The message was good to begin with....it always is. The thing that jumped out at me the most was God's perfect timing...it's always perfect, but it really hit home with me because I know it's His timing and I'm just able to sit back and wait! At the end of the service, Jake and I went up before the whole church and I shared some of my feelings....in a nut shell, just shared that it's not about the little things in life that get us down...our job or crazy kids or whatever...it's about living your life hot and doing it in God's will and giving Him all the glory through everything. When you get to that point in your life, in a sense, it can be so easy because you don't have to depend on 'people' or 'things'....you don't have to worry about going through chemo, you just don't have to worry period. You can give it up to God and let him carry it for you. That's what he wants....he wants to carry our burdens so why not take advantage of that!! It's such a peace! But anyways, I asked everyone to come up and pray with us...because I needed every single one of them. Jake and I sat in the chairs and every single person in that church, about 250, got off their chairs and laid hands on us. The feeling......it was just.....so powerful!! Pastor Ray asked everyone to pray out loud for 60 seconds. That will be a sound I will never forget. I felt the holy spirit in that room and it was overwhelming and it renewed us. We went to lunch after wards and I just feel sooooooooooooooooooo darn good!!! I was looking forward to church (and watching Jake drum...little added bonus there) and I'm so thankful I have a church I can call home and be surrounded by people that I love and whom love me!!

I feel like I could run miles right now.....but I won't. lol No more running for me!....at least not yet. I gotta fatten myself up!! Wow....ladies, I'll think about you tonight while I'm eating that huge bowl of ice cream. I'll even lick the bowl for you and everything. (I'm giggly) But on a serious note, I do need to try and put on a little weight which isn't that easy for me. But I'll give it my best shot! Someone's gotta do it huh?

I'll talk to you all tomorrow. The kids don't have school and I'm looking forward to having a 'lazy bones' day. I think I will do some cleaning. My dad wrote on my tv last night while they were here "Wash me now!!!" lol Guess I should dust huh? :-P Love you all!!!!




·  Tuesday, March 18, 2008 7:15 AM, CDT

Good morning!

Yesterday came and went. I was able to get some errands done. My brother brought his house cleaner by and she starts in Thursday and will disinfect everything every other week. That will be SWEET!! I was going to update you all last night but I was mentally drained. I'll get straight to my prayer request.

Yesterday late afternoon, Erin from church called me and she really got me thinking. She said that her nephew (I think it was her nephew) went to the hospital one day to find out he had stage 2 lymphoma. After some research, they decided to switch hospitals and go to 'city of hope' up in LA....only to find out he actually had stage 4....he had a tumor the size of a plate in his lungs. He was cured and the doctors said it was a miracle...that they didn't think he would have made it.

That got me thinking. Here it is day 9 since I found out I had cancer and I'm still just sitting here. I do have an appt with the gyn oncologist at 1230 but not only have they not told me when treatment will start for sure ("Hopefully by the end of the week" they say), they don't know the primary source and I can't say I really feel like they are taking the best care of me. I want to see some bodies movin' and I just don't feel like they are. Erin was saying that UCSD is part of "City of Hopes" chain and they are members of the Nat. Cancer Inst. But the problem is that I don't have medical insurance. Since Jake is self employed, it would cost us over a grand a month just for our monthly payment and we werent expecting to get cancer. I was going to call the cancer center at UCSD today and do some research. I was also going to share my frustrations with my gyn oncologist today and tell him that I feel like just another number. After 9 days, I would have hoped treatment would have started and meantime, it's not and I'm just sitting here while my body could be eating itself up. I woke up in the middle of the night and my body was covered in sweat....just soaking wet. That worried me.

So my prayer request...I want to ask that you all will pray for some directions on care. My mom knows a general surgeon at Grossmont and talked to him last night and he said that my oncologist was actually very good. I'm torn and not knowing what to do right now. Whether I should go to UCSD and see if they would take me and get a second opinion or if I should stress my frustrations (which I'm doing anyways) with this new doctor and see if he will have some clue of what is going on with me and get the ball rolling. ?? Like Erin said last night on the phone, I only have one shot and once I start treatment, I can't change hospitals so I need to do my research now...but I don't have much time.

I will have another update for you later in the afternoon after my appt but in the meantime, please start praying for some directions. Thank you!!




·  Tuesday, March 18, 2008 10:07 PM, CDT


Okay, first off, I need to get something off my chest. Ready?????


[doing about five cartwheels through my house]

Now I feel MUCH better!!!!

I had the BEST doctors appointment today!!! We got there at 12:30 and had to wait 2 hours....yes, that's right....2 hours to see the doctor. I can't say I was too excited about that. The doctor came in and let me just say off the bat, that he was the answer to prayer I was looking for. I expressed to him that I felt like I wasn't getting the best care and I felt as though I was just a number and getting the run around a little. His words "That's all going to change today!!" He had the best sense of humor and he was straight up and to the point! First he went over my results. They took 7 biopsies of my colon and they were all negative...at least on the inside. He said that as of right now, they don't know where the primary source is but he said we'll have that by the end of the week. I will have a PET scan, endoscopy, and a mammogram this week that they will schedule for me and he wanted me to have surgery Monday to have a full hysterectomy....uterous and overies out (another 'yahooooooooooo') along with hopefully taking all the tumors out. He said he's going to basically throw my organs on my chest and go through each and every one of them. They will cut me from about 2 inches above my belly button on down and I should be in the hospital 3 days with a nice little pain button that I can push to give me pain meds. That's pretty cool if you ask me!! Dr. Ghosh travels all across southern california and does surgeries every where. He said if I wanted to have my treatment at Grossmont, he can do that....UCSD, that was fine....Scripps...doable too. Anywhere I wanted. We decided on Palomar Medical Hospital because he is right across the street and I will get the best care possible that way. So that's where my surgery will be...chemo done at Grossmont. This doctor just took charge the way I was wanting. He's going to get down to the bottom of things. He said he is going to treat me like I was his daughter or wife and surgery right away is a must to get out whatever is feeding my liver. I asked about a prognosis. He said that he doesn't believe in prognosis's...that it's nothing but a number to him. He said that throughout his whole practice, they've really met nothing and he doesn't believe in guessing because that's really all it is...a guess. I was thinking about that on the way up...I don't think I would want to know because some human would never be able to tell what God has planned so I want to leave it totally up to the big man up stairs. Dr. Ghosh did his medical training at Harvard and UCLA and that was like music to my ears. He is the best gyn oncologist in the city.

We left there and went straight to the doctors scheduling office. As we walked in, the scheduler said "Wow....they were totally booked on Monday but one minute ago, we got a cancellation for 12:30 so that time slot is yours!!!" Right then I knew this was where I was suppose to be and I could see God working. Jake and I just looked at each other in shock! Jake went back to work and my mom and I continued through the day.

From there, I went across the street to the hospital to admissions and get myself all checked in for Monday. When I was there, they told me that my surgery is going to cost 25-30k and they usually won't do the surgery without some kind of deposit. Ekkkk. I have a Medi-cal appt tomorrow so she said that she would call me tomorrow to see what happened. When I heard 25-30k I almost fell out of my seat!

Little did I know what was going on behind the scenes. When Jake left the doctors, he got a text from Hilary, our cousin, telling him to call her right away. Jake calls only to find out that they are setting up an account to help us. When I got home, I also had an email from Kristin, at my daughers school, telling me that her and Hilary are working together to get some things going. WHAT???? That was so overwhelming for Jake and I. This day..........I just can't even explain what this day was like.

When I walked out of the doctors office, I was bouncing off the walls with excitement. Jake was looking at me like I was crazy because I kept saying how excited I was acting. I mean, come on, what women wouldn't be excited about NEVER HAVING A PERIOD AGAIN!!! What's not to be excited about??? But in all seriousness, I felt like a huge burdon has been lifted off of my chest. I have this peace like I have never experienced to date. I'm not afraid....not afraid to have every one of my organs on my chest and to have this doctor elbow deep in my stomach. I'm not afraid to do chemo. I just feel.....on the top of the world right now!!!

For anyone that doens't believe in God and hasn't put their life in his hands, I don't know what you're waiting for!! The things that have happened, just today, have been a miracle. It's just so nice to be able to pray, give it up to God and not have to worry about it anymore...to let God do the work and allow him to lay all the puzzle pieces together for you. I don't have to worry....I don't have to carry this cancer, carry this stress....I can trust in God and just let it go. THAT is living life that way it was intended. God created it this way. He wants us to give it to him and not have these burdons. He doesn't want us to be scared....to hurt....it doesn't have to be that way.

For all of you that are helping us....my family....friends....people we don't even know, Thank you!! Thank you from the bottom of our hearts. There seriously aren't any words to explain how overwhelmed we are with just....happiness and support. Never in a million years would we ever imagined that not only we would get cancer, but we would have the support we've gotten all across the country....across the world! We just thank you...that's all I can say over and over again. You all have no idea how much it means to us.

To everyone that is strugging and going through hard times....there are so many people out there, it'll be okay....just trust in God and everything else will fall into place.

.....until the next update....GOOD NIGHT!!!


PS - My spell checker isn't working and I can't spell for squat so sorry about the typo's. I got a D in English. lol


·  Thursday, March 20, 2008 4:21 PM, PDT

What a crazy day this has been!

First off, this will be the last time I'll be sending out an email update. A friend of mine created a website for me. I'm so thankful for that. You can subscribe to the updates there and they will be automatically sent to you when I update them. That will be wonderful. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/katieroth.

Yesterday felt like a pretty 'normal' day...as in 'the old normal' that I was use to. I was home for most of the day and was able to get a few things done. I had some friends visit and then my brother and fam came over for dinner. It was nice to have the company.

Today, I woke up in a 'just okay' mood...but as the day has progressed, it's gotten so much better! I had to run out the door to bring Jake some things at the job and when I got there, he was in upset. His day started off by realizing his keys were locked in his truck at 5:45 in the morning and it just went down hill from there...and then adding the extra 'stuff' on top of it he ended up leaving and coming home to spend some time with me.

I just scheduled the PET CT scan schedule for tomorrow morning at 12:30 and then a medi-cal appt after that.

As I sit here, I realize that today will be the last day I get to sit home with my children and my husband like this for a while. That's kind of sobering.

This very moment, I'm sitting at my desk staring out the window feeling a little overwhelmed. I know God will take care of every aspect of my being....health, mental, financial, spiritually. What God has done in my life over the past 12 days has just been unheard of. Yes, cancer wasn't my choice but where God has taken my life because of it and brought all of these people into my life is something I wouldn't change. I wouldn't change cancer....I just wouldn't. The pain, struggles, sickness...they can't even touch the love I've gotten from every one around me....I thank you for all that you have done...every single one of you. This has been an amazing journey.

The next time I update, it will be on this website: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/katieroth.

You can go there to be added to the list.

You guys will never ever know what all this has meant to me. I just hope one day I can replay you all and give back. I love you all!!




·  Friday, March 21, 2008 9:25 AM, PDT

Hi Everyone,

Just wanted to drop a quick little note...

I've had a few calls from some of you that are having trouble depositing money into the account. I just called the Alpine branch and they said to make sure you tell them it's for the 'Benefit of Katie Roth'...that it's a benevolent account. If you have any questions, they said to call the alpine branch at 619-445-2620 and they will help you.

I'm running out the door to drop off the kids and do my PET scan. My Medi-cal appt won't happen today. I think they are going to see me at the hospital on Wed. They didn't have another open slot for late today.

Thank you all for your prayers and support. I woke up this morning with hardly any energy and after some time praying for strength, I feel GREAT!!

Love you all!!




·  Friday, March 21, 2008 7:26 PM, CDT

Today was an AWESOME day!!

First off, I want to start by saying thank you for all your help and support. I’ve said this a few times today but there just is no way of putting it into words the way we feel inside. We feel so blessed and have never been so thankful for what God done for us….and a lot of these blessings are through you. There have been 2 times today where Jake and I have broken down to tears because we just feel so….I can’t explain it….just so thankful. THANK YOU!!!!!

Every day that passes, I seem to feel more full of life. This journey that God has me on is so exciting and just to see God working all around me is such a cool thing. I’m so excited to wake up each morning to see what happens and its like my soul feels like it’s glowing. I can’t help but walk around with this perma-smile on my face and be thankful for every single breath I get to take. I just changed a poopie diaper and you know what, it’s felt so good to be able to clean up that chubby little booty. Lol

I wanted to share something that happened to Jake today. You all have inspired US so much. You have given to us in so many ways, Jake and I have dedicated our lives to giving back in any way we can. Jake touched my heart today so I wanted to share it with all of you….it’s just an example of how God uses us in His special way.

Today, while Jake was working, he walked down to the parking garage and the parking attendant was there. She was this short cute little Hispanic woman probably in her middle 50’s. Jake asked her how she was doing and she said “Oh, okay.” “Just okay?” Jake said. She starts pouring out her heart to Jake and telling him that she’s been struggling with her daughter and her son just got out of prison and she’s been having a really hard time with life lately. Jake said that she talked for a long time and her eyes kept filling up with tears as she was talking. Jake gave her a hug and told her that he is a Christian and all she needs to do is put her faith in God and He will take care of her. She got so excited and said that she was a Christian as well and said it felt so good to be able to talk to someone who has the same faith. Jake shared with her what we have been going through and how God has taken care of us and just to keep strong. She said that she had to take the day off last week and her boss said it would be a ‘sick day’ but then never ended up paying her for it. She was so stressed out that she was down $60 for that day’s pay and didn’t know what she was going to do. Again, Jake just hugged her and told her that God would provide. The lady went to lunch and Jake continued to work. Later that day, Jake went up to her and handed her a check and said “As a Christian brother, I feel that we need to take care of each other and seeing her sad, he wanted to be able to help her.” He told her that this was a gift…that she didn’t need to pay him back, that she could use it in any way she needed, but he wanted her to have it because God will always provide. She started to cry and thanked Jake. She said that she had already been praying for me and gave him a little tiny book of heeling verses that she wanted me to have. They hugged one last time and Jake went on with his day.

It’s exciting to experience God working through us. It’s because of all of you and how each of you have touched our life that we are going to pass it on. God works through all of us and it’s our job to do his will. I promise to all of you, that we will give back what you have given to us. What you have done for us is unexplainable and you have touched us deeply. I want God to use Jake and I to help as many people as we can. God has changed my life. It’s been turned upside down, shaken, and it will thankfully never be the same. I have been given a second chance in this world and I promise that I will not take this life for granted. I love you all from the bottom of my heart. This has changed me and you have touched me. I can’t wait to do God’s work and serve. I just can’t wait!!! I am so thankful for this opportunity and I will embrace it with all my being. I don’t possibly think my life could get any better and I feel so full….I feel as though my soul my overflow with happiness. Thank you for being a part of this…………..



·  Sunday, March 23, 2008 6:04 PM, CDT

What a wonderful day this has been!!! It is Sunday and that is my favorite day of the week,

Well, I had to do a body 'cleanse' today...I'm on phase one. Let me tell YOU! Much better this time around than when I was in the hospital! Its making a big difference getting to do this at home instead of in a hospital room with another women laying 5 feet away. I figured my dignity went out the window with child birth! :-P

After church, all the kids took a nice long nap and Jake and I laid in bed and got all caught up on our shows. Jacob woke up first and he's having a teething phase. He's been screaming at us like a little girl! I keep tellin' him "Come on dude...get some hair on your chest!! You're a man!....not a sissy!" Too rough?? Na. But then I have to kiss him all over and squeeze his little eatable cheeks so don't worry folks, he's loved!

I'm thankful for this little cleanse I have to do today because its kinda getting me in that mind set. I feel like my cancer treatment has officially started..Im ready! I'm gearing up! Ready to get out of the gate and charge this thing at full speed.

I've been doing laundry all day so the house should be well stocked in that aspect. I'm writing my to-do list and going to get packed tonight too.

So I've eaten 3 chicken broths and some Jell-O today....yummmmm. I'm sipping on a sprite like it's the best thing I've ever drank! But man...what I wouldn't do for one of those little debbie brownies with the nuts on top!! Or a PB & J.....or a huge bread roll with loads of butter on it....I'm talked a BUNCH of butter!! Those are the things I really want right now. Strange. But I'd give my right ovary for it right about now....and guess what!!! I very well might! (I make myself laugh!)

It's so beautiful outside right now! I am soaking up this moment!

Thank you to everyone out there that is going through this right beside me. Thank you so much for your help....and you know how each of you have helped us. Jake and I are not only blown away, but so touched....so deeply touched! We love each and every one of you.

Tomorrow, 11:00 I'll be arriving at the hospital and surgery starts at 12:30 and should go through 4. The hardest part is right when they give me the drugs to put me out and I'm saying goodbye to Jake for a little bit. I tend to get really emotional at that time so that's what I'm dreading most. I hate the fact that I'll be away from him and I know he hates seeing me look the way you do right before surgery with all the cords coming out of everything and the O2 mask on. Thats the hardest moment for us. So pray for that moment.

Please don't stop praying for us the whole time in surgery.

I just got off the phone with Dr. Ghosh. He got the results of the PET CT Scan. He said I have a very large mass down very low by my colon. He said that he’s going to try to keep as much of my colon as possible in hopes I won’t have to have a colostomy bag. He said that he’ll do everything in his power besides risk my life. I asked if I did have to have one, could we go in later and stretch it out little by little and he said yes…so if I have to have one, I don’t think it will be permanent. To doctor said “No partyin’ tonight and no more losing weight”…I told him I’ve been trying to fatten up but they’re making it a tad bit hard on me and we laughed. He’s just a cool, down to earth guy. His energy is awesome. He said “You’re going to do awesome tomorrow….don’t worry about a thing.”

So, another prayer request…..lets pray that he can keep as much of my colon as possible. That would be such a relief!

I’m off to start tackling my to-do list. If I’m not able to post by tomorrow PM, Jake will be spending the night so I’ll put him to work. Good night all!!



·  Monday, March 24, 2008 10:05 PM, PDT

Hey everyone this is Robert, Katie’ brother,

I just talked to Katie and Jake. They are at Palomar hospital recovering from Katie’s surgery from this afternoon. She asked me to pass on some information about how the day went. They don’t have internet at the hospital so the journaling is more difficult.

During Katie’s surgery today they opened her up just below her belly button ☺ and went in and removed a small grapefruit size mass from the sigmoid section of her intestines. They also removed her appendix and did a full hysterectomy. The Dr. said that he could feel the cancer spots on her liver but didn’t do anything with those.

Katie is doing well and she is talking (if that is what you want to call it.) LOL

Katie and Jake wanted me to pass onto you all that they have a huge Praise--Katie didn’t need to have a colostomy bag! They are very happy about this and want to give all of the Praise to their Lord and Savior.

Katie and Jake also wanted me to pass along to you that they are very thankful for the support from the Family and Friends. They apprecate their Church Family and the support from everyone. They know that the support during this time is God sent.

Katie is going to be in the hospital for 5 days. Once her intestines heal from the surgery in 3-6 weeks then they will begin an aggressive form of chemo. There is also a new type of treatment in addition to chemo that Palomar Hospital has that they will be looking into.

From the Williams and Roth Family I just want you to know that we are very appreciative of the support that you have shown to Katie and Jake. They are loved by so many. Please continue to pray for Katie’s recovery. She is in Gods hand and he is taking care of her. Please continue pray for Jake also as he takes care of the family and supports Katie. One of Katie’s best friends Kristy is in town and is staying with the kids. We thank her for being such a blessing and providing so much support.

Thanks For Loving on Them,



·  Tuesday, March 25, 2008 8:24 PM, CDT

Hi guys,

First off I want to personally say thank you for all your prayers. When I got out of surgery yesterday the first thing I was told is that my plumbing worked. That was a HUGE relief for me. God answered my prayers. The funny thing was that the tumor was much higher than it looked on the scans. I find that to be odd, like it got moved or something. A blessing!!

I’m sure you’re wondering how I’m feeling. I feel like I got run over by a train. My incision doesn’t hurt at all… I would have never known I had one if they hadn’t told me. It’s my right side of my stomach that really hurts. It’s radiated up to my shoulder. I got up to walk this morning at 9:00 am and it was very difficult. I am so shaky and don’t have any strength but I know getting up is going to get things working again. They gave me a walker and I couldn’t take steps greater than a few inches at a time. I walked 20 feet and was sweating so I quickly went back to bed. It makes me feel like I had to throw up. I have been in bed for the rest of the day now, in and out of sleep. I just hurt but the pain pump does help. It’s just hard because when I sleep I can’t push the button so I wake up sore. I’m not able to eat and drink yet, my mouth is dry.

I still have yet to see my doctor but his partner who was present at the operation has been in to check up on me. He said that I’m looking great and my stomach felt good. Looks like things are progressing well.

Well there’s my little update. I can’t get internet connection at the hospital so my brother John came up to grab this so he could post this on the web site. Any typos can be blamed on him. J

Thank you again for all your prayers. Please pray for my pain to get better. I’m really glad that I had the operation and that it is complete. I finally feel as if we are progressing.


·  Hi everyone,

What a difference a day makes! I feel so much better today then I did yesterday. Let’s go over the facts first.

Jake stayed the night with me last night. Before he got here he bought a twin size air mattress and that made all the difference in the world… And that was obvious to me just by his snoring. J Sleeping on the window sill was a little rough for him. I got up at 9:30 am and walked about 40 feet and it was much easier than the day before. I actually put on make-up this morning!! The doctor and his partner came in about 10:30 and said “I’m sorry, are you a patient here?” He said I don’t look like I just had surgery two days ago and that I’m recovering much better than he expected. He said my insides weren’t as bad as he expected as well. He said he’s very happy with how things are progressing. Just one step at a time. He took my bandage off this morning and I can’t say I enjoyed that too much. He and all the staff here though have said that the incision looks great. The staples should come out in a few days. I got up again around 1:00 and walked a lap around the floor. I’m going to do two next time I get up. I was FINALLY able to eat and drink today around lunch time. I had only hade one ice chip since Sunday night until this. The beef broth was like a gourmet meal. I hope I can start eating soft solids tomorrow. I need to be eating all the calories I can get. Not having any for three days isn’t going to help my weight at all.

Kristie brought Jacob up here for a little bit and to say good bye. She goes home tomorrow and I really hate to see her leave. She said that she’s been a wreck for the last two days knowing that she has to go back to Oklahoma. I’m going to miss her badly. I didn’t want to show her any tears because I knew it would just make it harder. But don’t worry Kristie, I’m not heartless LOL. I’m going to miss you so, so, so much. You have no idea what you coming out here has meant to me. I love you so much!!

We are still waiting for the biopsies to come back and should have them by tomorrow or the next day. Dr. Ghosh said he is pretty certain it is colon cancer. He said the tumor was stuck to my uterus as well. So it’s good that he was able to take that out as well. I’m still a little bit on edge. It’s hard to figure out if I’m agitated because I’m just sitting here all day or if it’s because I don’t have my womanly parts giving me the hormones I need. Maybe it’s both. Dr. Ghosh said we will start hormones in a few days. That will be nice.

So all in all, I feel pretty good today. If it keeps going like this, tomorrow should be a wonderful day. Once we get the biopsies back we will know what road to take regarding treatment so I will keep you all updated when we find this out. My parents should be here soon and Jake is going to spend the night again. I just love him being here…. Minus the snoring tonight kk? j/k

All these prayers that you guys are doing out there across the country are seriously doing wonders. I still feel on cloud nine and pray that this will never change. It feels so good to have things moving forward and I feel uplifted about that. My doctor puts a smile on my face every time I see him. He’s like a new buddy of mine.

So all is well in Rothland. I’ll have you know that I’m going through computer withdrawals. I feel so disconnected from you all. But that too shall end soon.





·  Thursday, March 27, 2008 8:30 PM, CDT

I got food today!!!! Real food!! I was able to take a fork and put it in my mouth with something actually on it! At lunch I had some pasta with big ol’ meatballs, carrots and a salad and that bread roll that I’ve been craving. It was delightful!! For dinner, I can’t say I was as excited. It was tuna steak with salty stuffing and spinach. Besides it smelling oh so good, I only ate half of it. Jake brought me a chocolate pudding thingy with oreo’s and whip cream in it to redeem himself. He ate one in front of me on Tuesday (thought I would be sleeping and he could do it stealth mode but it didn’t work out the way he wanted). So he lucked out. I think any other woman would have sent him packin’. Good thing he’s cute. J

I thought I would be going home today but I guess my doctor wasn’t okay with it. I’m still getting pain meds and didn’t want me going home in total pain so I could appreciate that. I am thinking there is a good chance I will go home tomorrow. Its 810 and I’m still waiting for my doctor to come in. He’s a busy man. What I would love to do more than anything right now is take a shower. I feel so nasty having not showered for 5 days. Yuck yuck yuck.

I stopped taking the morphine pump. It makes me really high and I don’t really like that feeling. I do like how it puts me to sleep good but the other meds are doing good.

Pain wise, I’m doing really good. All in all, I thought I would have been in more pain so I’m thankful for that. Jake did give me a laughing attack about an hour ago so I’m sore. For anyone that knows me, when I laugh, my whole body shakes….chuckles they call me, so that I heard. I told him hes not allowed to make me laugh again. He just smiles and says “It’s good to laugh honey. Im so glad I can do that for you.” Well don’t kill me in the process huh?

Pastor Ray came up here today and I was so happy to see him. He told me some of the things that are going on with all of you and it makes me feel so good. I get all excited and smile from ear to ear. I have felt so disconnected from you all and just seeing what God is doing all around is seriously so cool and exciting to me. I really do love talking to all of you and having that contact. It keeps me going like you have no idea. I felt great when he left.

My brother and sister in law said they are going to be keeping Jacob and not giving him back. He’s such a good chubby little boy that you want to eat up. Rob and Katie had a ‘princess party’ for all the girls cousins today and that was really good for the kids. I talked to Aaron today and he said that the girls are doing really good. Jade had a bad day yesterday so that came as a relief to me today.

Again, I feel really good and it fills me up inside to know all of you are behind me and praying. I feel like you guys are helping in my care just doing what you guys are doing. I can’t WAIT to go home!!! Hopefully tomorrow. Hoping I can shower and scrub-a-dub-dub. I’ll post tomorrow. Jake and I are tv bound. Love you!!




·  Friday, March 28, 2008 8:17 AM, CDT


Well, it’s Friday morning….I made it the week. Jake just left for work. This morning was the first time it was hard for me to see him go. I just want to be home as a family again…have my kids under the same roof…knowing that they’re emotionally save.

The doctor never came in yesterday. I guess there was another doctor on call. I did get to take a shower. I was a little icky about getting my incision wet but the nurse promised me it would be fine. It felt so good to wash my hair and just stand there under the water.

Jake…man that guy just kills me. He would not stop making me laugh!

Last night I had some weird dreams. I can’t remember what they were though. I feel like I just need to type and get some things out. I have no idea where to start.

I feel like I’m nearing the end of step one. I should be getting out of the hospital today and I did it!! I made it! It’ll be downhill from here, well until chemo at least and then we’ll have another step to get through….but to just know that I made it through surgery is so uplifting for me. I did it! That was a major surgery and by the grace of God, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. The 8 inch scar that I have going down the middle of my stomach will always be there to remind me what God has done in my life and how He was here the entire time.

There’s been a lot of talk about ‘faith’ going around. If I didn’t have that faith to go on, gosh I don’t know what I would do. Where would you put your hope? What would you believe in? I don’t know about you, but putting my hope and faith in some doctor wouldn’t give me the peace I have now. Some doctor can’t touch me with his finger and make me better. He couldn’t say the words “You are heeled…Go and be freed of your disease.” Only God could do that….and he’s done it so many time before. Why would I be any different? God gives me all the hope and faith I need.

That faith and hope isn’t something that happens over night though. It came on slowly. I’ve gone through some hard things in my life, nothing that most of us haven’t gone through, but during those hard time, I seeked God and really tried to put everything in his hands. Putting your life in his hands is hard to do at first. The important thing is just being strong to enough to take those baby steps. God can’t do anything in your life if you’re not going to act. It’s not like a huge lightning bolt is going to come down from the sky and hit you upside the head…it just doesn’t work like that. You have to take that little baby step in faith that God will help you with the rest of it. If you’re not willing to do ‘something’, than what good will you be?

One of my nurses was in here the other day with my brother John and I and he kept talking about ‘control’. He was asking me how I was dealing with it and I told him “It is what it is. You have to make a choice….you either embrace it or you sit there and have a pity party. You just got to get it up to God.” He said that’s so hard for him because he has to have that control in every aspect of his life. I got thinking about that….that’s sad because he’ll never know true happiness until he can learn to just let go of what he thinks he can control because in reality, he doesn’t have any control anyways, so why waste the energy! There’s a certain peace you get from going through life not having to carry the weight of the world.

Ah….breakfast just came. Rice crispy cereal, eggs with cheese on top, and chopped potatoes. I also have a chocolate breakfast drink!! Works for me!!!

You know what I miss??? Waking up in my house, pouring a cup of coffee and looking out my kitchen window at the beautiful day starting. When Jake left here, he went to 711 to get coffee and then he drives in traffic to work………..what a treat!! He GETS to do that!! There are a lot of people that can’t. There are a lot of people that are sick, sitting in hospital beds with a brace around their necks not able to move that would give anything to be holding a cup of coffee in traffic right now. Just to be healthy is such a gift. That’s something right there to give praise to God for….it could be so different. If you can get your life to a point where you notice the little things, enjoy the things that usually drive you nuts, and just smile every single day because you can, that would be an amazing way to live if you ask me!

Well, I should start stuffing my face. This meal looks much better than dinner. YESSSSSSSS

Love you!



·  Friday, March 28, 2008 9:21 AM, CDT

Going home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dr Ghosh came in first thing and said I can break loose! I’m so excited. The girls can’t wait to see my incision….Jadyn wants to be a nurse so she’s all into that stuff. Brynne says “Mommy, you have a stapler in your tummy.” Shes so cute.

I can’t wait to go home and sit in my own bed…or on my own couch. Yeah! Jake is doing a panel upgrade so he needs to finish that and get this job taken care of. My mom is going to come get me home.

Counting the minutes!!!!!!! J



·  Saturday, March 29, 2008 10:22 PM, CDT

Well, Saturday has just about come and gone. It feels like it’s been a busy day. I had a friend, Crissy come by which it was nice to just sit and hang out with her and then at 4:00, Kim from church came over. She’s a certified nutritionist and she’s going to help me gain some healthy weight and get me on a diet that will get my body strong where I can fight this and get through chemo. Right now, she has me on a very high protein diet and having me eat foods that will help my body heal. I will be needing to eat every 2 ½ hours…that’s going to be hard. I am going to meet with another doctor hopefully next week that will also help in getting my body up to full fighting capacity. I just googled the doctor and this is what his website said…

Patrick Quillin, PhD,RD,CNS was Vice President of Nutrition for Cancer Treatment Centers of America for 10 years. He organized 3 international symposia on “adjuvant nutrition in cancer treatment” and edited the textbook on the same subject. His book, BEATING CANCER WITH NUTRITION, has been translated into Japanese, Chinese, and a home study CE course for nurses. He was a consultant to the National Institutes of Health, U.S. Army Breast Cancer Research Group, and has taught college nutrition for 9 years. His 15 books have sold over 1 million copies. He has earned his bachelor’s, master’s, and doctorate degrees in nutrition; is a licensed and registered dietitian (LD,RD); and a certified nutrition specialist (CNS) with the American College of Nutrition.

I really hope he’s taking more patients. I’m really excited about this nutrition stuff!!

I’ve been really sore today on my right side. I was almost pain free last night while I slept but then all of the sudden there would be like a popping sensation on my side and it would make me jump in bed and really hurt. Kim said that’s most likely my nerves coming back to life….it feels like little tiny gas bubbles exploding…or little tiny knots twitching. It’s hard to explain but it’s not fun. Getting out of bed in the morning seems to be the hardest. I sleep completely still and when I wake up my body is stiff and I have to get those muscles loose again. Lets hope tomorrow is better.

It’s amazing to me how little energy I have. I get out of bed for 15 minutes and I’m completely wiped out. My body is working so hard on healing that I’m left with hardly anything. I use to be able to run miles at a time and now I can only stand for a few minutes.

Jake has done amazing today. He ran some errands with the girls while Jacob and I slept. When he came back, he was a busy little beaver around this place. He said “I don’t know how you do it.” He never complained once and he was always here with a smile on his face ready to give me sugar at a moments notice! I don’t know what I would do without that man! He deserves the world!

So we got the schedule all lined up for next week and I don’t have to worry about that. I’ll have someone with me every day to help me and the kids while Jake works. I’m looking forward to that.

I have been meaning to share something with you guys…

Last Sunday, the night before surgery, we all went to bed. Jake and I were talking in bed like we usually do and Kristie came back in and said she wanted to read me something. She’s reading “Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. In her reading that night, she read something and she said I totally popped into her head. As she read it to us, she could hardly stay composed. It read:

“Without God, life has no purpose, and without purpose, life has no meaning. Without meaning, life has no significance or hope. In the Bible, many different people expressed this hopelessness. Isaiah complained, “I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing.” Job said, “My life drags by—day after hopeless day” and “I give up; I am tired of living. Leave me alone. My life makes no sense.” The greatest tragedy is not death, but life without purpose. A young man in his twenties wrote, “I feel like a failure because I’m struggling to become something, and I don’t even know what it is. All I know how to do is to get by. Someday, if I discover my purpose, I’ll feel I’m beginning to live.” Hope is as essential to your life as air and water. You need hope to cope. Dr. Bernie Siegel found he could predict which of his cancer patients would go into remission by asking, “Do you want to live to be one hundred?” Those with a deep sense of life purpose answered yes and were the ones most likely to survive. Hope comes from having a purpose.”

As she read this, it was like God was speaking the words right through her that I needed to hear hours before my surgery would begin. That filled me up and let me know that it was going to be okay…everything would be okay. What perfect timing…God always has perfect timing.

I have to thank everyone for your help, but I want to say a special thanks to my family. Mom and dad, thank you so much for all you did today. I think you will sleep like a rock tonight mom. Dad, I can see how it hurts you to see me hurt. Try not to worry…God’s going to do a miracle through me and going through the pain is part of the job. I’m strong and I can handle it! Julie and John, thanks for dinner and putting laughter in the house….I heard you guys laughing while Jake was putting together the chair. Jul….you’re a woman of my own heart if you know what I mean. Lol! Rob and Katie…you guys have done so much! I watched that video that you made of the “Princess Party” the other day. You guys just blow me away with what you do. That helped the girls so much and Rob, you guys didn’t kick rocks outside like men!!! Your sons were dressed up in princess outfits and making necklaces!!! Nice try but the proof is in the pudding! Lol Ahhhhh ha ha!!! Busted!! Jake….honey, just looking at you gives me so much strength and life. You have given me the life a little girl dreams of and three years with you just isn’t going to be enough. I want us to spend a long life together showing our children how to love. I want to make you the happiest man that every walked the planet for a long time and I can promise you that together, we will get through anything. I love you with every ounce of my heart and thank you for all you do for us.

I should wrap it up and get some shut eye now. I love you guys. I won’t be at church tomorrow but I’ll be there in spirit. Good night!!




·  Monday, March 31, 2008 8:44 PM, CDT

Today was such a good day!!!! Sorry I haven’t updated in a day. Geeeze I’m on it folks!! Don’t worry you’re pretty little heads.

So….today. An old friend of mine, Debbie Schuff, came over to hang out with me today. It was SOOO nice to see her. But this morning, I felt very sick to my stomach from taking all these pain meds. They were making me so weak and making it harder to eat because I just felt sick all the time. I’m happy to report that it’s been 7 days and almost 3 hours since surgery and I’m officially off pain meds and I feel better than I did taking them. I prayed this morning that God would take care of my pain for me and he sure did! I was even able to lay on my side, which all you stomach sleepers out there can understand how hard it is to sleep on your back. YESSSSSSSSSSS

Debbie and I had such a good time today. As I lay in bed, she took care of Jacob…both girls were in school. She sang to him, fed him every single time and took care of him like he was her own. Jacob just clung to her and they had the best time together. I could see how happy Jacob made her…it was written all over her face. Debbie and I sat in bed together for most of the day and it was so refreshing. As we talked about life and cancer and just things that happen to us in this journey, she talked about my faith and how she wants that…that for the past 8 years she feels as though there has been something in the way holding her back. After talking, Debbie and I prayed together and she accepted Jesus into her heart….what an honor to share that with her. Debbie, just trust in the Lord…give it up to him. I’m now your sister in Christ and I will always be here for you! This is the beginning of a new life for you and I am so excited and proud of you!! I look forward to seeing you at church on Sunday….this is the first day of the rest of your life!!!

After that, I spoke with a woman from the Christian Broadcast Network…her name was Sherri. She was so uplifting as well. She teaches about faith to people all over the country. We talked for a good hour. She shared with me about her daughter, 38, who was diagnosed with the same exact cancer that I have. She had 2/3rds of her colon removed and it was all over her liver. They told her it was also in her lungs, pancreas, and a few other places. When they first went to the doctors they told her that it was so advanced that she just needed to go home and throw in the towel. Well that wasn’t good enough for them. They got a second opinion and she had surgery to remove her colon. Sherri said that she cursed the cancer inside her daughters body every day….that we are the body of Christ so therefore, cancer cannot live inside of us…it’s impossible. As they ran more test, the cancer that they ‘thought’ was in her lungs wasn’t there anymore….same with her pancreas and all the other places. Kelly, her daughter, went through chemo and afterwards they wanted to do take 85% of her liver. Sherri prayed that they wouldn’t have to take any….that the cancer would be dead. Kelly agreed to the surgery. Sherri prayed throughout it. 3 hours through, the surgeon said everything was going great. After 6 ½ hours, he came out and said they didn’t have to take any of it…Sherri got up and ran out of the room screaming from excitement! I guess he held her liver in his hands and after testing the tumors, found out that every single one was dead….she was heeled. Sherri said if you completely believe that I am heeled, I will be healed.

You guys just watch!! I AM healed and it will be in a crazy way where only God could heal me. I’m SO excited about that.

Jake has been feeling very overwhelmed lately. He has to wear so many different hats sometimes all at once. Please pray him.

Today was such a great day! Debbie and I are meeting again next Tuesday and I’m already looking forward to it. Jake and I have had a semi-relaxing night and it’s nice to hang out with him. I’m moving around so much better.

Well, there ya have it…my update! Yahhoooooooo I will talk to you all later!



·  Wednesday, April 2, 2008 9:37 AM, CDT

As I lay here and type, Brynne is massaging my legs and feet. She’s so sweet.

Yesterday was a really really hard day for both Jake and I. The morning went good and Julie, my sister in law was here helping me. We laid in bed talking and we got laughing so hard we couldn’t stop. I love those laughes…but it nearly killed me. Afterwards, I was in so much pain. I took a nap and Julie shaved my legs in the shower for me. It’s the little things like that that really do make a difference. I got ready and at 145 we left to go up to Escondido for my doctors appt.

On the way up there, I was so tired…I had no energy…just completely drained. It’s so hard for me to be like this…I mean, I’m a mother of 3 children, a wife…I never had time to ‘sit around’ and now that’s all I have the strength for.

The doctor’s appt wasn’t too much of a surprise. He said I do have colon cancer. He removed 17 lymph nodes in that fat pouch around my intestines and 11 of the tested positive for cancer. They took my staples out which wasn’t too bad. I meet with my oncologist late next week to discuss chemo. That will take place in 2 to 4 weeks depending on how fast I heal. I asked about getting me on hormones. He said “Are you having hot flashes?” Is that was that was????? I have new respect for women going through the change. Those hot flashes are horrible! I would go from sweating and so hot to freezing. Yuck. So he put me on some estrogen and said that I should be feeling much better and sleeping better too.

After I got home, I laid in bed with Jacob while he slept in my arms. Just listening to his breathing warms me. He fell asleep with this hand on my face so we were facing each other. Special moments like that are just wonderful. Sometimes we forget to slow down enough enjoy them.

The girls were whinny last night…wanting food, when we knew they already eat. Finally I just had Jake feed them. Jade must be going through a growth spurt because she kept eating and eating.

Speaking of food, that was a major challenge for me yesterday. Having no energy…the thought of food didn’t only gross me out but it took every ounce of strength I had left just to chew. By the end of the day, I sat here with my plate on my lap and tuna sandwich in my mouth trying to chew with tears running down my face. I was so tired, I hurt. I was mentally tired. You can’t turn cancer off…it’s always there…it never goes away! Jake came and hugged me and I cried in his arms. This is hard…so hard.

I fell asleep without realizing it and woke up an hour later. I was really out of it. Jake showered and crawled in bed. We held hands and cried out to God. First Jake prayed. It’s hurts Jake to see me hurt. He feels the devil so close trying to tempt him. We both prayed for strength. “The Lord is my strength”. We both cried together. Needless to say, I’m glad yesterday is behind us.

My mission today…is to find someone who can massage me. There’s a spa here in alpine that I called. The girl isn’t in yet. I can’t lay on a table so it would have to be a sit up one. My back has so many knots and I’ve been having muscle spasms that shoot electricity all across my back.

We ask that you all pray that we have strength, pray for my pain, pray that I can sleep better. Jake took the day off. He felt he needed a break so he’ll be home all day. Thank you for your prayers!



·  Thursday, April 3, 2008 2:59 PM, CDT

I’m feeling MUCH better today!! The last few day were really hard.

My starting weight was probably 118 and yesterday I was at my lowest yet of 113. I’ve been working with Kim Ruby and she has a watch on my weight. Today I’m at 114….praying for a good 10 more pounds.

I started taking ibuprofen again yesterday and realize it was the vicadine that was making me so sick. The ibuprofen really helps to take the edge off which helps me rest more which will help me heal better. Rob, one of my brothers, came over and said that I need to be taking something. It’s kinda like childbirth. You fight the pain and you get stuck at a 6. You finally get the epidural and you go to complete in like 1.2 seconds. So that’s what I’m hoping for.

I do have a massage appt scheduled for 11 tomorrow. She will come to my house. She does a lot of cancer patients so I just need to call my oncologist and run some things through him before that. It should be nice outside tomorrow so I’m hoping she can do it outside on my lawn. That’s my ‘resting place’ in the house and that would be delightful!

I spoke with a doctor in Illinois. Dr. Patrick Quillan is on a leave so he referred me to her. She called me this morning and she was awesome. Dr. Dalzell’s website is http://www.naturesanswertocancer.com/ We are going to work together to get my cellualar environment where it needs to be to make this cancer not want to live in my body. She only works advanced cancer patients and will work very close with me. She’s already got some things going. I need to get my blood work faxed over to her. I’m really really excited about her! We’re going to start on a gentle detox first.

Tonight Aaron, my ex-husband whom we’re really good friends still, will have the girls and they’ll be with him through Saturday. Julie, my sister in law, is going to take Jacob through Saturday as well. Tonight Julie is going to make us a nice romantic dinner with candlelight where it can just be the two of us and we can unwind and be ‘us’. But shhhhhhhhhhhhhh don’t tell Jake because I just told him it’s a surprise. Want to give him something to be excited for. Friday we are going to try to have a short little date where we can get out of the house together. Knowing this ahead of time will allow me to store up the energy I need for that throughout the day. Jake has been running around with his head cut off for almost a week now so I’m hoping he will get to relax this weekend.

But all in all, I’m hoping this is the start of a little bit of an easier road until chemo. The last few days were so difficult…that hardest days I’ve had yet. I’m happy to have those behind me.

I am going to keep this kinda short in hopes I can take a shower and then a nap after that. Love you all!!!



·  Saturday, April 5, 2008 10:09 AM, CDT

Saturday morning. I’ve been having some computer problems so I haven’t been able to read anything or even hardly post. Later today that should be all taken care of.

Lets back up to Thursday. Yes, we had a nice dinner. Half way through it though we had to go lay down and eat in bed but we made the best of it.

Friday came and my massage was wonderful. It wasn’t a normal massage though. She did all this cool stuff with my feet and a lot of reflexology . The best thing was, before she started on me, she asked if Robin and I were praying people and said she would like to pray before she started. MUSIC to my ears! We ended up doing the massage in my bed because I was a little weak. After that, I took a nap and then laid out in the sun. We live on 2 acres up here and its surrounded by trees and just to lay there with the breeze and listening to the birds was so nice. Jake and I were able to get out for a quick little date. It was nice to be ‘kinda’ normal. So all in all, yesterday was a great day.

I still am not sleeping too well. I haven’t gotten a good night sleep since I was in the hospital. I get fatigued and uncomfortable and I seem to only get one hour spans at a time. I took a sleeping pill last night and that helped me fall right asleep. Woke up at 12 and took a shower and a pain pill and was able to sleep for another 2 hours I think. A good night’s sleep would be so nice! I forget what that is like.

My brother Rob had surgery on Thursday. He tore his ACL in his knee so they had to repair it. Yesterday he had to go back to the doctors because his incision was bleeding too much. When he got there, he told the doctor that he still has no feeling and that his nerve block had not warn off yet. That wasn’t the best news. Last night we were praying that the nerve block would ware off and he would have sensation again. He’s a fireman so he’s very active and if he couldn’t use his leg that would be very difficult. This morning I heard that he feels a little tiny bit of pain but I want to ask for prayers that he regain full feeling in his leg. He will be in a lot of pain but I think he would rather have that then never feel part of his leg or knee again. Thank you.

Since we’re on the subject of pain, my stomach Is still really sore. It’s been my right side up until yesterday and now my lower left is starting to hurt. This coming Monday will be 2 weeks and I was hoping to be feeling better by then. It’s still difficult for me to get out of bed…especially in the morning but even if I get a little better every day I’ll be happy with that.

I can’t wait for church tomorrow. Jake is drumming so I look forward to that too. Debbie is going to pick me up and she’ll be going to our church for the first time. She can’t wait she says.

So all in all, things are good in the Roth house. Thank you so much for your support. It is what keeps us going!! I’m nap bound! J Love you all.

·  Saturday, April 5, 2008 7:24 PM, CDT


I need to ask for some special prayers right now. I really hut and I'm not afraid to ask you to call on God with me tonight. I took both pain pills tonight. I need Gods special holding please. I really really want to go to church tomottow. Thank you



·  Sunday, April 6, 2008 8:06 AM, CDT

Guess what?????


Thank you for all your prayers! I'm feeling better today. Will gladly be in bed for the rest of the day though. :-)




·  Sunday, April 6, 2008 1:40 PM, CDT

Hi Everyone,

This is Robert one of Katies brothers. I get to talk to my sister a lot and in the process I hear a lot of different things. So the most concerning thing to me is Katie needs to be getting rest and she’s not. Katie and Jake are sleeping on our Grandmas old mattress. Katie has to get up at nights to take a shower because she is having pain from being in bed. WELL I don't like that. Katie is going to be going through some extreme amounts of Chemo and if she doesn't get some good rest then it is going to be even more difficult. My sister shouldn't have to get up from her bed because she is in pain. Her bed is something she is going to be spending a lot of time in and it needs to be a place of comfort. So I’m wondering if anyone knows someone in the mattress business who can help us get her a great bed. What I feel would be the best for Katie and Jake is an adjustable bed that will let her elevate her head or feet as needed. A King would be better than a Queen because this will allow Katie to set her side to whatever she needs and Jake can do the same. Katie has problems sitting up and an adjustable would help with that. If you have any input or thoughts please Email me at rawjuno46@cox.net. I will get back to you because I am just sitting on the couch recovering from my own surgery. Don’t ask Katie about this I am dealing with it. If you have thoughts email me and we can connect.


Robert Williams

·  Sunday, April 6, 2008 11:20 PM, CDT

Well. We made it through another week. Sunday is my favorite day of the week and I am so happy I got to go to church this morning. Just being there gives me so just hope, encouragement and strength. I love my home there. It’s amazing to me how much more music affects me now. Music has always been a really big part of my life but even since this ‘change in life’, it hits me so deep inside and really gets me. The thing that gets me the most is there. There are times when I am so broken inside and in so much pain that I just cry. And then I think that what Jesus felt for us was so much worse. He felt the pain of me…and you…and every single person on this planet that has even lived. I only have cancer. What he went through was far far worse then what I’m feeling. However, I can relate to Jesus in a way because I have chosen to do through all for the glory of God…as did Jesus. Since I know he felt my pain, it only keeps me going because I know I am absolutely never ever alone. He knows what it feels when my shoulder aches from so deep inside, my swollen stomach just hurts period, and then that headache that I just got thrown on top….wonderful. He knows every bit of my body, what is going on in it, my thoughts, fears, tears…he knows it all and that is what gives me peace.

Phyllis, my mother in law, was over there today. We sat talking in the living room about the chain of events that lead to this point. It all started on 5-10-05 when Jessica, my best friend of 20 years and Jakes sister, had her wedding party. I got there early and Jake and Brian were working on the radio. I had just gotten divorced. I hadn’t seen Jake in some time and when I hugged him hi, I walked away from him and I thought in my head “Wow….what was that.” It was this feeling I’ll never forget. This draw to him was indescribable. A few weeks later we went on our first date and from that moment on, every single day with him as been a blessing. God’s first work in our lives. 11 Months later, Jake woke up and called me on the phone and said “instead of going to Magic Mountain this weekend, lets go to Vegas and get married.” Needless to say I missed the freeway I needed to go on. Jake said he woke up that morning and knew that God wanted us to be wed…and 4 exciting days later both our families were in Vegas. It was so perfect….so “us”. God’s second plan. A few months later, we decided to have a baby. “We already have two…whats another.” (HAAA)…and we did just that. 9 hard months later Jacob was born…mommy’s eyes…everything else daddy. God’s third plan. Then we started the “Experience God” study at church and that’s when a lot started happened. We felt prompted that Jake should go out on his own….we obeyed out of faith and have been blessed. Every single step of the way God has been there for us. He’s led us to this very place we are. We know God is in control of this situation…he’s been in control this whole time…why would now be any differently. Since we see God working around us and being taken care of us, we can only trust in Him because he’s proven to us that he is there over and over again…why start to doubt now. God is good and he wants to bless you. All you gotta do is lose the control and let him! He’s waiting for ya.

Speaking of church….

During the music at the beginning of church, there was a woman sitting behind me who reached around me crying and said “Katie, you have changed my life.” I want to speak to that woman right now. When you said that to me, it took the wind right out of my lungs. I heard you crying behind me and my heart goes out to you. I don’t know who you were, you’re name…I only saw you from the back of the head as you walked away. I wanted to give you a huge hug but by the end of church, you were gone and I had people talking to me. Whatever you have going on in your life, you’ll get through it. Be thankful for this trail. I would love to talk to you or at least know your name. If you get this, would you email me at katiemroth@yahoo.com ? No one needs to know if you aren’t comfortable with it. I’ve been praying for you today and my heart hurts for you.

I’m a party animal right now 1110 pm people!!! Yahhhhooooo

I wanted to take a moment to high light the things that have gotten better with my physically since I’ve been focused on so much of my pain later. These are all the things I couldn’t do right out of surgery that I can do now.

- I can lean over and pick something up.

- I can get out of bed by myself….slowly

- My um….south end works….um….better than it has in months. The problem that first brought me to the hospital is no longer an issue.

- I made pancakes the other day

- I can sleep on my left side

I know there is more but that’s just a start. That goes to show that I am moving forward…even though it doesn’t always feel like it.

I better get my booty in bed. Sweet dreams everyone. Tomorrow is a new day! Love you!

Oh…..And I think we’re getting a new bed tomorrow. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh



·  Tuesday, April 8, 2008 10:38 AM, CDT

Gooddddddddddd morning!!!

First off, I wanted to say thank you to everyone bringing dinners. They have been so good and I’ll have you know I’ve now gained 3 pounds!!! I’ve been eating like it’s going out of style. Those dinners help so much though. When Jake gets home from work, he’s so tired and cooking a healthy dinner would be impossible for him so we really do thank you for them. Jake has been in heaven. I use to cook a really good meal every night so this way my husband isn’t going through withdrawals. J

Other news on the home front. This week I am feeling SO much better. The worst of my pain has been my shoulder. I have learned that if I take one Excedrin it takes 90% of the pain away. So I take one in the morning and one about 2 and that right there is half the battle. My stomach is still sore but it’s very manageable with the ibuprofen. I feel like I’m finally making some progress this week. Feels wonderful.

The new bed gets delivered today and I am counting the seconds. I can’t wait!!! Sleeping at night is so hard. I was up three times last night taking hot showers to get my body to relax. The nights sometimes go by so slowly.

We started filming the documentary last night. Let me back up a little. Jimmy and Gordon do all the filming at our church. They told us that God put it on their hearts to document this process with us from start to finish. The next day, they walked into church and Barb, the church assistant and one of our pastors wife, says “You guys should do a documentary on Katie.” They both looked at each other like that was the confirmation they needed. Last night they came over and we did some stuff. We wanted to start it with prayer before this process started so we did that. They said they dont know why but they both absolutely know that God wants this documented. We’ll do what He pleases. Jake and I will be filming here as well as we go through the process…whether that be pain, tears, happiness….whatever the case. I want it to be real. So that’s pretty exciting if ya ask me!

So we got a call from the business office at the hospital talking medical bills already. The ER and surgery was much more than we expected….comes to 80k. The hospital today wants to discuss the ER bill which is 38k. They said that they are willing to bring the bill down to $8900 but they want it all up front right now. I use to do medical billing so I have a leg up that they aren’t aware of. I put a call into them this morning and see if we could make a few large payments or something. They really knocked off a lot of money which is awesome….now I want to see if we can work with the numbers. So far they won’t accept payments but of course, they’re trying to collect money and it’s a game of negotiation so we’ll see how much I can cover today. I was really surprised they were willing to write that much off. We were really thankful for that.

I am just so thankful I’m feeling as good as I am. If my progress keeps moving like this, I would say my pain should be quite manageable in about a week in a half maybe. It’s just amazing what your bodies can endure. I tell ya, God really knew what he was doing when he made us.

Lets see….what else. Oh, my brother Rob…he has full feeling back in his leg thankfully. Thank you for your prayes.

Please pray for Jake today….he’s been feeling a little overwhelmed.

Well I’ll be over here waiting for my bed…….ahhhhhhhhh trying to be patient!!! Never thought I would be so excited about a bed. It’s gonna make a world of difference….so much difference. That spring under my ribs is getting kinda old. J

Oh….and that women that sat behind me at church Sunday. I never did hear from her. I’ll just keep praying. J

Until next time!! Have a good day everyone.




·  Wednesday, April 9, 2008 7:58 PM, CDT

Hi everyone.

I’ve been absolutely exhausted the last could days…just flat out tired. I haven’t hardly checked my emails or done a single thing. The doctor said I should be this tired.

I wanted to share a few things with you guys. I think by my journeys, you get this kinda feeling like all is good and wonderful but I’m not one to really complain about the little things. I think there have been some people who come up here and get a little freaked out because Im much worse off than I lead on. I wanted to share with you the reality of my day. The reality is that I’m in bed 90% of the time. I can’t take a deep breath, hurts to yawn, hurts to hiccup. I can hardly lift my legs into bed by myself. I walk 10 feet and find myself winded. My daily work out is making it 3 laps around my island in my kitchen and I’m counting the steps to get in bed. I have a chair in my shower that I sit on to let the water hit me. I can’t hold my son….haven’t held him in almost 2 ½ weeks. To do my daughters hair takes so much strength. I typically don’t brush my teeth until about noon because it takes me that long to mustard up the strength. By the time I walk to the couch, my stomach just aches and I hardly sit down. I actually put on makeup today…don’t know how I managed that. J My legs…I wont even GO there. So that’s the truth….that’s my day. I’m not one to dwell on the negative but I think it may help you guys so you don’t run out of my house screaming. I have called the doctor and he said that I am doing exactly how I should be doing considering. So I’m gonna rest, rest, and rest again along with get myself out of bed every day for my ‘work out’.

Eating….yes, I am eating. I don’t gain 3 pounds in a week from not eating. I’m eating 2-3 times more a day then I usually do. I certainly won’t sit here and let my body wither away….I’m a fighter and a go getter….just not my style

Someone else from today. Jake….he’s been having a really really hard time understandably. He walked in the door today and I could just see it written all over his face. After trying to get him to talk a little, he told me that has been finding himself angry, sad, mad…..we can’t do anything anymore. We just lay in bed. It’s hard to see your husband going through this emotion yet you can’t do anything to help. His mom brought over a bible today by Joyce Meyers. She said she opened it up this morning and she was blown away. We needed it. It was about being a lion or a lamb….which one were we. That we needed to be a lion with the devil and a lamb with God. I’m not about to type all of it out but when I asked Jake what he was, he said he was trying into a lion. I asked “Towards God or the devil?” He said “God”. I just want to ask that you pray for my husband. We need to curse that devil out of his head because he’s really doing a good job at eating him up. Thank you Phyllis for bringing that.

I’m tired…..really tired. I’m going to cut this short. I need to lay back in bed. Oh, real quick….got the bed. Thank you for that…it took some getting use to last night but I’ve grown very fond. I got a 5 hour span of sleep last night….unheard of. And I took a 1 ½ hour nap today. I haven’t broken an hour. Thank you so much…..okay, I’m having a hot flash. I’m not proof reading this so sorry about the typo’s. Good night.

·  Sunday, April 13, 2008 2:08 PM, CDT

Hi everyone this is Robert again,

I just talked to Katie and she is having phone and internet problems. It was really windy up here in Alpine and now they don’t have any phone or internet. Cox Cable is coming out tomorrow to look into it. So until then you are stuck with me making the post.

I talked to Katie and she gave me info to pass onto you.

Well to start Katie said that she is Completely Exhausted. Katie is really feeling bad and is completely bed bound. Sad to say but it is tiring for her to even think. Katie is having a lot drainage from her girl parts which isn’t normal so she has a Dr. Appointment tomorrow to help figure out what is going on with all of that.

Katie said that Jake is doing better but please continue to pray for his also.

This last Friday Katie our Mom and Phyllis (Jakes Mom) went to their Dr appointment at Grosmont about Chemo. It was encouraging she will be starting in 2 week. The Chemo should be every 2 weeks and there should be minimal nausea and should NOT lose her hair. Hopefully there will be a Colon cancer case study going on soon. The dr. said that if one comes up that he would like to get her in it. The treatment is about $10,000 at treatment so if she got into a case study to Pharmacy would most likely pick up the cost for the treatment since it is a study.

(Katie said she would go into more detail when she gets her internet and phone back up working.)

Katie wanted to pass along that she is Loving the support and can’t tell you how much she is appreciating it. It is over whelming to her how much love and support she has been given. With that she also wanted to pass along that for right now Visitors are really hard. She doesn’t have the strength to even sit up let alone visit. She just needs a lot of prayer, strength and rest to get her to Chemo.

Some things to pray about:

Katie is Exhausted and can hardly get out of bed

Katie girl parts

Pray for a case study to open up

Again I would like to just thank everyone for loving on my sister and for giving her all of the love and support that has come. We daily pray for her strength and health. Please remember to Pray for the kids. You know Jadyn and Brynne all they see is a very sick mom that just a number of months ago was sitting in a mud puddle with them. Katie has gone from a very active mother/wife to someone that can’t even pick up little Jake or love on her kids the way a moms wants to.

For with God nothing shall be impossible.

Luke 1:37

I love you Sis,




·  Tuesday, April 15, 2008 4:49 PM, CDT


This is gonna be a quick update but we need some prayers. Sorry for not being able to update. I have had no engery….zero.
I have a lot to update you on but right now I just need to get to the current situation. About 5 days ago I started draining vaginally…..like water…and a lot of it. As of yesterday, that water has turned to blood. My doctor is out of town this week but I called the office and talked to his asst and she said that I shouldn’t be losing that much blood and will most likely have us go to the Escondido hospital since they have all my medical history. I am waiting for a call back. She is going to talk to the on-call doctor and give me a call right back.
I think Im feeling a little depressed to be honest with you. I don’[t want to talk to anyone, don’t want to see anyone…just so tired. The morphine is helping on the pain end thankfully but I’m just so frustrated. I just want things to go smoothly and it seems that just can’t happen. I’m just in the dumps.
Please pray for us……..the last thing I want to do is be in the hospital again but on the other hand, I want to be fixed so what are you gonna do. L Just pray….don’t really know what to pray for….just your prayers would be appreciated.



·  Wednesday, April 16, 2008 12:17 AM, CDT

Hi Everybody, Its Jake.

I just read all your guestbook entries and tears are just rolling down my cheeks......Im sitting here next to Katie in the ER and its 12:20am and she looks more beutiful than ever. Thakyou so much for your words of encouragement, the help at home, and all your loving hearts. It just shows what the LORD is all about!!

The Dr. looked inside Katie and found bleeding from her sutures up inside there. He packed her with 5 yards of this gauze, tape stuff. Thats 15 feet. He just kept packing it in there, crazy. But we will be at Grossmont Hospital ER over night and moved upstairs at some point and released i dont know when. Dr. Hansen will look at her some time wednesday morning and see what exactly is causing all this.

Again thank you all for your loving support, thoughts, and prayers!!

Oh and wanted to say congrats to Kenny and Tiff on Theyre brand new little baby girl Love you guys!!! Love everybody!!

·  Quick update

Katie and Jake are at the Hospital and had a horrible night. She wasn't able to get normal amount of pain meds because of hospital protocol. She is in their for observation and is waiting to be looked at by girl part Dr.

They didn't get any sleep. Katie has ask for no visits and no phone calls she said that she has turned her phone off to try to get some rest.

Please continue to pray for her rest.

Thanks Robert



·  Wednesday, April 16, 2008 5:29 PM, CDT

Hi Everyone,

We've been waiting for the Gynocologist all day to come and check Katie out to see why she's bleeding. The Dr. that we thought was coming we now find out is off today! So now we've gotten a surgeon that is in surgery right now to come up afterwards. So pray that will be soon. Katie is very frustrated and discouraged as nothing seems to be going right. Pray for wisdom for the Dr. and peace for Katie and Jake (add all the family to that). She's resting now. Please no calls or visitors at this time just PRAYERS!

Katie's Mom



·  Wednesday, April 16, 2008 6:19 PM, CDT

Hi Everyone,

Prayer does work! The surgeon was just in and said that her bleeding has probably (or will soon) stopped. He removed the rest of the packing and said all looks fine. The desolvable stitches when they break off, it can bleed some. She is resting (after some serious medications) quietly for now. They are coming in to do another blood test to make sure that all is well. He thought that she might be able to go home tomorrow! That might be too soon for her possibly, but we'll see. Keep praying for rest and peace for the family.

Her Mom and Jake

·  Thursday, April 17, 2008 12:38 AM, CDT

Hello everyone. Jake again...

Yolanda, your words of wisdom and faith hit me hard! I cant stop crying right now. I should have been in bed 2 hours ago but i cant sleep........I have this picture of Katie when she was in Beccas wedding and she is just glowing with happiness! Her big old green eyes And wonderful smile........I havent seen for a While! I miss that.....As she layed in the hospital bed, all I could do was sit and stare. I miss her so much....she is here physically but.....not the Katie we all Know........I wish I was in her spot....I would take the needles and the pain and all the crap that she is dealing with, especially the pain........I hate seeing her like this.........she does so much for me as a wife and a mother . I just want her back...................



·  Thursday, April 17, 2008 7:20 PM, CDT

Guess who yep me Robert,

Well I thought I would give a quick update. Katie is still at the hospital and is waiting for a Cat Scan of her bladder. The plan was for her to be coming home today. I stopped by and saw her this morning and the Doctor said that she was good to be going home. She was constipated and needed to get that fixed first. So they got that fixed and got her some different meds to help with that. Well then she wasn't able to pee so they had to cath her to get that out and now they are waiting for her to go in for a cat scan to make sure there isn't anything wrong with her bladder.

Jake and Mom are down at the hospital with Katie. So Katie is filling herself with liquids to hopefully help her to pee on her own.

So our prayer is for Katie's Cat scan to come back OK and she pees and she can come home tonight or tomorrow.

I will add another post if there is any changes. Please still no calls or visitors. Katie is trying to sleep which is extremely hard when you share a room with another Patient.





·  Thursday, April 17, 2008 9:56 PM, CDT

Hello everyone, Jake here.

Good news! Katie just peed on her own!! Yea..She will stay the night here and do her CT scan in the morning and should be let home in the morning around 10 they say..Well say a little prayer for that one.

Anyways Katie is going to bed now and i feel much better today. thank you for the prayers.


·  Friday, April 18, 2008 1:10 PM, CDT

Hi everyone, Katie had the CT scan. We got the results back and the cancer has spread significantly. She is being picked up from the hospital to come home. She has an appointment with the dr on Monday. Please continue to lift Katie and Jake along with their family and the rest of us. Sometimes you don’t feel like there is a break .

Katie’s pain is doing well and is managed with the morphine. PLEASE continue to pray and remember to please not call the home as we are going to be bringing back the kids so they can have some quite time with Mom and Dad. The kids haven’t seen mom at all and they really need a quite weekend to enjoy each other and focus on their family.


Robert Williams


·  Friday, April 18, 2008 9:12 PM, CDT

Hi Jake again.

The Last few days were quite hectic. Some blessings and some frustrations.....

When we went the ER tues. night, we were only in the waiting room for like 7 minutes before Katies name got called. That was awesome. There was somebody that was there for 7 1/2 hours, ya just waiting. So we got in there real quick a busted out Katie's Book of Life, thank you Erin for that book. It made things so much easier and just went real quick. Its a book that holds all of Katie's information, Dr.'s names, med's, phone #'s. It was great . Thank you. That night was torture. I sat in a chair all night long and Katie wasnt given the right dosage of pain meds and was in pain all night long. I finally left at 2:30 in the morning to go get Katie's Morphine pills because they wouldnt give her a stronger dosage. Then the Dr. was supposed to look at her first thing in the morning. Then it was noon. Then it was 4 oclock. I got there at like 4:30 and when i walked in the door, Katie was crying, because of pain again. Well on my way over to the hospital, Rob W. got me all fired up to make sure when I get in there to get things going and be stern about things. So finally the one Gyn Dr. that was working that day made it in there. He checked her out and said everything is ok, normal. Stitches were dissolving, causing the redness and there was a little bit of bleeding because of motrin. It was thinning out her blood and it wasnt clotting. He wanted a blood test to make sure levels were fine. They were!! The next problem was Katie couldnt pee. They did a catheder and said this should wake up her bladder and it did. She peed. The Dr. wanted a scan and that didnt happen until this morning. She got the results back and it wasnt good news.........The cancer has spread back into her fat pouch in her intestinal area. I thought the Dr. took the whole thing out in the surgery, But i guess not. This was a punch in the gut.

So they discharged her at 2pm and she is at home sleeping, resting.

She will start chemo on monday the 21st. She is healed up well enough to start treatment. Her cancer is aggresive and needs to be treated immediatly.

We love her so much and just pray for healing...........



·  Saturday, April 19, 2008 2:00 PM, PDT

The Location has changed please Attend at ALPINE CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP 9590 Chocolate Summit Drive, El Cajon, California 92021. Same times

Dear Family & Friends,

It has been amazing to see the outpouring of Love & Support for Katie & her family.

The question that is continually asked is, "How can I help?". The answer is PRAYER. Consistent and unceasing prayer.

We believe so strongly in this that we will be hosting a

Fellowship Dessert & Prayer Open House in honor of Katie.

It will take place Sunday evening, April 20, from 6-9pm at our home.

We can't all be with Katie at this time, but we can be with each other on her behalf. If you would like to join us, please do. Everyone is welcome, including children.

You may come and go anytime between 6-9pm. Desserts will be available all evening and we will come together in corporate prayer at 6:30, 7:30 & 8:30pm.

Please RSVP your name & number of guests to Robert at rawjuno46@cox.net or leave a message at 619-722-6454. This will help us plan accordingly.

9590 Chocolate Summit Drive, El Cajon, California 92021

Looking foward to meeting all of you in person,
the other Katie.
(Robert's wife)

·  Tuesday, April 22, 2008 8:50 PM, CDT

Wow what a few days it has been,

Where do I start, Well let’s start with the Praying because Sunday was a appisolute Blessing and a day of lifting Katie up to the Lord and really saying to God that we are Weak and we are placing Katie in your hands. Thanks you for all of the prayers that were lifted up to Katie on Sunday and every day.

Yesterday Katie did start Chemo and is doing pretty good. She is going to be doing Chemo every week and will do that for 4 weeks and then off for 2 weeks. She is taking anti nausea stuff that is working. Katie is also taking some appetite booster to get her to want to eat. THIS IS the #1 thing she needs to be doing. PLEASE pray for Katie to get an appetite to want to eat like a horse. That is what she needs........

With that today I took Katie down to get some IV fluids to help her on her first few days after chemo. She will be doing that for the next few days. Tomorrow she is going to be getting a port placed in her that will be a direct connection so it is easy to give her chemo without having to do it through the IV.

So how is Katie, well she is still weak and is still bed ridden but I can see her working and she got to my truck by herself and she even said Robert don't you ever stop talking. I just laughed and said no and you usually don't either. Well I talk a lot and she is great at talking to but not lately.

Well the Roth and Williams got together last night to see what we can do to help Katie and Jake and the kids. Well we have figured it out and we all have jobs to do and we are off and doing it. We are all motivated to help and everyone is working to help. It’s great to see both Families really working together and coming together on Katie and Jakes behalf. Keep up the good work. :)

Again thank you all very much for your Love and support. We have felt the support and seen the Love from everyone. It is wonderful to see how some many people come along and help when someone really needs it.

There is so much happening that it is hard to get it all out.

My (Wife) Katie had a conference call with the nutritionist from Chicago on Monday and it went very well. We have already started on it and are continuing to add more. FOOD FOOD FOOD is what she needs PROTIEN is the foundation to everything she needs. She needs to eat food and she will start getting up and getting back to some of her same abilities. So guess what we are going to be doing. We have 2 nutritionist working with us on this and we are all over it. So we are off and running.

With all of that info I just gave you I wanted to let you know about some other things coming up.

There is going to be a Dinner held at Katie’s church at 9590 Chocolate Summit Drive, El Cajon, California 92021, Alpine Christian Fellowship. It will be held on Wednesday April 30th at 6:00PM. We will be having Pizza, salad and soda. It will be $5 for adults $3 for children 5-12 years old and 5 years old and under will be free. We will also be having a silent auction and a raffle. Please spread the word. Some things that will be Auctioned and Raffled are 2 official Major League Baseball’s 1 with Tony Gwynn Signature. Padre tickets, Photo shoots, Gift Baskets, Massage and Facials, Family Dinner with Alpine Fire Dept. and so much more. There is so much going on that you don’t want to miss. This is going to be an amazing event. The women that have put this together have really put some hard work into it. Thanks for all you have done.





·  Thursday, April 24, 2008 8:37 PM, CDT

Hey Everyone,

It's my turn to contribute to Katie's page. I do share her name after all. We used to have a fun time calling each other's work before she got married and changed her name. They'd ask who's calling and we'd say, Katie, Katie Williams. It always threw people for a loop. . . And then there was the time when Jack, Katie's dad, told everyone he was having another grandchild by Katie. Only he didn't say which one, so the rumor at Shadow was that it was me. I was sure suprised when someone came up to congratulate me and asked when I was due.

It's good to remember the fun, because today the tears were rolling. We've come to discover over the last few days that Katie's cancer is more prolific than we thought. It is in her intestines, there are small spots in her lungs and it's all over her liver. Her liver is the biggest concern. It's not functioning well, and is creating amonia inside her.

Katie is still struggling to eat, not because she doesn't want to, but because she's so weak and can't count anymore (or is just flat out trying to cheat). Julie told her 10 bites of pudding, (which was secretly packed with protein), and Katie kept skipping every other number. Kristie held her accountable and she got all 10 scoops in. Tomorrow they will put a feeding tube thru her nose to help boost her caloric levels and fill her full of protein in a more rapid and reliable way.

I think it would be honest to say that we were all feeling a bit hopeless and helpless today. Jake felt a leading by the Lord to call for Pastor Ray and the Elders to come pray over her. News travels fast in the Williams/Roth families so in a matter of minutes we were all at the house waiting for Pastor Ray to arrive. 20 or so of the family and church elders gathered around Katie's bed and prayed for her healing. We know ultimately she'll be healed forever when she arrives in heaven, but we're selfishly not asking for that, we just want her healed enough to stay. To stay a little while longer. Long enough to see little Jake walk, long enough for Brynne to start Kindergarten and long enough to see Jadyn start driving a car.

Please continue to pray for Katie. She needs the chemo to bind the cancer. She needs the calories to start giving her energy and weight back. Pray for Jake. For continued strength, continued faith, continued support.

Don't forget to tell all your friends and family about the upcoming benefit dinner on April 30th. There will be pizza dinner, a silent auction and a special raffle. All proceeds go directly to the Jake & Katie Roth fund. We'll be there and hope you will too.

9590 Chocolate Summit Drive, El Cajon,
Alpine Christian Fellowship at 6:00PM.

We will be having Pizza, salad and soda. It will be $5 for adults $3 for children 5-12 years old and 5 years old and under will be free. We will also be having a silent auction and a raffle. Please spread the word.

Some things that will be Auctioned and Raffled are 2 official Major League Baseball items, one 1 with Tony Gwynn's Signature. Padre tickets, Photo shoots, Gift Baskets, Massage and Facials, Family Dinner with Alpine Fire Dept. and so much more.



·  Friday, April 25, 2008 9:23 PM, CDT

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to give an update on Katie. As you know Katie has been having some real struggles including some with her ability to breathe easily. Today she went down to the Cancer Center for some more IV hydration and to also get a feeding tube placed in. When she got down there the staff felt the need to admit her.

I'll just put it like Katie puts it--Her and I are a like when it comes to talking were really blunt and to the point—We just say it how it is.

Katie has a lot of fluid in her abdomen and that is making it distended. That it puts pressure on her chest and makes it very painful. About 4 hours after she was admitted, Katie began to show signs of Kidney Failure so they have now moved her into the ICU (Intensive Care Unit).

The entire Family has been down to see her and now that she is in the ICU only Jake is able to see her. She is getting pretty much 1 on 1 care. She is really in a good place but being there doesn't mean she is in a good place health wise. But . . . we still have FAITH that ultimately God will take care of her. Could her condition get better? Sure but we just allow God to work the situation. We don't know what God's plan is. He's in Control

As I have shared with others, I have been blessed with my knee getting injured because it has given me the ability to spend a ton of time with Katie. Katie keeps saying to everyone you have to have FAITH. FAITH huh, well I woke up crying about 4 this morning because I am sad. I am sad about everything. I am sad about my little brother dying 8 yrs ago from a drug overdose. I am sad about my sister’s sickness . . . BUT Katie keep saying have FAITH. Yes, that is what it is about. FAITH-to allow God to make the plans. FAITH-to allow God to have the Control. FAITH-to allow God to take care of every situation that is to come. FAITH-that he will make sure that everyone of her kids will lead a Life for Christ. Katie says we have to have FAITH. We don’t have to get answers from her, we need our answer from our Lord and Savior. He’s in Control of everything. If you don’t believe that, I feel sorry for you. If you don’t believe in Our Lord and Savior then you better figure it out. There is a Higher Power in this World and I believe it is God, my Lord and Savior. He is in Control and That is coming from me a CONTROL FREAK.

All I can say is there is still time to Pray . . . Still time to Believe and Still time to lift up our Lord and Savior.

You can count on this--Katie is going to be with our Lord and Savior Sooner or Later and we don’t get to make that decision, He does.

So everyone Please pray for Katie’s comfort. Katie is in the ICU and she isn’t allowed any visitors from anyone beside immediate family and for now it is only Jake. There is no need to send Flowers because the ICU doesn’t allow Flowers.

I thank you all so much for you love and support. All I can say is if you don’t know the Lord and Savior we do then get down on your knees and get to know Him. That what Katie Wants Really.

Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.
1 Corinthians 16:13

I am thankful for my Older Brother John and My Parents that continue to show There Faith in our Lord and Savior.


Robert Williams

Don’t forget the 30th it's a great event for Katie and Jake ultimately to get support for these kids. Don't forget to tell all your friends and family about the upcoming benefit dinner on April 30th. There will be pizza dinner, a silent auction and a special raffle. All proceeds go directly to the Jake & Katie Roth fund. We'll be there and hope you will too.

9590 Chocolate Summit Drive, El Cajon,
Alpine Christian Fellowship at 6:00PM.

We will be having Pizza, salad and soda. It will be $5 for adults $3 for children 5-12 years old and 5 years old and under will be free. We will also be having a silent auction and a raffle. Please spread the word.


·  Sunday, April 27, 2008 12:14 PM, CDT

Hi eveyone,

Thank you so much for the support.

This has been the hardest 2 days in my life. Katies internal organs have shut down and is in really bad shape. The Dr.s asked me if she went under, do you want us to put her on life support, respirator, or do cpr. Basically when it comes down to it, Do you want to control the situation. At first I ssaid yes, Then after praying and, and talking with Katies dad and giving it up to the LORD, Idecided not to hook her up to all that stuff. We are waiting for a mracle of God. It is GODS will we want and ultimately what God wants.

Katie is a fighter and she would definately not want to be hooked up to a machine.

I love her so much and would love for her to stay here with me and the girls and little Jake, But the Lord has a plan and I put it all in his hands.....



·  Sunday, April 27, 2008 8:45 PM, CDT

To my brothers and sisters in Christ,

Today was very uplifting. Steve came today and led worship with Katie and all of us. It was so powerful. The spirit was overflowing into the hallways. Then Carol was led by the Lord to get a sheet and take it with her to her lunch meeting with her Pastor and other missionaries.They took a sharpie and put like 50 healing scripures on it. They also annointed the Sheet with oil.The key verse on this sheet is God did extraordinary miracles through Paul so that even hankercheifs and aprons that had touched Him were taken to the sick and their illnesses were cured. Acts 19:11. It is truly blessed.

Katie has been motionless all day until about 15 minutes ago. She has been lifting her eyes and raising a little eye brow.

Tonight I ask Everyone to pray and ask our Lord to restore her body. We ask for her to stay and do the Lords work down here. There is nothing left that the Drs.s can do to save Katie. Only the Man, The Dr., The Great Physician upstarirs can save her.




·  Monday, April 28, 2008 7:51 AM, CDT

Call me crazy But I just got the chills big time.

I was just sitting and praying over Katie and read a verse off of her sheet then turned and asked her,"Im still waiting for the Lord to heal you" and she raised her eye brow. Then i asked, Has He already healed you?, and she raised her eybrow again. Then I asked, Do you know something i dont know?, and she lifted her eyebrow again. Kinda like "Dont you worry babe" .The chills ran up and down my spine like you dont even know.

DO NOT give up hope. "For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37

Keep praying for Katie. Keep the Faith. Dont lose hope. Believe.


·  Monday, April 28, 2008 10:00 PM, CDT

Well this morning when Katie responded to my questions, It gave me so much reassurance that God was gonna let her remain here on earth.

Throughout the day, I have been thinking of the meaning of those questions. In the Old Testament, Jesus performed miracles of the flesh. Healing Leprocy and rising Lazereth from the dead after 4 days in the grave. Healing the blind and def. In the New Testament, Our faith is all about the healing of our souls. Being spiritually healed. Having faith in our God and beleiving in Jesus Christ and what he did for us on the Cross.

When Katie said she is healed, the ultimate healing is in Heaven......

The nurse came by to evaluate Katie this morning and estimated 24-48 hours. I couldnt beleive it. Her body is declining, Blood pressure 68/32. She is hanging on right now. I have been kissing her all day, for the last 3 days as a matter of fact, and i will be snuggling with her all night long. This woman means so much to me and her family. She has done so much for me. She changed me from drinking and partying 6 days a week to putting the Lord first in my life and being the man I was capable of being.

We love her dearly.........,But not as much as the Good Lord..........




·  Tuesday, April 29, 2008 6:25 AM, CDT

Last night as I layed next to Katie, All I could do was hold her and tell her how much i loved her. I put on her cd she ordered off the TV last time she was at the hospital, on repeat. It has alot of her favorite worship songs on it. I fel asleep and woke up about 1:30am. I ran my fingers through her hair and she felt a little warm. So i put the ice packs back on her sides and gave her another kiss....I popped up at 3am and looked over to say hi again and she was gone.....Still holding her warm hand and just thinking, your home now honey. No more pain. She is in a most glorious place now with her little brother Tim.......And most of all with God. Looking at him face to face, How wonderful that must be.

She has touched all of our lives in our own special and unique way......Katie will forever have a special place in my heart and whenever i hold my precious little boy, i will be looking right into Katies eyes.

I love you honey....




·  Wednesday, April 30, 2008 11:01 PM, CDT

Thank you for the prayers and wonderful words of wisdom and comfort. Sorry I couldnt be there tonight but i think it would've been to much. Thank tou so much for the fundraiser. You dont even know how much it means to me, Thank you!

I am so glad to hear of people commiting their lives to the Lord! It is an eternal gift. Some people find that hard to beleive but it is real.

Katie and I are just a little normal family that lives in Alpine CA. Were not famous, Were not rockstars, moviestars, Rich, or live in a huge mansion. Why is our story touching so many lives. It boggles my mind. Katie prayed out on the lawn months ago. I think right around after little Jake was born. She asked the Lord to use her in any way He wanted to. She completly surrendered her life to the Lord. Little did she know what He had planned for her. She asked for it. She wanted to experience God. I dontknow why or how our story spread so fast and touched so many people.

Katies memorial service will be on May the 10th, 11am at Shadow Mountain Community Church, 2100 Greenfield Drive, El Cajon, CA. 92019. It is open to all!!! Please come out if you can. You are all considered family!!


·  Monday, May 5, 2008 5:13 PM, CDT


Ive been kinda quiet this last week.....The hardest thing out of this whole thing is having an empty house....well its not totally empty, Little Jake is Great company. That boy puts a Katie size smile on my face. He is so cool.

Church was awesome yesterday. All the hugs felt really good. People were actually in line waiting to give me a hug. It made me laugh. It was good to sing and let out some tears and just be around Gods people. People who really care for one another.

Its funny, Just about 20 Minutes ago a lady named Laurie called asking for a lady named deborah or something and i told her she has the wrong number, then she asked my phone number, i told her. Then she said oh the numbers got crossed referenced or something and is Katie available. I told her that she had passed away last week and the Laurie was in shock. I told her the story. That she had been diagnosed with cancer and had surgery and 7 weeks later, she died. Then she asked, "How are you coping with this?", and I said that were Christians and are Faith is getting us through this. Then she went on to talk about her Pastor and church and how her mother had passed away when she was 2 yrs. old. We were talking to each other about personal stuff you know and thats what its about. Letting out your feelings and talking about that kinda stuff does so much. Then you put Gods purpose into it and its just right. I told her about Katies Caringbridge site and Laurie said she would visit. She said she would start praying for strenght. It was nice talking to you Laurie. It made me feel better.

Thanks everbody for all the continued support. I love You.




·  Friday, May 9, 2008 10:28 AM, CDT

To all, who have been touched by my wife, Katie

It amazes me that God continues to use Katie in an incredible way, even though she is with Jesus in heaven. No more pain, nor sorrow, nor sin, nor cancer, nor death.

Katie has had a tremendous impact on so many people across our nation and even in other countries. She was a woman of faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and her faith was revealed in her last days here on earth.

Even though Katie was fighting for her life- she still cared for and thought of others first.

Katie had a heart for people to know Jesus. She wanted people to know of Jesus’ love and His forgiveness. Katie wanted everyone to believe and trust in Christ. Katie was a woman of faith and she loved the Lord and she wants so much for you to know Him too.

Katie accepted the Lord as a young child. And the first thing she did- she went to her teacher and told her- “I have Jesus in my heart”. She began sharing her love for Jesus at a very early age. She never quit sharing her love for the Lord.

When Katie was close to death- she was still thinking of others- especially a dear friend of hers who didn’t know Christ. In her last days, God used her to lead her dear friend to the Lord.

Katie wants everyone to know of Jesus’ love & forgiveness. That Jesus died on the Cross for our sin and that He rose again from the dead. The faith Katie had- came from the One who loved her the most- it came from Her personal Lord & Savior Jesus.

I know Katie would want me to ask you- “Do you know Jesus? Have you received Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior? He loves you so much- that He died on the Cross for you!”

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world (you) that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

If there is someone out there who has been following the events of my wife’s life- that does not know Christ- she would love for you to begin believing and trusting in Him. I encourage you to pray a prayer of faith, inviting Jesus to be your Lord and Savior-like Katie did… pray this from your heart and God will hear you.

Dear Lord Jesus,

I know that I need a Savior, and I want you to be the Lord of my life. I believe that you died on the Cross for my sin; and I believe that you rose again from the grave. Today Lord, I ask you to forgive of my sin; I want Your free gift of eternal life. Jesus, come into my heart, be my personal Lord and Savior. Amen.

Katie loved to share her faith. She wants everyone to trust and believe in Jesus. I hope, if you’ve never done that- you will today.

Thank you, for the wonderful support you’ve given me, Jadyn, Brynne and Jacob.

God Bless,



If you did receive Christ today- or maybe you made a recommitment to Christ- would you send a little note to Katie’s guestbook. It’s the greatest thing you ever did!



·  Tuesday, May 13, 2008 8:02 AM, CDT

With every ending comes also a new beginning. With every disappointment comes a new opportunity for success.

With every mistake comes a new and valuable lesson to be learned. With every setback comes a new position from which to move forward.

With every frustration comes the energy to move to a higher level of achievement. With every challenge comes a new strategy for taking action.

With every time of darkness comes the chance to make a real difference by shining your own special light, Gods light. With every sadness comes a deeper appreciation for the joys that life can hold.

With every difficulty comes a new level of strength to be gained. With every loss comes an increased determination to win.

Though life has many pitfalls and problems, there is a positive side to every one of them. Choose to see and live that positive reality, and no problem will be a problem for long.

I just Got this E- Mail this morning. It kinda hit home. I added God in there. To be honest, Ive been kinda ignoring him this last few days, not angry, Just very sad. Im not blaming him, Just miss her. Last night i felt he Lord kinda tap me on the shoulder and say, Its going to be ok. Im reading my Daily walk this morning. Its on Esther. Well I love you guys and thanks for the support. I cant express in words what it means to me,......and Katie!

Your brother in Christ, Jake

·  Monday, May 19, 2008 10:22 AM, CDT

Hi everyone,

Just got back from the retreat about 2pm on sunday and laid down for a nap. Its amazing how eating and driving in a car for 3 hours could make you so tired! This weekend was great. The guys from ACF are just awesome. The Holy Spirit just flows out of those guys and have given me so much strength. Thank you Guys for being here for me.

The Retreat was about facing your fears and how you have to take your fears head on because their not going to go away. Rene Schlaepfer was the speaker and he used the story of David and Goliath. After David killed Goliath, He had everything. The Lord was first in David’s life and God was blessing him for that. David’s brother Saul got very jealous of this and wanted David, his very own brother, Dead. When David had no where else to go, He found the cave Adullam. There were 5 things David did in that cave to get him through this dark time. He released his concernes to God. Then, He recognized that he was powerless against his situation. Next, he relaxed in Gods care. David took refuge in the Lord. He crawled into His lap and just relaxed. Next David remembered that God had a purpose for his life. “I cry out to God most high, to God, who fulfills his purpose for me…God sends his love and His faithfulness.” Psalm 57:2,3b Then David re-focused through music.

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you. I call as my heart grows faint; Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower….You have given me the heritage of those who fear your name. ….Then will I ever sing praise to your name and fulfill my vows day after day. Psalm 61:1-3,5,8

Thank you Rene for the awesome message.

Thank you again everyone for your endless love and support for me. I cant even put into words what it means to me……………….Your Brother, Jake



·  Tuesday, June 3, 2008 12:34 PM, CDT

Hey everyone it Robert again,

It’s been a while since I posted. I thought I would say hi. It is great to see that people are still remembering Jake and Katie and everyone else. We are all doing pretty good. We all are busy getting ready for the end of the year stuff. Summer is really busy for our family since we have so many birthdays and other things going on. Little Jake Birthday is in July and Brynne is in August.

With that we are all dealing with so many different emotions. It is good for us all to digest everything in our own way. We are all different people and deal with looses in different ways.

Jake and little Jake are doing ok. Jake just got back to work and is doing well. I pray for this to give Jake some time to relax his mind. Jake has been having fun with the little one and he has been getting things in order so he can get back to work. Little Jake is pulling himself up and I am sure that little Stud will be walking in no time at all. He’s just around the corner from being able to play ball. He is just as lovable as they come.

Aaron I saw yesterday along with the Jayden at school. They are staying busy. Brynne was at school also. Those 2 beautiful girls are just as wonderful as ever. They are really keeping Aaron busy. He has been getting them both ready for their new schools. Brynne will be going to Creekside in Alpine for kindergarten and Jadyn will be going to Shadow Hills for 1st grade which are right next to each other. Jadyn will be at the same school as Brendan my youngest. Which I know Brendan likes that because he sure loves his cousins. I think Aaron said he got the girls a goat also which I know those 2 girls will love that animal. Those 2 girls love bugs and animals so much it is funny.

Beside all of that I just wanted to say keep the Faith. Katie’s was strong and she says keep the Faith. Stay strong and continue to look up to God for all of your advice. He will answer on his timing. There is so much more for us all to do. I was reminded of a verse this weekend that stuck with me. Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.

There is so many more people out there for us to reach and so many people that are in there own hurts and battles. Keep your eyes open and focused on God so we can be available for others in need.

Just a reminder for all that didn’t know. We have the American Cancer Society's Relay for Life this month. Your Relay For Life® is about celebration, remembrance, and hope. By participating, you honor cancer survivors, pay tribute to the lives we've lost to the disease, and raise money to help fight it all right here in your community. You won't want to miss one moment of this life- and community-affirming event!

Event Date
June 21, 2008 Saturday @ 9am – Sunday @ 9am the next morning

Event Location
Joan Mac Queen Middle School

2001 Tavern Rd Alpine, Ca 91901

You can join our team or any others. It is all for a great cause. Go to the link and look at the side and you will see all of the teams. We are TEAM KATIE and there is also WALK BY FAITH which is Alpine Christian Fellowship, Family & Friends which also will be walking. There are so many more just join in and support in any way you can. This is one day only from 9am to 9am the next morning. You don’t have to be there all day maybe just 1 hr you have available to walk or rock in a chair. Thanks everyone really thanks.


Take care

Robert Williams



·  Wednesday, June 11, 2008 7:35 PM, CDT

Hi everyone. I think subconciously ive been avoiding this site. All I do is cry when I get on it......Things are starting to roll along again. Im back to work and the jobs are pouring in!! Thank you Lord! Work is keeping my mind off the sad things but stillcant get over the fact that she is gone.....But I just keep on ging and try not to think about it to hard. But that is easier said than done!

The girls and I are going to disneyland thursday! Were going with Jessica, Brian, The kids, Luke, Hil, Kristin and her daughters! I am looking forward to spending a couple days with the girls!!:)

Thaks everyone for the continuing thoghts, prayers, and support! I played drums at church last week! It felt really good. I got a little emotional at the end but it felt great! Talk to you later, Jake!!

·  Friday, June 13, 2008 6:28 PM, CDT

Well, read the guestbook and I am crying again. I had the greatest time with Jade and Brynne, my family and friends at disneyland! The girls are so beutiful and such a reminder of how great Katie was. It just reminded me how much I do miss hanging out with them. Then, we went to my Moms this morning and the girls got to hang out with their brother for a while. It was an awesome couple of days!

I love you guys!! Thank you for the messages!!



·  Monday, June 30, 2008 9:36 PM, CDT

Katie thanks for starting this journey for us. I just want to send you a note and let you know that I am thinking of you and really miss you. I miss talking to you on the phone or texting every day. I was thinking when you were just born Dad, John and I went to see you in the hospital, wow that was a long time ago. Now look, this journey you started only 4 months ago. Well I guess it was longer than that, I guess it started when you prayed that prayer. Within that time you became sick and went home to be with the Lord. It was 2 months yesterday that you left us and went to a place where you have no pain. It has been really quite lately and for you and I Katie being quite doesn’t come easy for us.

Huuuuumm, I wonder what you are thinking? What do you see? What do you think about what we are doing? Are you proud of what you see? Are things the way you imagine them to be like?

Katie we prayed for your healing and prayed and prayed. God healed you and your pain is gone. We ask God to keep you here with us and that didn’t happen. Then I realized you asked God to use you in a mighty way. So God answered all of our prayers. Matthew 21:22 says if you ask in prayer, Believing, you will receive.

I am reading a book that Mom gave me called “90 minutes in heaven”. It is pretty neat to read what this guy went through. I wonder if you are seeing everything in the same way. I wonder if you were greeted by Timmy when you got there.

Katie you left an awesome Legacy behind so now it is time to Suck it up and get to work. There is more to be done and more to be seen. God works in amazing ways and there is no time to sit around and watch time pass by. So I just wanted to let you know that I love you and I will push forward and I will continue seeking God in the ways he desires.

Here is a cool passage I read today I just thought I would share it

Matthew 6:25-34

25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Sorry for blabbing,




·  Thursday, July 10, 2008 10:30 PM, CDT

2 Cor. 1:3-4

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

I just completed the "90 Minutes in Heaven" Book by Don Piper with Cecil Murphey

All I can say is it is a great book.

This is a great weekend coming up. My youngest nephew turns 1. Yep you heard it. Jake is turning 1 this Saturday and I am excited. God blessed me with all nieces until Little Jake. Thanks Katie for giving us that gift. I am looking forward to seeing all of the family. Seeing the girls and jake will be awesome. It will be a fun weekend relaxing and hanging with the Roths and Williams. I miss seeing everyone.

see ya



·  Monday, July 14, 2008 9:58 PM, CDT

Hi Everyone, Im glad to see that Rob has been updating you! Sorry, Ive been a slacker.....Ive been staying busy with work which im getting more and more work thrown at me, its a huge blessing, and have been playing drums at church. We practice on thursdays and then have to be at church by 7 to do service at 8, and then 10. Were also going to play at Horizon for their Vacation Bible School, Im looking forward to that. Im so glad that the Lord has blessed me with being able to play drums. Ill be honest, I have been struggling in my relationship with Him, But when we get together and worship and play music, the Spirit just wells up inside and I know He is there helping me get thru this..........The girls stayed the night this saturday after Jacobs party, Jade was a little weary about it,but we talked it out a little and she went on playing with Riley and Brynne and got over it. We got over a little hump, making some progress. When she comes to the house, momma instantly overwhelms her, but we made headway! My Brother Jimmy at church gave me a verse to look up, He said he felt that Katie wanted me to read it, John 11:4 But when Jesus heard about it he said,"Lazarus's sickness will not end in death. No, it happened for the glory of God so that the son of God will receive glory from this." I put Katies name in there and its still a tough pill to swallow but our God deserves every of ounce it. Just think of the cross......and what happened that day, when Jesus, God, Sacrificed himself for us.........................so you,me,Katie can be with him together again! I love you guys and remember, Keep the Faith!


·  Wednesday, August 20, 2008 3:34 PM, CDT

Hi everyone,

WOW it sure has been quite. Well I thought I would share some news. I am going back to work. It has been 7 months and I will begin going back to work on the 6th of September.

My knee is doing really good and I still look at this as one of the biggest blessings in my life. This will give me the feeling like my life is getting back to normal.

I know Mom is worried since she would rather me be at a desk but this is what I do and it is what makes me feel good. I will be careful and I am always thinking Safety. So much has gone on over the last 7 months and I get emotional just thinking of it. This is what God had planned and this is the next step.

We have Brynne's Birthday this Sunday so we all will be together. It is going to be fun and I am really looking forward to it. Jayden starts 1st grade on Monday and Brynne start Kindergarten on Monday also. Aaron is really working on finding a job which can be hard to do in these times. Jake is busy working and taking care of that wonderful little Stud. Little Jake was with us today while Dad is at work he is a amazing little boy with a wonderful spirit. He has this great picture in his room with Katie holding him.

Little Sis I miss you and I wish I was able to share this moment with you. I love you give Timmy a hug for me. :)

Back to the Fire house it will be,




·  Wednesday, September 10, 2008 8:47 PM, CDT


Read Hebrews chapter 11 & 12

Here the first few verses.

1 Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.

It is amazing to me reading these chapters how these men and women had Faith when they didn't even see God. They didn't know what was going to happen they had Faith in God. In trouble times they just kept there Faith.

I can sure use that to help me when I want to rely on myself but instead to look at my Lord and have Faith that he is in Control.

We continue to grow and look forward to what He has planned.

There is a new movie coming Sept 28 2008 that I would like to recommend. It not because Im a firefighter either it's because of the message it sends out to us. Goto the link below and watch some of the trailers.


Katie I continue to grow do to the Faith that you placed in Him. I pray for your strength and courage to continue in us focused on Him

I love you Sis



·  Sunday, September 14, 2008 6:14 PM, CDT

Hi Everyone,

Well this is my first time writing on this page. Pretty scary!

Sarah, thank you for the beautiful poem. It's hard to believe that it's been 8 years since Tim was home here. For those of you that don't know our family that well, Tim was our youngest son that went to be with the Lord at the age of 19. It seems so quiet with both Tim and Katie gone. They were talkers, even more than Robert!We all miss them terribly. People say that "Time heals all wounds". But they are wrong, time just lets you get use to those wounds and learn to deal with them. Time does keep us all marching forward, we keep on working, staying in touch with the kids and their Dads. It's going to be a long healing time required for Katie's loss. She left her mark on so many people and she left us 3 little miracles to remind us of her daily.

Thank you all for your prayers. We do feel them and please keep them coming. Little Jake is walking (even though he falls over since he thinks it's so funny). Jadyn started 1st grade and Brynne is in Kindergarten. Keep praying for them. We had a birthday party for Brynne last month and Jadyn's is coming quickly.

Robert's back to his firehouse, and their family is busy with soccer (and a new driver in the family as Rebecca got her license)! John's wife, Julie, just graduated from nursing school and already has a job in the ER at the local hospital. We're all so proud of her accomplishment. Their 2 girls are also in soccer for the first year. Jake & Aaron are going a great job as fathers, even trying to get together once a week for dinner to all keep in touch. Aaron & Jack (my husband) will start a Bible Study this week. What a blessing to have him ask to do this. I get to have fun with the girls during that time! Can't wait!

So as we approach that 5 month anniversary at the end of the month, please keep those prayers coming. We all need them, especially those little girls.

We love you all & sure miss Katie,

Sally (John, Robert, Katie & Tim's Mom)

Phil. 4: 6-7 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.



·  Thursday, October 2, 2008 3:57 PM, CDT

You all got it right.

We had Jadyn's Birthday this weekend. What a great time. We all got together at Jakes and had the entire family there to celebrate Jadyn's 7th birthday. I wish we had more time to be together as a family just hanging out. All of the kids are growing quick. My Katie face painted all of the girls faces like princes for the Princes Party which is what Jadyn wanted the theme to be. The kids ran around the property playing and having a fun time.

I heard Jadyn say a few things about Katie (Sister) which really made me feel good. I know there isn't a day that goes by they don't dream, think, want, or need their Mom. They are her breaths of air now. Katie sure was proud of her kids. Jake and Aaron are spectacular Dad's and are doing an amazing jobs. Little Jake is walking everywhere.

Again it was a wonderful weekend just being able to sit and watch these kids enjoying life one day at a time.

Continue keeping the kids and their Dad’s in your prayers as they work through life doing what is best for these wonderful blessings.




·  Sunday, October 26, 2008 10:53 PM, CDT

Wow, time sure is moving along. I thought I would say hi to everyone. We just had Aarons Birthday and we got together at Mom and Dad’s house. It was good to get the kids together.

"Praise" Aaron got a job and is working up in alpine for a good company. Jake is staying busy with work and he has also started Little Jake in Daycare. This was his first week and it seemed to go really well. That take some stress off dad and it is good for Little Jake to be with other kids his own age. They are taking good care of him and he eats all sorts of good food which I know has always been important to my sister. All of the kids are being taken good care of from there wonderful Dad's.

14 more days until it is the 9th of November which is Katie's Birthday. Wow that is amazing to me. Oh how I think of you sis specially when I run out of people to talk to on the phone. I called your phone the other day just to hear your voice. You’re a wonderful mom and I just want you to know that those awesome dad's are doing and incredible job raising the kids.

I also placed 3 new pictures up in the picture area of the web site. You will see the kids with their Dad's


·  Monday, December 15, 2008 6:58 PM, CST

As you can imagine we are all swamped. We are all getting ready for Christmas. We are all doing well and keeping all of the kids busy. We got together the for Thanksgiving and had a great time. Jadyn, Brynne and Jacob are all growing quickly. Jacob is 17 months now and getting close to 2 so we all know what is in the near future.

We just want to let you all know that we are doing good. We continue to grow and look forward to the future. God has big plans and we look forward to what comes next. As Christmas comes we are blessed to have the family close and to be able to spend time together. We no that with this time of year comes a lot of stresses. Well we all have to remember to give our stress up to Christ and to continue to grow. The Future is bright and He has a ton of plans so keep the chins lifted up and remember the future is Bright.

The Bennett, Roth and Williams Family wishes everyone a Merry CHRISTmas and a wonderful new year




·  Sunday, January 4, 2009 8:43 PM, CST

Happy New Year Everyone,

We had a nice Christmas, maybe a little mellower than years past (if that is at all possible with 8 grandchildren), but still a fun time with everyone together. We were all trying real hard to focus on those little ones that are here, and not those that weren’t. The girls loved their new bears made from Mom’s bathrobe. They turned out so cute and cuddly. Thank you Sarah for getting that done for them.

As 2009 comes rolling in, I think we’re thankful the 2008 is over! We are probably not alone in that feeling! For me I want 2009 to be a year focused on Christ. We will be starting our Bible studies again this week. I want to encourage any of you that have been putting that possible Bible study off or on the back burner, please make it a priority this year. You might be wondering what Christ wants you to do in 2009. That study might help you refocus your life. We also look forward to being there for each other as a family. I’m so thankful that God’s kept us all in the same city. I ran into John (Katie’s big brother) and his 2 daughters at Vons a few days ago. As I did my marketing we kept running into one another and the girls would yell “Hi Nana”. They even counted the times (10)! What a blessing to be able to do that! I know that doesn’t happen much with families so spread out.

We want to also thank every one of you for your continued prayers. We can feel those prayers being answered. We do check in on the guestbook notes and are encouraged by them. I’m sure Katie’s amazed at this journal, and when the kids are older, they will realize how special this journey has been.

Thank you again from the Williams, Roth and Bennett family. We love you all and have a blessed, Christ filled 2009.

Sally (Katie’s Mom)


·  Friday, February 6, 2009 9:28 AM, CST

Hi everyone, we all have been busy and just dealing with life as God has it set out for us. Uncle Jake was over last night to help me with some electrical. Little Jake was here also what a stud he is. Just an amazing kids and he sure does love that dad. The Jadyn and Brynne are doing good in school and are keeping Aaron busy as ever.

I wanted to just let you guys know that Jadyn has been having some health issues lately. Jadyn has been having gallbladder problem which is rare at her age. Aaron has met with the Pediatric surgeon and it is his recommendation to have it removed. She has been have gallbladder attacks caused by 2 stones. One which is pretty large and the other on the smaller side. She isn’t at the point of having any infection yet but he recommends the surgery to keep her from getting an infection which in turn could cause other issues.

Well as you can imagine we are all very sensitive about this after our 2008 year we just had. Jadyn will be having surgery this next Wednesday and will be in the hospital until the next day at least. Aaron has been talking to Jadyn and she isn’t excited at all. To say the least she is very scared. They haven’t had very good experiences with the hospital and they have spent way too much time lately in there. Jadyn has been through CT scans, sonograms, blood work and seen many doctors over the last month.

If you could please keep Jadyn in your prayers. Aaron and Brynne could also use the prayers while they deal with this. They are worried and trusting God that he is ultimately in charge. Please pray that the Doctors and all of the people involved will have gentle hands and take good care of Jadyn. Allow Jadyn to come out of this with a different experience than what she has seen in the past. Pray that Jadyn will have the comfort of God over her and that she will feel the presents and love of the entire family supporting her through this time.




·  Wednesday, February 11, 2009 10:22 AM, PST

Hi everyone,

Just wanted to give you an update on Jadyn Bennett which is my sisters oldest Daughter.

Jadyn had Surgery today at Kaiser Zion in San Diego and she just came out of Surgery. Everything went very well the Doctor said. She had her Gallbladder removed and will be in the hospital until tomorrow recovering.

There is know visitors allow since she is a minor.

All of us in the family will be there to help Aaron with everything.

Thanks so much for the prayers and please continue to pray for Jadyn's recovery and for her to get back to her normal activities.

Thanks again for all of the prayers they really do help,



·  Thursday, February 12, 2009 2:19 PM, PST

I just talked to Uncle Aaron and Jadyn is doing great. They were on there way home from the hospital and Jadyn was sleeping on the way home.

Jadyn should be good to go back to school this next week from what the doctor said. She was just glowing with attention she has been given. It sure does make her feel good when so many people show there love to her. She is eating it up and loving every minute of it.

Yesterday she saw all of the family and got to spend time with her sister and brother.

I also got some pictures placed up on the photo area of Jadyn in the Hospital.

Thanks for all of the prayers and love for Jadyn and Family,



·  Friday, February 27, 2009 2:31 PM, CST

Hi Everyone,

I just wanted to pass on some information The MOMS Club of Alpine & Mountain Empire which is proud to present "What's for Dinner?", a cookbook from our family to yours.

All proceeds from the sale of this cookbook will be donated to the family of Katie Roth, they have now placed the books on Ebay and you can buy them there if you are interested. This is a great opportunity to get something that you can use and also have for years to come.

All you have to do is copy and paste or write this in the search area on Ebay front page

Ltd. Edition Cookbook "What's for Dinner?" MOMS Club

You can also try transferring this link below into your search. Sorry this web page doesn't do links.


Thanks Nina Slater and the rest of the MOMS Club of Alpine & Mountain Empire for continuing to keep Katie and the family in everyone's minds.



·  Thursday, April 16, 2009 1:02 PM, PDT


What do I say? Well to start, I will say where has the year gone? I can’t even believe that this is time last year when I really realized that I wasn’t going to grow old with my little sister. It was this time last year when I realized that she was most likely going to be going home sooner than later. It was this time last year that we as a family were just trying to keep in front of Katie because things were changing so quickly.

It was also this time last year when we watched what God really had planned for an amazing person. He was using a beautiful woman to affect so many people’s lives. He was using Katie as a vessel for his work to be done. Katie was a woman that wanted to be used by God in an amazing way. Katie along with us didn’t completely understand what God had planned until she was called home.

I guess what I am thinking is what are we all doing now?

Katie affected so many and so many people became closer to God. Some even began a personal relationship with Our Lord and Savior. Well how is your walk now? Are you still feeling close to Him? Or have you fallen back in the same chair since things have settled down?

I ask this because this isn’t what God had intended for us all. Katie wants us to be on fire for Christ. She wanted to see people changing and taking a lead and continuing the legacy that was put in place. Katie helped motivate so many of us and so many of us possible have fallen back in our own ways. Well as we come into the year since Katie has gone home to be with our Lord and Savior my prayer is that we will all take a minute to sit and analyze ourselves. Sit and think about what our thoughts were a year ago. Are you still on fire and living every day for God? HMMMMMMMMMMM

Today I was standing on the corner doing a fund raiser with the fire department and I saw a car like my sisters and I thought for a minute OH No is that my sister coming up to be now. She is going to die laughing at me standing in uniform on the corner. Then I realized nope it not going to be her. I miss those moments of Katie and me teasing each other. I miss them so much. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

All I am thinking is time is passing and I am not doing enough. I get so busy that I don’t take enough time to really get to know God deeper. Yes things have changed in me this year and I do feel closer to God but there is still more to be done. Still more growing and still more letting go and allowing God to take the lead. Letting God take Control instead of me.

My prayer to everyone that reads this is that you will do the same. If you’re not being used by God then start praying about it. If you’re not going to church then don’t make excuses just figure it out and make it a priority. If you have KIDS well are you leading the Godly example? Are your actions showing that God is first in your life?

I say this not because I am better but because these are all of the things I am saying to myself and this is what my sister would want us all to be doing.

From our entire family I just want you to know that we are all so thankful to have so many people out there thinking of us and praying for our family. It is incredible to know that so many people have had us on their minds throughout this year. We truly thank you so much for your prayers and thoughts. The three kids are doing incredible and there dad’s are also. Please continue to keep the family in your prayers.


Robert Williams



·  Sunday, May 3, 2009 12:25 PM, PDT

We need your help,


Were you impacted by Katie’s testimony which helped you too renew or started a relationship with Jesus? Did Katie’s story inspire you in a way that you would be interested in sharing?

Jimmy Dorantes was interested in starting a documentary and he had prayed that God would open an opportunity if it was His will. This was during the time when Katie became sick. One of the people at Katie’s church talked to Jimmy and recommended him to talk to Katie and Jake. When Katie was asked to become the subject of a documentary, the only word out of her mouth was “Absolutely”. God has truly worked His hand through this entire story. God has brought people along side of Jimmy to help and bring Katie’s documentary to life. This is an incredible testimony to what God has done through Katie and what he will continue to do for years to come. This is a journey of a Mother and Wife that prayed to God and asked Him to use her in a mighty way. Not knowing what that entailed but willing to except what He had planned and place in front of her.

This is where you can come in.

We are looking for some people that were impacted by Katie. Maybe her story helped you change your life and got you to open a new relationship with Jesus. We are looking for people to be filmed on camera and willing to share their testimony on how Jesus used Katie to impact your life.


Please pray about this opportunity and if God has placed it on your heart to participate please contact

Jimmy Dorantes at jimmy.dorantes@gmail.com or call him at 619-368-4486.



·  Tuesday, June 16, 2009 12:54 PM, PDT

I was doing some reading today. I was reading my sister journal. I was reading early on when she was doing her own writing. I came across something that I felt needed to be relayed to you all. This is my sister talking now and I am quoting it write out of her journal.

“For anyone that doesn’t believe in God and hasn't put their life in his hands, I don't know what you're waiting for!! The things that have happened, just today, have been a miracle. It's just so nice to be able to pray, give it up to God and not have to worry about it anymore...to let God do the work and allow him to lay all the puzzle pieces together for you. I don't have to worry....I don't have to carry this cancer, carry this stress....I can trust in God and just let it go. THAT is living life the way it was intended. God created it this way. He wants us to give it to him and not have these burdens. He doesn't want us to be scared....to hurt....it doesn't have to be that way.

To everyone that is struggling and going through hard times....there are so many people out there, it'll be okay....just trust in God and everything else will fall into place.”

This is the person you all followed and couldn’t wait to get an update from. This is the person that helped you put things in a God perspective. This is someone that continued to Glorify God even during the hard time. She didn’t give up on God. She rose to the occasion and continued to trust Him. She didn’t lose Faith because things didn’t go as she had planned.

Have you? Have you lose Faith in God to direct your Life? Are you trying to do it without Him?

Wow good luck.

You know God has put things in place for us all and I pray you are using all of the tools he has given to you. The best tool is the Bible. We take it so for granted. I must have 15 plus bibles in my house. Most of them are dusty. I use one on a regular basis and use the others as references but I would say I still don’t use it enough. So many counties don’t even have the ability to have one. Pick it up and be amazed how God has an answer for your life at the point you’re at now and will be in the future.

Another Tool we have is the local church. Are you using it?????????

Receiving the preaching and teaching of the Word of God increases our faith and builds us up spiritually.  Romans 10:17  So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. There are so many churches out there. Go join one and Grow in your Faith. Don’t just sit around and waste away. Get off your rear and be an example to your kids. If you don’t make it a priority in your life than what example do they have to make it a priority in theirs? Are you angry with God? Well get over it and realize you are only lacking in His knowledge. With more knowledge of Him you will start to understand. I invite you to come to Shadow Mountain Community Church if you can’t find a church that fit you. Just get involved and do something.
                Proverbs 2:6   For the LORD gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding;

I got a chance to watch my sisters Documentary that is coming close to being done, Katie’s Legacy is still alive I look forward to what God has planned.

·  Sunday, August 23, 2009 4:17 PM, PDT


Well the Documentary is done. Jimmy you did an incredible job. You allowed God to truly use you in a way to continue “Katie’s Prayer”.  http://www.katiesprayerthefilm.com/

Yes ,that is the Name of the Film Katie’s Prayer. That is what it came down to Katie praying and asking God to use her in the way He had planned. Would you do the same? Do you have the guts to be used in a mighty way that possible could change the world around you? Or are you one of the many Christians out there just cruising along enjoying the ride?

Sometime I feel like I am one of them. I wonder what would I have to change. For a Control Freak like me change is difficult.

But isn’t that what God wants us to do? Change for Him. To many of us just sit around and forget there is a Legacy that was placed in action by Katie. That Legacy is continued by us. We are the legs and feet that continue to get the word out. Without God using us the Legacy doesn’t reach out as far as it possible could go. So don’t allow the days to pass, let’s get off our rears and do something to change the way we are and to continue the Legacy.


Yes I know everyone is going to write asking where can I see the Film? Well before it is open for everyone to see we have to see what God has planned for it. Jimmy is going to be looking for film festivals and other areas where God Leads him and opens doors.

I know that is hard but we have to allow God to use this the way He has planned. This isn’t about us it about Him and what He wants. This film has been put together with God as the lead. He used and molded Jimmy to bring the right people to be involved and help complete the film. Jimmy isn’t going to stop allowing God to take the Lead. The family stands behind Jimmy and we look forward to Gods plan. Please Pray for doors to open. If you look on Katie’s Prayer site under the view Guestbook you will see that someone in Port Harcourt, Rivers, Nigeria already wants to see it.


God has big plans and who are we to mess with it,



See ya


Robert Williams

Wednesday, April 14, 2010 12:29 PM, CDT

As Katie’s Family continues to grow and the kids get older I was thinking about some things. Time keep passing and it seems to be getting faster and faster. The years come and go.


Reality Check Ahead


What has changed in your Life to bring you closer Christ?

What has changed in your Life to take you further away?

What would have happen if Katie decided to be angry at Christ for bringing on this tragic situation?

Would Katie’s story reach the same amount of people and have the same effect?

I could go on and on asking Questions. But really what I am after is for you to sit back and think. What has changed in your life? Are you a better Follower or are you just cruising around like so many others Lost? Did you just get all caught up in the moment and not realize that you were witnessing God’s Hands at work in a person and a Family. Katie’s Story is real.

I was reading the other day and Came across this verse. I then went into the “Message Bible” which is in Contemporary Language.

This is Romans 12:1-2

1. So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him

2. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.

This is what Katie did exactly. She fixed her attention on God. You could see the Change from the Inside out. As it says above “God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.”

I ask you to please take a step back and do some thinking on or before the 29th of April.

  • Are we a walking testimony that shows Christ in us?
  • Or are we just caught up in the Culture of today wasting our Lives?

My Prayer is that my Sister Story continues to Change lives and enrich others. We all have a story; I pray your story has to do with Christ and how he has enriched your Life.

The best Reality Show is us being used to Further God Kingdom

Thanks Katie fixing your attention on God



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