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Will I Ever Find Some Peace

Will I Ever Find Some Peace


You tolerated the monsoons, mosquitoes and the smell

You learned to accept the snakes, leeches and jungle-rot as well

Even though you were awarded the Bronze Star

The cursing cries of the wounded left a lasting scar


The jungle was a foreign world with a canopy that hides the sun

Some villages were peaceful places where you could go and have fun

But it’s hard to unwind where children play and Nuoc Mam brews

With Charlie always lurking nearby you can’t afford to snooze


You trusted your senses because they helped keep you alive

But only by accepting death did you emotionally survive

You didn't like what you were becoming – it was disturbing to say the least

Wondering if life can be normal once you’ve unleashed the beast


I visited the Vietnam Memorial some twenty years ago

The haunting black granite monolith tried to steal my soul

As my fingers traced over the chiseled names of men I once knew

Feelings of futility resurfaced along with anger I couldn’t subdue


Even though the flashbacks are not as volatile today

The memories never disappear – why can’t they just fade away

With visions of those distant moments still vivid in my mind

Will I ever be able to leave those thoughts and emotions behind


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Note: Poem published in  Vietnam War Poetry and Angel Fire

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