Hey Mom. Its been 6 years but it always feels like its just happened. It hit me hard again last night. I miss you more now than ever. I want you to see me how I am today. I want you to meet the new people in my life. I want them to know that you're the best mom ever. I want you to tell me what to do when I am clueless about life. I want the comfort of knowing that you'll be in the other room when I wake up everyday. I want to relate to those Buzzfeed posts about moms and not think about things in the past. I want to be able to read your sarcastic and funny messages on my phone. I want to see updated photos of you, me, Bryan and Bea. I want to share every good or bad experience that I have with you. I want to hear your voice. I want to feel your hug. I want to wake you up every morning to kiss you goodbye when I leave for work. I want you to simply just be here but God had other plans for you. I guess he needed an extra person to make Heaven an even extra special place. My heart will never be whole. I miss and love you always. Love, Ate.