Blue Memories

Harry Potter fanfiction by Envinyatar 

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January 10: The Dream In Me     |     Hermione/Lucius     |     NC-17     |    Even in the most persistent immovability, nothing is fully motionless.     |     Warnings: Voldemort-doesn't-die-AU     |     ~4,700 words     |     January '09

December 30: Easy to Love     |      Bill/Tonks, Bill/Tonks/Charlie     |      NC-17     |      When it comes to Tonks, Bill Weasley has never been able to resist. Loving her is simply too easy.     |     Warnings: an incestuous moment not fuelled by any romantic notion whatsoever      |      ~7,850 words     |     December '08

November 30: Stuck Under the Surface     |     Regulus, Sirius (Remus/Sirius, Regulus/Severus)     |     PG-13     |     Sirius doesn't care one bit about his familial duties. Regulus admires him for it, can't help to want the same for himself, sometimes, when the family pressure weighs him down. But in all their differences, they are still the same.     |     Warnings: none     |     ~2,200 words     |     November '08


Gen

Stuck Under the Surface     |     Regulus, Sirius (Remus/Sirius, Regulus/Severus)     |     PG-13     |     Sirius doesn't care one bit about his familial duties. Regulus admires him for it, can't help to want the same for himself, sometimes, when the family pressure weighs him down. But in all their differences, they are still the same.     |     Warnings: none     |     ~2,200 words     |     November '08

fly up high and burn the sky     |      Bellatrix     |     PG-13     |     The fires of Hell, they burn in her.     |      Warnings: child abuse/death, canon character death     |     1,150 words      |       September '08

Red Sun Rising   |   Bellatrix   |   PG-13   |   The doll was extraordinary. It was soft and squishy and warm, and it reacted to everything Bella did.   |   Warnings: madness, child abuse/death   |   ~1,100 words   |   March '08

Shadows in Light and Dark     |    Narcissa (with Bellatrix, Andromeda, Lucius, Draco, Voldemort and Harry)    |    light R    |    In times of war everyone has to choose sides. In the aftermath it might not be the one you would have seen yourself leaning to previously, but the intuitive decision of the moment, drawn from a mix of hope and desperation, often has a way of being the ultimately right one.    |    Warnings: ungraphic sexual activities (not focus of the story!), including adultery, threesomes and rough sex    |    ~3,000 words    |    October '07

Glaciers Melting in the Dead of Night    |    Sirius    |    PG    |    He hates Grimmauld Place, has always hated it since his youth spent in this goddamned house.    |   Warnings: descent into madness   |   ~1,050 words   |   July '07


Het

The Dream In Me     |     Hermione/Lucius     |     NC-17     |    Even in the most persistent immovability, nothing is fully motionless.     |     ~4,700 words     |     January '09

Easy to Love     |      Bill/Tonks, Bill/Tonks/Charlie     |      NC-17     |      When it comes to Tonks, Bill Weasley has never been able to resist. Loving her is too easy.     |     Warnings: an incestuous moment not fuelled by any romantic notion whatsoever      |      ~7,800 words     |     December '08

Gradually      |     Bellatrix/Severus     |     NC-17     |     He doesn't talk to her in the daylight, looks the other way when she passes him by. But at night all cats are black, and the day's hostility fades into the darkness.     |     Warnings: none     |     ~1,450 words     |     September '08

Inebriation   |   Lily/Sirius (main), Regulus/Sirius    |   NC-17    |   Lily would hesitate to call Sirius Black her first love. She would call him her first, most magnificent fuck, maybe, or her first experimentation, but if it came down to it she would deny any sort of emotional attachment.   |    Warnings: adultery, first time, incest, underage, pregnancy    |    ~4,300 words    |    May '08 

Worlds on Fire    |   Harry/Romilda   |   NC-17   |   Harry's problem isn't that he ended up getting fucked. His problem is that he ended up getting fucked by Romilda Vane. Romilda Vane, who in his sixth year had tried convincing Harry of his love for her by using a love potion hidden in some chocolate.   |   Warnings: bondage, anal/prostate play, rimming, orgasm denial   |   ~3,650 words   |   April '08

Torn Asunder    |    Padma/Voldemort    |    NC-17    |    Padma Patil was not only a spy, she was the Dark Lord's whore as well.   |   Warnings: dub-con, oral, BDSM, first time, knifeplay   |   ~2,600 words   |   March '08

Addicted to Circumstance    |    Bellatrix/Remus    |    NC-17    |    Bella captures the wolf easily enough.    |    Warnings: heavy dub-con bordering on non-con, violence/torture, breathplay, bondage, dominance play, mindfuck, biting, some adultery on the side    |    ~3,900 words    |    March '08

At Dawn (The Twilight Prevails)    |    Hermione/Severus    |    NC-17    |    To be quite honest, Severus can't figure Granger out. She's nothing like he remembered; the shrillness of youth gone, with no indication she ever knew him. What's her purpose in being here, he asks himself. What is she after?    |   Warnings: blindness, amnesia, magical bonds, oral sex   |   ~7,600 words   |   February '08

Quiet    |    Hermione/Remus    |    NC-17    |    The air of the castle is fresher than the air in your dense rooms, almost howling into your ear in what you imagine might be the sound of your own voice during the full moon. But this sound doesn't frighten you anymore. It's rather soothing, actually. It marks who and what you are, takes away all the falsehood you've lived with for more than half of your lifetime.     |   Warnings: AU, first time, teacher/student, canon character death, some werewolf clichés   |   ~4,900 words   |   December '07

Moments in Time   |   Lily/Severus   |   NC-17   |   If that's a little death, he doesn't want to know what the real thing feels like.   |   Warnings: first time, underage, awkwardness   |   ~1,900 words   |   December '07

A Pattern of Apathy   |   Harry/Romilda   |   NC-17   |   For Harry, the moment Voldemort was defeated the world stopped turning. But She had been turning before that fleeting second, and She continued turning after, as if nothing had happened.   |   Warnings: questionable use of potions, dub-con   |   ~4,400 words   |   November '07

Contrasts   |   Narcissa/Severus (Lily/Severus)   |   NC-17   |   Severus wasn't what Lily wanted while Lily was everything Severus wanted, and Narcissa wasn't what Severus wanted but she was all he seemed to be allowed to have.   |   Warnings: adultery, fantasising during sex, pretense, bathroom!sex   |   ~2,300 words   |   November '07


Femmeslash

Going Forward (Moving Backwards)     |    Bellatrix/Narcissa    |    NC-17    |    Sex in the Black family isn't about love. Sex is about power. It's as simple as that.    |    Warnings: incest, chan/underage from 11 years old up, dub-con, adultery    |    ~2,000 words    |    April '08

 

Slash

Planets Shift (and the moon's erased)      |      Bill/Charlie (Bill/Fleur)      |     NC-17     |     Charlie is like a drug, and Bill is in way over his head. It's too late for him to go cold turkey now.     |      Warnings: adultery, incest, a momentary suggestion of underage (17)     |     ~4,600 words    |     October '08

Jaded      |      Draco/Fenrir      |       NC-17      |      "Ah," Fenrir whispers, his voice rasping consummate darkness as he takes another step forward, "you know this is your punishment, don't you? Failed the Dark Lord - couldn't kill Dumbledore - no way out of here. No one to save you."      |      Warnings: non-con (oral), underage (16), facial       |      ~1,800 words      |      October '08

Follow Me Down      |     Lucius/Regulus     |     NC-17     |     He lays fingers on the well-known shape of a Muggle photograph, marked by the creases of time, and the moment he closes his fingers around the familiar form the imminent danger of panic recedes. In its wake is left a too-clear vision of reality, caught and copied onto paper, staring back at him.     |     |     Warnings: canon character death, underage (17), D/s, flagellation, bloodplay     |     ~2,800 words     |     September '08

go ahead, be gone with it      |     Kingsley/Remus     |     NC-17     |     Kingsley's appeal is difficult to resist.     |     Warnings: partially clothed sex, Kingsley's status of a sex god     |     ~1,100 words     |     August '08

One of Us     |     Fenrir/Remus     |     NC-17     |     Fenrir pays a visit to one of his long-lost children.     |     Warnings: non-consensual sex     |     ~1,550 words     |     August '08

Brightest Flames    |   Remus/Severus   |   R   |   Years after the war Severus is found wandering the woods, his mental faculties shaken. Remus takes him in.    |   Warnings: mental illness, questionable consent, they-didn't-die-AU   |   ~2,750 words   |   July '08

Palliated     |    Remus/Severus    |    very light R    |    Severus Snape was pacing the small room from one wall to the other, the restlessness he was feeling inside growing with each passing second. A lovers' reunion during DH, and maybe a little further than that.    |    Warnings: AU    |    ~1,800 words    |    June '08

Inebriation   |   Lily/Sirius (main), Regulus/Sirius    |   NC-17    |   Lily would hesitate to call Sirius Black her first love. She would call him her first, most magnificent fuck, maybe, or her first experimentation, but if it came down to it she would deny any sort of emotional attachment.   |    Warnings: adultery, first time, incest, underage, pregnancy    |    ~4,300 words    |    May '08 

Morning After   |   Severus/Sirius    |   PG-13   |   Five scenarios of a Morning After. The one thing they have in common: Sirius wakes up to Severus' elbow between two ribs, which is less than ideal.   |   Warnings: AU after GoF    |   ~1,700 words   |   May '08

Enslaved    |   Remus/Severus   |   PG-13   |   What is dead should stay dead.   |   Warnings: zombie!fic, canon character deaths, obscure magic, general weirdness   |   ~1,200 words   |   May '08

His Own Sun     |    James/Sirius    |    R    |    Instead of the knowledge of his innocence, there's the remembrance of a light that couldn't have existed in the depth beyond hell.   |    Warnings: Azkaban, canon character deaths, wanking, voyeurism and adultery on the side    |   ~3,300 words   |   April '08

Small Crimes   |   Bill/Charlie, Bill/Percy   |   very light R   |   This is the story of Percy Ignatius Weasley, the proud and idealistic Head Boy. This is the story of how once upon a time, he wanted to be like his oldest brother Bill.   |   Warnings: incest, unrequitedness (Bill/Percy), a little wanking, insinuated adultery   |   ~3,200 words   |   March '08

Unconquered    |    Severus/Sirius    |    NC-17    |    Padfoot waits for prey. The resulting fight gets out of hand.    |    Warnings: hate!sex/fight!sex, floor!sex    |    ~3,300 words    |    February '08

Obey    |    Lucius/Regulus    |    R    |    No apology could have saved Regulus from his fate. Still, Lucius feels like he should be the one apologising.     |    Warnings: canon character death, underage    |    ~1,500 words    |    February '08

A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping    |    Harry/Severus    |    R    |    A month after the war sees Harry feeling his way through the world. He feels thin, stretched, as if he isn't meant to be like this.    |    Warnings: canon character death, ghost!Severus, magical bonds, a handjob    |    ~8,200 words    |    January '08

Time to Steal Away    |    Severus/Sirius, Remus/Severus/Sirius    |    hard R    |    Sirius is moody, but he's not someone to keep quiet for long. His feelings change so quickly that one moment he might be sulking in a corner and the next he's laughing his ass off because of a stupid joke someone's been cracking. So when he's been quiet for three whole days, not even in on attacking Snape with James and Peter, Remus starts to worry.    |    Warnings: threesome, some roughness    |    ~2,000 words    |    December '07

Leading and Following   |   Remus/Severus   |   PG-13   |   Severus leads and Remus follows.   |   Warnings: angry!Severus, bondage   |   ~1,000 words   |   December '07

Life Amidst Death    |    Remus/Severus    |    R    |    Remus was only now getting to the point where he saw that he needed to stop what he'd been doing all his life. He was done running.    |     Warnings: character death (not Remus or Severus), hurt/comfort, they-didn't-die-AU    |    ~7,500 words    |    November '07

What Could Have Been     |    Lucius/Severus    |    PG-13    |    Comparing the Dark Lord's Legilimency to orgasm felt almost sacrilegious; after all, his way of reading minds was not much better than rape. The boneless feeling of fatigue, however, was the same, and it had been long, too long, since Severus had had a chance to feel the other kind of bonelessness.   |   Warnings: adultery, character death   |   ~1,600 words   |   September '07