Facebook.... Funny.... God(dess?).... Experience
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Intro - "Hey, Thanks Again for the
Facebook friends fiasco. Yes, yes. This is what started out as my comments on Facebook's…awfully nice but…14-year-late announcement of my marriage. Now, I feel like celebrating...any excuse, y'know. But, well THREE DAYS AGO I had a little bit different reaction.
In fact, with the unintentional help of my Facebook friends, I ended up turning to liquid, becoming a refreshing drink for my cat, dying and hanging out with God—talk about one crazy dude!! Plus, there's no one, I mean NO ONE's as funny as God. We used to say, "Know how to make God laugh?" (answer:) "Tell Him/Her your plans." Well how little did we know.
Not only does God have the most best material (well, wouldn't you expect that?), but goofy? God certainly taught Jim Carrey…but Jim, or any of the best of them, are Sunday School marms compared to His Supreme Side-Splittingness. Well, enough of that, don't want to make any of you guys jealous or nothin.
But the reaction that started at seeing the announcement on my page in Facebook went on far longer than the six-eight comments of it that are still probably there. As for what happened, well I was thinking of giving this a title of
Facebook Friends Funny Fantastic Enlightenment,
The Tale of
the Imaginary Spat at Facebook
That Led to a Hilarious Experience
of Hanging Out With God
and to Receiving the Actual Simple Answers
to the Biggest and Most Mysterious
Questions of Existence
But, well, you guys know me. I'm kinda too shy for that.
Soooo, 'scuse me, cause I kissed the sky. OK, a lot's happened. But what transpired I didn't think should be written in text at first. So I uploaded it as an audiocast.The text is now here, too; and it begins further down.
I lost time caught up in this revelation that I'd never imagined or heard of before, in which God can, not only exist, but can be what they say God—as defined—is. That is to say, God can actually be All-Loving, All-Compassionate, and All-Goodness.
In fact, considering the way God is usually portrayed, I can't understand how anyone could ever believe in God. For, despite what God is defined as being, in common thinking even the best ideas of goodness and Love and the rest that are attributed to Him/Her fall far short of what I know some humans to be capable of.
Even stranger, most times when I've heard humans talk about God's characteristics, he sounds meaner and more rotten than I think I, myself, and most of the people I know, would ever be in the same situation. Just consider that for a minute. Then ask yourself if it might not be that the problem is not with God, but rather with the fact that He is being depicted by some relatively lowly humans who, let us say, are not all that godly. That's all I'm going to say at this point, the rest is gradually revealed in the transcription and audios below.
If you want to hear what came through me and Mary Lynn and left us saying it was the most profound and wonderful thing we ever shared, well, click on the player below to listen here or on the link to listen to it on the audio site.
Facebook Funny Revelations and the Mind's True Liberation
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And the title, for the link:
Obvious truths revealed, when not trippin over your dogma.
And the woeful excuse for a description...I simply couldn't imagine how to pigeonhole the incredible expanse we saw...well it goes like this:
A funny Facebook spat turns into a fantastic adventure.The Meeting with God is the most unexpected and Hilarious Meeting ever imagined. But then, no grace being ever withheld, the still mostly human can easily understand the answers to all the great questions that humans for all their existence have struggled but failed to really understand.
It turns out that humans, unless they radically evolved, could never understand simply because they are incapable of even imagining anything close to how truly wonderful and loving God's Existence is and how grand our purposes, and how needless fear. For even the most loving and hopeful human could not imagine the most wonderful and loving without injecting some of the darkness that is in us, even if we don't know it.
You are left with an understanding of everything that you cannot possibly believe, because you would say it's too good to be true. Thereby you would prove that humans, for all their talk of this supremely Loving God, have yet to really believe it, let alone take it to the only conclusions that arise from really believing or knowing that.
So here is the link again:
Better if you listen to it here, though, and then you can follow along with the transcription that's here too.
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And all I can say is, "whatever floats your boat!" and for the men "well, whatever fires your rocket!"
Well, nuff said.... EXCEPT ONE BIG WARNING... I TAKE
NO RESPONSIBILITY (YA CIN BE DAM SURE FB AIN'T EITHER!) FOR ANYONE WHO
SHOULD READ THIS WHILE HIGH OR STONED. THAT IS GREATLY DISCOURAGED
BECAUSE OF THE VERY REAL DANGER OF NEVER COMING DOWN AGAIN.
Later I transcribed the revelation into text,
which is what follows from here. Don't worry—it's all there.
So, rewind 2+ days, and.... ball's in your court......
SillyMickel Melts for God's Crops
Philosophy, Religion, Comedy, Ultimate Truth
What follows from here is the transcription of the audio:
Wow. So, I'm checkin' out my Facebook page here today and, uh, What the hell! What does this mean? I just got married? I mean, I've been married for fourteen years, I mean...What is it uh...Oh, that's right! Oh,
God, I. I was working on the profile, y'know, I never like to put that stuff in, er anything. When I joined up I just left it at, uh...I didn't answer that question, I don't like fillin' out forms.
And, today I said, wait a minute. They've had me listed as single, so I said, Well, I'm going to fix that. I mean, that's not fair, that's not fair to my wife. So I listed it as...y'know, I corrected it to "married."
And, what happens? So announced, on my site, where all my friends come...and they all get it announced on their sites too, "I got married."
Now, one of these, my friends, is my wife's son! So, this is not convenient. Well, I'm wondering, How does this thing, anyway, this software, how does it know that? And why did it take so much time to learn that I got married?
OK,OK. So I'm sloppy when it comes to filling out profiles—I hate forms. And I just noticed today they had me listed as single, or dead, or something. Anyway, it wasn't right, so I changed it.
Now, I'm announced as married! HOW COOL!!! Everybody should try this. Does this mean I get my....ok, I'm counting, hold your pants on..... OK, fourteen years...technically, more that was untechnical, if ya catch my drift, but, uh.... So I can't wait to tell Mary Lynn that we get to do the fourteen technical years all over again.... And I don't think it's gonna be so technical....
Anyway, I just had the thought... would it mean I'd have to live through the eight years of the W. again?
I guess I'm going to have to talk to tech to see how I can give back the fourteen years. I'll settle for the fourteen I had.
Wheeeew, sure glad I thought of that.
Hey, what's this.... My friends are coming.
Hey, Peter, what do you mean by that?
You too, Mary Beth!
Anna, come on, you know me better than that—didn't I even bring Mary Lynn to class, sure I did?
Hey, and, as I was saying...you, in the corner, furry foot or whatever you call yourself, don't give me that he-man cat stuff—KC. You too?
So, I see, all you guys think I was dissing Mary Lynn. Think that I INTENTIONALLY left it blank.
You, of all people Sasquatch, you actually think I put myself down as single.
Oh, ow, the hurt, the injustice. My friends think I'm a cad. They're all signing a petition to have me sent to feminist hell!!
Oh, the horror, the horror.
I don't think I can stand the injustice, I'm .... shrinking… honestly I really do hate forms, I mean....
oh my God getting smaller. ..
I'm really telling the truth, guys. I mean, stop shrinking me and I promise for the rest of my life I will read every fucking form that comes across in front of my face...oh, oh, that's hell, maybe worse than unbelieving feminists....
well, I'll try to do better to fill in every blank.
I'll be good.
Oh, just please stop.. ….
Gets Me Stoned, Digs Joan Osborne. "Don't Be So
Judgmental," He Says.
Well, that was a trip. No….No thanks to any of you folks, I mean…hey! Ya know what happened?
I melted…yea, you saw that part...then I became this puddle. OK. The cat drank me, thinking I was delicious! Hey!
So I was up there in front of the Real Justice, the Real One. And, guess what! Ha! turns...to all of you! Turns out God hates forms as much as me. So there!
In fact, we hit it off pretty good...good with god, hey, now there's my next title, hmmmm, goodwithgod...Shit, guys, he's got the best—I'm telling you—HASH brownies... no lie!! Wow, you think yer trippin. Try being dead sometime and hanging out with God in, well, where he lives...I think Oregon, now, that's what it looked like...And these big mutha hash brownies .... De-lic-ious. I'm tellin ya! But kicked my BUTT! I'm tellin ya, God can do some shit! Didn't seem to faze him, but he did start acting sillier than even He usually is.
Well I was toast, I was starting to brown out. But you couldn't miss the Major and Only Consciousness, not when he's breakin into
"What if god was one of us, just a slob like one of us. Just a stranger"…I mean, you know…
Maybe, uh...I suppose he sang a little bit better then me…I have to say that, though, cause He's God, ya know.
Well…no, but He's a nice guy….
"there's a stranger on the street."
And, and like, like that, you know,
"tryin to make his way ho-ooo-ome...." ho-oome....."
I mean He really dug it. I couldn't help it, I was laughin my ass off. There's God dancin and singin, smilin and trippin. Christ! ...er...should I? Oh what the hell. If you knew him, you'd realize he don't give a shit about words you say; it's the hurtful words, oh and the greed, murder, and rape—he's not silly bout them at all….
Anyway, there he is even gettin into the parody of it. you know, like, you know, the one that was made of it, you know, like that, uh, guy does, but anyway it was a woman…and she said
"what if god smoked cannabis, hit the bong like some of us"
[chuckle] really gettin into it…I mean God is really getting into it…He's goin':
"yea, yea, god smells good"
and like that. I mean, I cou...I never laughed so hard. I mean I always knew that God, that if God were good and loving he'd have to be silly. Cause well being serious all the time means you ain't good and loving!
But this was like, Wow, God is the funniest Dude there is! Aw...Hmmm... funnygod@gmail.... Naw no one would believe it. besides, I think he's saving that one for Himself.
It was alright…. it's all….
It was, it was ALL great!...there was…there was one... like I said…. OK, oh…like I said he digs Joan Osborne. So….
So, when he starts breakin into her
"Let's Just Get Naked"
you know, like…I forget the tune now…
"just for a laugh...it's a thrill and a half"
"we've been together so….I hope it wasn't just the drugs"
…something like that. I forgetting now too.
But, well, well, what would you think?
First I…but He's getting' into it…He's got perfect pitch of course, you know….anyway, first, I'm uncomfortable thinkin - hey, like...I'm a guy, is this appropriate? I mean, I swear I did flash on those Catholic priests, my bad...I mean... how could I think about...God…How could I think that about God? I mean...oh that damn Catholic in me; I'm startin to think even He's a perv.
Oh, uh, but, luckily, saved by my early youth investment in primal therapy I end...I ended that trip, man.
But then there was another, right on its heels: like He...like what if God was only appearing to me as a man...because I am and shit, ya know...and well...what about that: You know that stuff we say like [like as if praying:]
"I ask, please, that God/Goddess, aah, will find it in His/Her divine, yilly, yani, whatever…" Ya know, yada, yada, whatever."
I mean…male, female…why…you know, it shouldn't be, right?…so I'm thinkin…If He's just as much…I mean what if He is He just as much a She and can be one whenever. So I'm hearing…and I'm thinkin', well that makes sense 'cause He's everybody so…Hell, He IS half female, and I'm hear...but I'm hearin' this "get naked" song and now I'm freakin' again.
I'm thinkin, oh yeah, all my mofo friends melt...melted me because they thought I dissed Mary Lynn; and…and NOW I'm having the time of my life with God, and he's telling me to forgive my friends for being so judgmental and punishing.
He's saying, HE'D never be as judgmental or punishing as any human would because, well, he said, because…because…I am all of you. He says, I am all of you, I am everything and, "I like to be nice to me; cause if I can't be on my side, who can?"
Now ya just can't argue with that kind of there's-nothing-that-exists-but-me reasoning, I mean...especially when He's…….especially when He's….heh….should I start saying She's?...proving it to you.
So anyway, there I am, and now I'm thinking, "Christ, if you turn into a beautiful chick... you know, what the hell's with this "just get naked" stuff... great song, I mean, but, well I'm trippin, remember? I'm not quite thinkin straight so I've got it all screwed up in my mind that I'd be, you know, that I'd be just proving the mofo's down there right, that I'd end up being unfaithful to my wife with god...dess... and prove a bigger cad than they already melted me for.
So, there I am all screwed up thinking I'm gonna have to choose between proving to Anna, and Mary Beth, and Doug, and Peter...you bastard, Peter, you know I love your Ma...and fuzzy feet KC-cat he Mah and Clara…aah I'll prove all of you wrong, or turn... down sex with Goddess. And you tell me how the hell you say no to Goddess/God?...I'm still wonderin if a non-Catholic would've gone through that kind of hell.
Well, all I can say is that it's a fine damn thing that the hash starting wearing off a bit… wow!...or maybe God was just laughin so hard at what He/She knew I was thinkin but…and… but then had pity on me. Because with, with more clarity I began to see how tripped out I'd been! Like, hey!
Look (a) I'M FREAKIN' DEAD! What the hell do I care about provin anything to you guys, let alone how would you know, and so on?
But also, he...(b) Hey, I'm with God, fer Chrissakes! Now, now that I think of it and look around, I know, I know, you'd think this would be the first thing I'd notice, but, well, don't be so judg-men-tal!…I mean, I…ya..member I got that from the Main Person Him or Her self….cause…cause how do you know? Ya know?...don't go judgin' me… and, and…and also how you'd be after ingesting, ingesting God's own private stash.
Seriously, do you really think you've ever had anything as strong...as the crop God's got?? C'mon, a little reason, here, folks. thank you. So anyway it dawn's on me that I'd been naked…that we'd been naked the whole time <chuckling> shesh, whileallthis'sbeengoinon...Not even feathery wings or any of that happy ho no. Wellll….
Well of course that well, of course, see, clothes…or heaven…Well (1) you're clothes don't have a soul. Sheesh! What were you... er, er ah, I thinkin? that's dumb! Then the, then the hash was really wearing off and my superior intellect really started to kick in: Like…like it start to say:...
"Hey dummy"...talkin to myself, see…"This is frigging heaven!"
...ya know, when I lived in Oregon, I JUST KNEW God was hanging out up there…aah, too hard to explain…
"so anyway in heaven, so in heaven" I tell myself, toler…I tell myself tolerating…tolerating me: "Do you really think there'd be sweat shops spewing out conveyors of clothes? hmmmm?"
"UH, No, I answer myself, seeing the wisdom of my self's question."
"And in heaven, do you think there'd be anybody having to slave their lives, er, their, timelessness, away?...Indeed!" continued the erudite little puke...that I was having second thoughts about being so proud of, now that it's me Socratic dialoguing all over my ass…OK "Indeed!" erudite me said "It's heaven, so why would ANYone have to work!?"
Yea, of course, he was right, but he didn't have to stress that "ANY"…a big ol' ANYwu... that way; it was like he was saying, "It's obvious to everyone, dummy; what'd you do catch 'brain deadness' all of a sudden?" Course he didn't say that out loud, but, you see, like I said earlier, I went through primal therapy, back in the day, so I know a little bit more about myself than the average schmuck.
So that's why I can tell when I'm being a dick to me.
Well, long story short...oh, huh, I see, way too late for that, anyway.
Well anyway, turns out that...hell now here's where that Catholic stuff woulda actually helped me out...well, in heaven there's no sin, no sin, means no shame, no shame means why get dressed?
Meanwhile, Over in the Muslim Section.... And besides, over in the Muslim section, the part with the dozens and dozens of women for every suicide…or is it, actually, as much as seventy-six virgins to one guy? Anyway, I remember it was a lot, whatever it was. It was lots, plenty, and believe me, I was watching. And it didn’t take long for that whole thing to become normal. I mean the women had plenty of time to themselves. [chuckles]
Yea, I guess they would…they’d have plenty of time to themselves. And they seemed as natural in their nakedness among the forests of heavens as magical elves or something. There was nothing weird about it.
But I know you’re gonna owe me for this big time, because there’s two big questions on your minds. I know. Who wouldn’t be thinking these things?
Now, I’m gonna think of how you can pay me back for gettin me melted, drunk down like a saucer of milk, and dead. I’m just realizing how much power I have here. For starters, since you’ve never melted or the rest, and…boy, can I milk those events: Like, you’ve never had that experience so, I could be like “ooooh, the hell, the horror, the pain…you’ve never knooown.”
Sorry I’m already boring myself. I can’t pretend that way just to get extra guilt or chips outa you because ooh…that’s too much work, because…ohhh, I hate to say it…. You ain’t lived till you’ve melted. You think a deep tissue massage is relaxing? Well you ain’t lived till you’ve actually had a meltdown in front of one of your friends. Hahaha. And I’ll be damned if I can make like being devoured by my cat…well…was like “Jaawws! Oooh nooo, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh… " No. I’m sorry. He.
I really love my cat, is all I can say. So, good for me, and good for you because I’ll just tell you, and you could eat your hearts out for jealousy…how’s that? Let’s just say that being licked up by a cat…well I’m reluctant to say, but well let’s just say that we all have certain pleasurable experiences…that involve, well, let’s say, being licked! And, uh…well bein' taken in the mouth of another, y’know? Well, I guess I more than hinted there, didn’t I? Well how else can I say it?
But I got it all over you guys cause well, you can feel pleasure in certain sex acts involving the mouth and parts of your lovers’ bodies, as you know what I’m talking about… Well, you don’t know the meaning of exquisite pleasure until it is aaall of you…not a part…that is lovingly taken in…
I’m not into beastiality or something…don’t get me wrong…but I really love my cat, is all I can say, I mean….
Inside her…or his…warm cozy belly was just some kind of bliss…I’m tellin ya…it’s….
I get the feeling once you’re out of your bodily state…well maybe it’s because the ego goes but, but, though I knew, I knew I was gone for the world, I couldn’t have been more pleased at my fortune…ok I’ll let ya off the hook…. Eehh, I’guess it’s that God influence, y’know?
Oh, I’m just to kind for my own good, and, well, like God told me in Oregon, “Well, that’s what Jesus’d do.” So ok I won’t torture you any longer.
I know I haven’t addressed the two questions in your mind…er, actually…three. I know what they are. I know what you’re all thinking so don’t deny it! Come on!
You’re thinking, “What does God look like naked?” right? Shew.. I knew it… I know it, I know you guys, I mean, well… just…I’ll tell you…just about anybody, well I’ll, I’ll tell you, but whatever you’re expecting, I’m sure I’m going to be a disappointment for you.
Nope, God is not a downy-covered Ken doll. So… No, he wasn’t covered in downy feathers and all Ken-doll parts or anything that an evangelical would imagine. Remember, it’s only here that we think of nakedness as shameful.
You gotta dig this. This is the guy who designed, sculpted our form… You think He’s ever had the thought that He made something nau-ghty… or I can tell you that a little time with Him and you’d realize or you’d think, at least, that one of the reasons…if not The Big One…how would I know?...for creating us is…well it just occurred to me that…I may have just realized why they say we were made in God’s image…because, y’know, by now, no doubt we’ve realized we are the dumbest animal on this planet….
And destructive? murderous, and totally uncaring of the other species and their fates…
As we head for the armageddon that only dumb humans could imagine to set up.
Why We're Not So Special, Yet Still Made in God's Image But not for now…that’s not the thing I want to get at, just to say that our… since we know that our supposed intelligence is a disease, ok? Actually it’s our ego and sense of superiority and specialness…but our supposed superior intellect is often named as what makes us different and what makes us in the image of God. Am I not right about that? I mean, that’s what you always hear. “We’re different from the animals cause we, y’know, we got brains, or….”
Well, this won’t go over very big with the academics and such but…breaking news, folks…our words don’t make us superior…they make us inferior…to all the other species…who know, without having to struggle with symbols that are easily misinterpreted. Their language is not language, so much as it is mind-sharing. And that can all be conveyed in a precise, precise look…sometimes a smell…or just a howl…across the forest. You think that the information contained in such things could be only rudimentary…hardly! He!
You’ve got it all wrong. Alright, let’s say we’re like the typewriters…laboriously trying to make ourselves understood to each other…and ourselfs…. Well, what we lost with our separation and ego—y’know, which come with our separation—is the kind of abilities that, as analogy, we see in computers.
Now, think of that…think of the size of a computer chip…tiny…size of a penny or something…and then the amount of information it can convey, process, et cetera….wow! Remember, it is small!
Now our egotism just does not let us see that the natural biological perfection of all things—each of which is God having the fun of manifesting Him- Herself in that form, and simultaneously in all others…. I mean, that’s His thing, y’know…. And, and since these creatures are still aware…as aware as when we go to a movie and still realize that it is not real, and that our real existence is elsewhere…. Well, check it out: All of Nature, except for our sorry asses, have the sense of watching a drama, but none of it is all that scary. They even dig the scary parts as a thrill, just the way you might enjoy a horror flick. And of course, they have, without trying, without trying, the knowledge that needs communicating, whenever…and that knowledge they know, so it’s not all that common that a need to communicate it arises.
Sorry bout that…but I had to dispense with that, because…you’re not going to believe the one and only way that we are like God, and it’s a damn fine thing that there is something. Because after all the rest of your ego being busted, you’re glad to have…you do have a special link with that source of Love.
What is it? You can’t, can’t you guess? Remember back to my earliest experiences with God? Let’s put it this way, God so loved the world, God felt so much compassion for the ways we humans managed to fuck up, and even to reject all His blessings…even the pain that he gave us as our greatest gift…which is like wisdom gift-wrapped in something to hide its nature until we accept it and opened it, to find the gift of wisdom which brings with it always ever more release from the fear that we have chosen….
Well, God, to hear Him tell it, was even as surprised, as an All-Knowingness can be, that we would be so fearful…that when He wanted to show us how there was never anything to be afraid of, and that fear was an imaginary creation of ours…. Well, let’s put it this way, He not only inspired the billions of human mothers to play the peek-a-boo game with their children…y’know Mom’s not there, the baby has this imaginary, horrifying fear that Mom is gone, disappeared, never to return. Then suddenly her face appears from nowhere. How does the baby feel and react, react to it? Well, now the baby’s downright gleeful…& beside her- or himself, can’t even contain her or his joy, claps its hands, laughs, and giggles…. And, yes, I’m getting to it….
It’s our laughter….
It’s our laughter.
You might ask yourself why are we the only ones that laugh? And this is where it got really freakin interesting, and really heavy…. And I was glad that we had the laughter…. Notice, now, I was with God…and I had the best time of my life…. But then I was with God! And if you’re with God, what is it that you would never ever have, that is such a pain in the ass to have in life?
Fear. Of course there’s no fear…you’re with God!
Why you don't see hyenas at comedy clubs. Anyway, so it’s our laughter. Animals don’t have laughter…because…well, I’m gonna have to do a little favor for you guys like you did for me… I’m gonna have to string you a little bit along….
Course you were pretty crude the way you did it…. melting me, I mean…though it was lots of fun, y’know…I’m sorry…. I only wish I could do it for you guys…. Anyway, I don’t have a petition or nothing, but, um…
I’ll just say this about animals (a) they don’t laugh, and (b) they always have a sense that they’re one with God…. So they always have part of them knowing that they are, like, just playing an act.
So, well, if you felt one with God and thought of life’s dramas as a kind of play, would you have fear? Not a lot, would you? If you knew it was like the movie I was talking about? OK, but now…. Here’s the big reveal…but I’m gonna let it out slowly cause it’s complicated but it’s sooo fucking simple when you see it. See….
The Absolute Earliest PreschoolAnd a lot of it comes back to that peek-a-boo. God, you see, provided the inspiration for that game. There was a reason why He thought it was so important, and it’s hard to find a mother-child who has not experienced it…though I doubt any mother ever consciously knew why she was doing it except that it was fun and gave so much pleas-ure! Remember that word.
The same with God, just as God inspired mothers to play peek-a-boo to train children to not trust their fears as being real….
Even to set up in us the next step, where when we are fearful, we might have the expectation, expectation…and it would be righteous…that soon the clouds will part, the sun will shine…but even more than that… you see? Like that training is: At first you’re fearful but after a while you expect Mother to be there all the time…if you have enough experience of it. That’s a big hint. For, you see, it’s training for God’s training later in life now…let’s put it this way:
Pain is God playing peek-a-boo with us.
I know it’s going to be hard to take, but
Pain is God playing peek-a-boo with us.
And I know you have so many, so many ideas or remembrances of pain. And I’m sure you think you remember pain. But I’ll tell you a thing or two…let’s put it this way,
He uses it to guide us from danger…and toward our true path.
Of course, that’s one thing we know, right? We know that when things aren’t going right…sometimes the car breaks down or we break our ankle…. How many times have we found out that was the perfect thing? That it was God that was helping us out, derailing our plans, because we weren’t supposed to be doing something? You know? We’ve all reached that point, right? Where we know that we are being guided by God, through some of these bad experiences, right? So, you got that part, right? Can I get a “right” from somebody?
Oh, Acey, you’re so stoned, I swear to God…. Je-sus sasquatch…you do more bellowing I swear to God when you’re masturbating than…ooooh, god…never mind. Anyway…. And you shouldn’t put yourself down now that much now…I’m trying not to be judgmental, you should give yourself more credit for being smart, sasquatch… Now let’s everybody else stop laughing, ok? But I was there, alright?
Ok, so, just as God inspired mothers to train people to not trust their fears as being reality, He even set up the next step where we are… The next step is, when we are fearful we might have the expectation, and it would be true, that soon the clouds would part, and everything would be fine. So, for pain, God is playing peek-a-boo with us…He uses it to guide us from danger toward our true path…of course we bitch and complain when we don’t get what we want, when misfortune brings down our cherished fantasies…and sure it’s painful. But I doubt there is any of you who haven’t many, many times given a little…or sometimes it requires more time…we look back at what we had intended and what we were guided to instead, and said, “Thank God I’m not in charge of my life… If Ida gotten my way, well, hell, what a stupid idea that ended up being. God sure must love me to sustain and teach and guide me…in spite of myself." But of course there’s much more to it, than that.
God, what’s that, Peter?
You say I forgot something, something I…I shoulda known? Too much of the blah blah blah, you say, and…you already know this stuff? Wow, you must have some kinda cell phone to the divine I never…. Oh yea, you’re living in Hawaii now. Yea, I remember. Our last phone conversation you were saying something about the vegetation. Wow. Whatever vegetation you’re liking over there it hasn’t touched…er touched your, let’s say, your bluntness. That’s ok, though. Just give me the facts, you say. What does God look like naked? OK.
Ok, Peter. Ok, I guess I gotta spell it out for you. Well, let’s say that, first, what I saw was God the way I was meant to see Him. Stop it, guys. I’m sure that God has an infinite number of appearances just as He appears in the entire Universe as Everything That Is, both living and non-living, right? Ok, I’ll get to the point, What does God look like naked?
Well, like everything and like nothing.
Knock it off! I’m trying to give you real stuff here. Like He looks like everything and like nothing…that’s the true answer, because the question is irrelevant.
But what did God look like naked to me? Well, that is a question. But I told you you’d be disappointed. First of all, like I said, with no consciousness of nakedness being anything but as natural as, and just as overlooked as the way animals look. They’re also naked. But how often do you think what any of them look like in detail or, y’know, you’re not thinking about…they’re not attracting your attention just cause they only have fur on them. So first of all it was not something that I would think to note, y’know, what He looked like. But I can say my recollection is that God, naked, looked not much different than myself in the mirror, naked, and again just as uninteresting. Told you I’d be a disappointment for you there.
Fetishing and fearing what's hidden. But I think you’ll like the answer I have to your other question. Yes, I know, specially you, Peter. I’m sure you got your mind on those multitude of virgins, ha! Well this was pretty interesting from what I could make out…and I don’t mean in any prurient sense. For like I said, well maybe I didn’t say it yet this way, so I will. It’s just that it reminds me of the lack of interest in nudity when there is no, when there is no shame. It all seems so clear from here. It’s almost like there was a universal point where, that which attracts inordinate interest, and even fixation, or even fetish, is always that which has been concealed.
Well, where I was, there was no darkness. No hidden truth, let alone agendas. So with everything at hand, or, "at thought," to be more precise, you’re freed from the wondering, worrying, the interest, the fixation, the curiosity…let alone the fear, uncertainty, of terror, horror, all of which arise out of the things that are hidden, that are concealed, that are in darkness. Remember peek-a-boo?
It is the way that mothers teach their babies…by putting something in darkness, putting something out of view. That creates the trauma, right? But it’s how babies are taught to not fear….
Oh… you too, sasquatch? You’re still thinking about those virgins too, huh? Okay, I will jump ahead to that, but I…I’ll jump ahead to that, because, it’s pretty good. And, uh, I think this will still make sense in the same order…pretty much, yea.
All we are saying, is give God a chance. Well, it’s quite funny actually because, you see, well…. only humans could come up with something as horrible as like a hell. ONLY humans. I mean, come on, God could never come up with something like that, but…and I’ll get into why later, but it’s just…let’s just put it that way, there’s no hell. Just take my word for it, you'll understand later.So, there’s no hell, but does that mean everybody goes to heaven? Now, not quite, exactly, you see? Because, well, let’s see…would heaven be getting what you ask for…or you think it would be getting what God—who knows everything—knows…you…want? See? It’s a little trickier now, isn’t it?
Now, think about those suicide bombers. Yeaa. Seventy-six virgins, they got their wishes, right? But you didn’t see what I saw. I mean, I didn’t see…. I mean, it was heaven and everything…there was no darkness…. But so you wanta see some draggin' bedraggled scraggly-assed mother-blankin' tired lil, lil…I swear to God. What were they thin-king…asking for seventy-six virgins?!
"What were we thinking?!" I mean…my God! What does it take to realize that you can’t handle that many?! It’d kill you! So, you know, it was kind of funny. I mean think of it! I mean, you know…I don’t know if God’s laughing at that because that might be judgmental…but it’s kinda like…it’s like, well, He’s just being kind, he gave them what they wanted. And you know what, He does that for all of us…you see?He does that for all of us and that’s what I meant about the pain being His blessing to us. Because He might protect us from making bad mistakes through pain or something like that, but then the other thing is that He lets us go through with it… and find out…on our own…what a bad and dumb idea that was.
Pain ain't such a pain. So, there you have it. Pain is the teacher. But it’s not pain that’s being imposed, or, you remember, is punishment. In fact, we’re the dumb asses that are pickin pain. God didn’t ever pick pain for us, except to bring us back to happiness and that’s what I’m getting at…God is so good, it’s amazing that…well, no, it’s not so amazing because, as you’ll see, it’s all perfect.Anyway, let me get back to what I was saying. I was saying that it just occurred to me about that whole lewdness thing that there is a kind of a universal that what’s ever kept in the darkness, is, well…the darkness is where we project all the things inside that we don’t know yet.
And that’s where all the horror comes from, ok? It’s basically from darkness. And, like I said, y’know, even in peek-a-boo that’s the case. But later, it’s God that teaches us, right? And basically, what we’re trying to be taught, in peek-a-boo with God, is not to fear, that when something is not in plain sight, basically not to project our own inner horrors on what always comes down to being no-thing…no thing at all!
The darkness makes a wonderful screen for projecting imaginary, truly mental, and fleeting as thought non-realities…it is the reason for choosing the human form…in fact…. That is, to be completely ignorant of your identity with divinity. To be utterly ignorant of your identity with divinity is the purpose of the human form.
Well…to throw yourself, completely, into such a darkness, with the foreknowledge that God is good, and that you will always be in His, Her presence…. In fact you will be literally moving and thinking in total God immersion, and the only difference between people will be the degree to which they know that, or don’t.
So it is the trippiest game that God plays. Imagine, just imagine…it would be like any of us throwing ourselves onto another planet with complete total amnesia. And the game would not even be known to be a game! I mean you don’t know it’s a game, you just show up! That’s what’s so much different from us and the animals. So, but, God plays this game…and we as God choose it because it is the most fraught with…well, let us say…let us simply call it peek-a-boo. By that I mean it is the most fraught with totally and sincerely believing the most horrible and hideous and terrifying things which can happen, because of that total amnesia…that lack of any link to truth. Life is come into and without any remembrance of our true nature, right?
Now, life is essentially, then, a dark screen! Because we have no sense of our true nature. It’s essentially a dark screen upon which anything can be found! Wow! So the human form has its purpose in being a kind of a…well…the human form has its purpose in kinda being a purging. It’s not that there’s anything wrong with it, but just like a projecting out, so that it could be seen, of all the things that one would conceive as a unique divine actor.
But when in the presence of the divine or even, say, taking on an animal or other form where there is never that total amnesia only the kind of pretend that an actor has when performing a role in a play.
See that’s what, that’s what theirs is. They always remember, so they’re always pretending…even when it’s like something horrible that’s in the script. And they never confuse the role with their own true essence. So it is only us humans that can conceive the incredible horror and act out the most hideous things that can occur. How could God act devilish and murderous unless He allowed Himself? Think about it. And I know you’re saying, why would God want to act devilish and murderous? Ok, alright, maybe I’m ahead of myself, but just hold that thought.
But say there was a reason. And I know you think there’s no reason—God is good, blah blah blah lightness and light and all that but just check, check this out now.
How could God act devilish and murderous if He needed to, unless He allowed Himself, willingly, to totally forget who He was. You still don’t get it. I see.
Well, for starters, let’s remember that there is no such thing as death, ok? It’s another impossibility. When you know the truth, there’s no such thing as death, it’s an utter impossibility. For God is All, and always existing, and all things that seem to be actual things and therefore separate are actually only variations on the One and Only Reality…I won’t even say thing or form, for they are illusions, too. Illusory props of the game.
It’s all so simple when you know. But knowing requires seeing or apprehending accurately. And the point of this game as humans is that it is impossible, as we are filled with the illusory, totally wiping the God consciousness of knowledge, of its foundation, source, whatever, allows a kind of vacuum into which anything can crawl, in which anything can respond…in which the most obvious untruths are allowed to dominate the play of the game as if they were more than just the smoke they are.
So it is the greatest adventure, fraught with the greatest possibilities of extreme fear, terror, and so on. Still, aren’t getting it? In this…just listen…in this way God, who is not darkness, creates darkness. Now why would He want to do that?
Alright, first of all remember, that the darkness He creates is only fake darkness. Remember that. Remember peek-a-boo? The baby’s alarmed…but he was wrong. Ok?
And I think I’m gonna, I think I’m gonna tell you a little bit more. But if you think, if you’re starting to get that, you’re starting to get it.
So you see He creates…He cannot possibly be darkness, but in this way He does create it. Now, you ask, why would He do that? I’ll get to that. It’s kind of allowing a game of peek-a-boo in which one does not recognize one’s mother even when she’s in plain sight. So imagine the baby’s cries and traumas then. Imagine: mommy’s not there, mommy’s there, and the baby still thinks mommy’s not there!
So, it is this total amnesia that creates the possibility of not even knowing that.—not knowing God is actually there—impossible to be anywhere else—even even when not seen. This amnesia creates the possibilities of even more extreme, oh, how can I say, more intense pain. The baby becomes totally convinced that indeed momma is gone forever…and that he is totally alone, and must live without love…so surely he will die.
Indeed this does describe the state of many a human when in a state of total forgetfulness if you think about it. For, staring directly into the face of God, so to speak, he can be so overcome with fear as to only see the unique attributes that he, as God, has decided to adopt for this particular game of being in the world.
Alright, maybe that’s not really clear.
It was in front of you the whole time! What I’m saying is this total amnesia unique to humans allows for the possibility, unlike any other game, where such fear can be held, that you can totally forget the face of God even when it’s right in front of you. The source of comfort is right in front of you, and all you can see is yourself. And by that I mean, not you as God, but you as the unique creation that you created yourself as to try an experiment, y’know. Cause every, every living thing is an experiment in creation…and so it’s those little things, things that make us different, that might be the only thing we’d see. So that’s another part of it.So, it’s such a fascinating game. For it allows darkness and hideousness, and war…murder…torture!...all that we abhor…that we abhor it is a sign that we are finding some roots in our true nature which is light and goodness. Still wondering why, huh?
Ok, just a little more slack. This game even allows the creation of a belief in the opposite of truth…truth being no thing, except goodness, light, and bliss. It allows that humans, in their forgetfulness, and in their fear, existing without a glimmer of real truth, to conjure the opposite! So, a hell is concocted, and even an opposite of God, a Satan.
So we’ve got a game that has components…I know it’s not all coming together, but it will…we’ve got a game that has components of total emptiness, and utter royal stupidity, which allows a belief that death is both an end to life and that it is painful. Don’t we believe that? Well, that’s not the truth, but that’s what we come to believe. Hey! That’s what we come to believe coming into human form.
Think of it. We got a game that has components of total emptiness and utter royal stupidity which allows a belief that death is both an end of life, and that it is painful. And that it is terrifyingly real, and terrifying because there is that darkness beyond it which…aaaaas usual!...all the yet unprojected interesting details of this temporary creation of God, this ego, can be viewed like on a movie screen. And lacking the fundamental truth that it is just a movie, well the parameters of this game allow for the most terrifying, most extreme feelings of any kind that is possible. Still not getting it, eh?
Asking, why would God do and make such a hideous possibility? Ok, well, for a second remember that, just like the baby, no matter what its fears, is lovingly taken care of by its mother. So the fears and all the darkness are only experiences…they’re just feelings. That means that they are not permanent, having no substance or foundation—like the reality of truth-awareness-bliss does…that reality is not gonna change—experiences, feelings are fleeting, impermanent, ultimately not real.
If God is all there is, and He can't be on his side, who can? For example, if your cat was to lodge itself under a porch, which if it stayed there it would die, would you hesitate to drag that cat out no matter how much it screamed and hollered and said, “oh yer…I’m in pain and everything”? Cause you knew you were taking care of that cat. You would do it. Well, let me just say that that’s kind of, kinda like the way sometimes we have to be treated by God. Because, well, actually to our credit we’ve chosen quite an adventure…and God loves God…and so we love ourselves and we’re gonna help ourselves out.But sometimes we choose such an adventure that, uh, y’know…well…how can I say it? There’s no wrong adventures. It’s…there’s such…well let me just continue. Anyway, it’ll all come together, it’s like…[sigh]
The darkness, that the baby feels, whatever…the feeling of loss, it’s not permanent, it has no substance or foundation. The only substance out there that is true is that of Truth-Awareness-Bliss. These other things are fleeting. And, we don’t remember it now in human form, but most of Time of the timelessness of the Now, in which we exist—except for like going off on adventures like this in which we create time—we spend in that Truth-Awareness-Bliss.
And I’ll tell ya, I mean, from what... I mean, I can’t claim to have attained what, let’s say, the “residents” there have got. But I sure…it was the happiest time in my life. And I was all Truth-Awareness-Bliss…and, fucking laughin on your ass funniness…. I mean, I swear to God, this is the big surprise to me, that's, that God is one…there would be no comedy I don't think if there wasn’t a God…I think yea this particular gift, this particular creation…anyway…
The poignancy of it all. Anyway, I’m surprised no one’s getting an inkling of the beauty, or you might see the perfect poignancy of such a game. There are so many other ways to describe its exquisiteness. I’ve got it. I will use your own truth to bring you to an appreciation of this. Ok, you’re all God…pretending not to be. And you’re doing a heck of game today, by the way. It sure as hell reminds me again of the darkness we humans create here out of nothing as my frustration is of that. He! But I have this secret that actually allows me to enjoy that frustration. Want a hint?
A little hint that it is all in peek-a-boo, ok? Remembering that…all of it…not just a technique…remembering peek-a-boo, all of it, not just a technique, but the thing that humans always overlook, because it is actually God, and is the only thing that can be God…
In peek-a-boo…ok…alright…just continue…just continue listening….
There is no physical world that exists. There are no words that are anything but a way to block out the vision of essence. But there is one thing, one thing always that exists, is always present, that contains everything, and that is everything, and is also the teacher, the path, the way…the way back to remembering…the way out of the darkness…the fear…or any of the more adventurous aspects of reality.
Did you notice I said adventurous, not negative, painful, or hard? Are you getting the notion? Let’s go back to that you are God. So therefore what you experience is always going to steer you to understanding. Did it not become clear from what I was saying just before this that thing, that thing which is overlooked in peek-a-boo, which is God? Did anybody get the…”
Forgetting where you put yourself. Yes! Anna! You got it. The experience of the baby is overlooked. Yea. Notice! Anna, that you as a mother of three, having had many experiences yourself of seeing a baby in all kinds of states of feeling and experiencing the various experiential flavors that this game affords, you were tuned in to what is actually just the most obvious thing in the game, hell! It is actually amazing that our human amnesia could leave out the essence of existence as we were blinded by these physical things. Are you following this? These physical things, which are only projections, not eternal, and certainly not real. For they depend on the perception of the seer for their existence!
And there it is again—perception. Another clue! Hope you’re getting it. Ok, enough of this tugging on your umbilical cords to yourselves as God for one day. Ok? This is not failure, for not getting it. So no need…for those looks…for there is no such thing as failure. And that’s part of the point, too. And all roads, everything that I’m saying leads to one and only one thing.
But before I spill the beans…and I’m going to…whether you get it or not…. Now, enough of this, you know, seeing if you can come to it now…. You will, in time.
Anyway, I just, before I spill the beans, I just thought of something funny. And have we already forgotten that God’s essential nature and that which we humans alone share with Him is that ability to laugh? Laughter. Wow. Like I said, all roads lead there…to God.
Let's clast a few icons. Back to my little game for you though. Let us say we see what happens if we take…rather than trying to bring to awareness through gentle tugging at things you know inside but are not ready to remember…Let’s try instead a simple but effective way. I love iconoclasm.What’s an icon? It’s a piece of God that is described. Right? And now described is no longer seen. Now, what’s described is no longer seen, just the icons. Think about that. Well, there are all kinds of icons that we accept as totally real. And all of them block out reality…and cause you to not see the reality you are immersed in, as instead your mind thinks it lives in a world of reflections of your true nature. These reflections are called words, icons, and even the physical world.
What they all have in common is their ability to block out your perception of your true nature as God. What they also have in common is their ability to reveal your truth, when, in seeking God, you consciously decide to remove them from your perception. And what did I say they were? Words, icons, and the physical world.
Some of that might be more obvious than others. We talk about words, the “monkey mind,” stuff like that. And you think well if you got rid of that maybe you’d be able to see God? He! But it’s the same thing—icons, the physical world…it’s the same thing as words.
Ok, alright…a road leading home. Oh well, sorry for the delay. You see, I only just myself caught this simple vision and I’m still in awe of the superb perfection of this game. And thanks to you all for that, by the way [chuckles]. It’s a damn good thing (hu!)…It’s a damn good thing that all the fears you humans have about good and evil and your preoccupations with justice, innocence, and so on are just delusions. And by the way does it not occur to you that your seeming negative action toward me was the greatest gift I could possibly receive? But, you see, in spite of yourself you acted as God that you are. Hope you’re getting a little closer….
I’m just trying to return the favor a little. Well, this is my attempt at a little gift. Here’s my attempt to gift a little to you.
We’ve all heard it said now innumerable times what the nature of God and Reality is. Ok? You can say it out whenever it occurs to you…I mean whoever wants to say it…I mean we have come so far as to know, somehow, that Reality is One. Alright? We all say Unity is what is Reality. Right? Well the other ways we attempt to experience…there I go, again!...attempt to experience (there I go again) Unity is through service. In serving the unfortunate we invariably feel our heart—there’s another icon that we should dispense with I mean really…well maybe another time…. Let’s not do it all right now. We say it opens up, the heart opens up. Ok.
But what I’m saying is, the sense of Unity that we are trying to achieve, what we describe as where we’re headed, and the Ultimate Reality of it all, is always described aaaass One. Correct? And can anybody give me the other word for the other way that God is described, outside of being One.
[“Love?” is heard in response]
The cloud of boring sameness. Love, that’s pretty good. That is pretty good, because that is actually closer to the truth than what…. Closer. But not quite. It is Love…. It’s also hate…in a strange way…. But, uh, I’m backtracking to say that, so I’m going to just let you say He’s hate, but He’s hate, as us, having allowed Himself to completely forget. So He’s not hate…He’s not hate. It’s just an experience that a part of Him has wanted…is having. I’m starting to, I’m starting to spill the beans here aren’t I? Oh, I hope I… well… if that slipped out, if you get it, that’s fine. But anyway, what I’m saying is that.... Does this not sound familiar? you ever heard the word…Universal Consciousness…Universal Consciousness…we have One Consciousness. Didja ever think what the hell that means? “One Consciousness!” We don’t think of it as conscience, right? Course some people do. They mistake the two and they just can’t get that out of their mind. So that’s a problem right there, but, huh? Consciousness…What do we think of it, how do we picture consciousness? Can you see consciousness? So how do you picture it?
Like some gigantic cloud, right?
[Someone says, “y’don’t picture it…”]
But, it’s like some gigantic…empty thing, right? Am I right?
Well you just said you don’t picture it.
[“You don’t picture it. It’s just Total Awareness, it doesn’t have a form.”]
It’s Total Awareness, uh huh. It doesn’t have a form….
[“As you say, it’s no thing…”]
That’s true. But so you’re picturing it aaaas? Light? Er, something? Total Awareness?
[“I can’t really picture it. I can’t….”]
I know, I know but I can. And you could, so simply. Because it is the biggest..secret…of all, that is so obvious that you wanta die when you fucking understand it….
[“It’s Experience…that’s what God is.”]
Well, what would experience be? Don’t you see you hit it but you didn’t understand what you hit? First of all I said I like being an iconoclast. Why do I like being an iconoclast? I just gave you an indication that this idea of Consciousness…which is like, yea, we all see it as being somehow…well, you can’t see it, right? Like you just said, right? It’s all some kind of an amorphous, like gigantic mind that’s invisible, you know, and creates colorful things…but it’s really just basically like a big, big grey sameness, maybe.
Well it sounds pretty goddamn boring. And thinking of it that way has really hurt a lot of people, y’know when, they’re, you know, when they want to become more of this Consciousness? I know I had a problem with that part.
But I’ll tell you…. You compare that One Consciousness, ok? with… That One Consciousness that we imagine with….
Put it this way: How many people have you seen…sitting for hours and hours and hours trying to have like nothing in their brain!?
Y’know? Nothing in their brain!? That’s what they’re thinking is GOD!
Why don't we stop crucifying Christ already...He's actually a nice guy. Or do they think God’s gonna show up in a nice pixie, er, elf uniform or something? No they’re not. WHATEVER THEY’RE PICTURING IS GODDAMN BORING! Look what they did to Christ! He was a funny guy! I know! I met Him up there! He’s still hanging out there. He likes to shoot pool and crap, I mean, I dunno. Ah, He’s older than me, what can I say? So…we see all these people and they’re trying to empty their minds. And yet did Christ try to empty His mind? Did He? In fact if you think about Christ’s life, what we know most about it is suffering…right?
And, we say He suffered for us…so that we don’t have to.
Wooow. What a bunch of hooey. Because, that would be like saying God became God so that He could prevent us from becoming God.
[“That’s such a rip off” chuckling]
It’s such a rip off it's like He’s gonna feel, He’s gets to feel and we don’t... y'know?…
The point is…when you are God…and you’ve had so many lifetimes…you know, tripping out as an animal and everything and knowing your sense of Reality and everything…and knowing that it’s like a movie…but don’t you think…I mean don’t ya think at some point….
I mean, after all you’re God, and you know there’s nothing, nothing, nothing that could ever harm you…or harm anyone. Nothing…nobody ever gets harmed. And everybody always gets loved, and it can’t help but happen always that way. It can’t help but happen always that way because there’s nothing outside of that Truth-Awareness-Bliss-Love. There’s nothing outside of that, right?
Okay, so, um, so, don’t you think He might…that God might, y’know, like, aaah, geez…
I’m going to, I’m gonna edge my way into this….
Alright first of all, when I went up there…One Consciousness was hardly just The Big Grey Cloud, or something, y’know? Nooo. It was very real! I’m talkin about a guy singin Joan Osborne, y’know, dancing and laughin and giving hash! I mean could it be more, well not physical, 'cause it wasn’t physical, but, man, did we? We didn’t sit there on our thumbs and be shy!
[“it was quite an experience….”]
It was quite an experience! And that’s the whole friggin point is that, well, would anybody crave?... Why would anybody crave… and you don’t have to say, oh, a lonely person, is praying, and all….No! We all crave what? TO BE ALIVE! MORE ALIVE!! And what is more alive for someone who’s nothing but good?
Well, fer Chrissakes! He’ll be…being more alive means putting a frame around that goodness to give it a kind of a fuckin, y’know, a contrast so it can be more beautiful! Think of all of the things that happen in life out of pain, and the things that we all, uh, pull ourselves to, like I said, the poignancy…. Would there be such a feeling, would there ever be poignancy if there wasn’t like hopeless sadness? If we had hopeful sadness, we’d never even have the experience of poignancy. Don’t you see, that only by forgetting who we are…
Can we really…all though it’s scary as hell…but the thing is, we all…live through it!
Y’know? It’s kind of like when you’re jumping off of a...like with bunjee cords, off of a bridge…. And you’re sure you’re gonna die. But you’ve been convinced that, y’know, all the materials, all the equipment is safe, sound, and everything.
And what do you do? Having complete faith in, the people doing it, and, the materials and the strength of the material…you do it even though you think you’re sure you’re gonna die! You have all the fears in the world. It’s you doing peek-a-boo again. Only you’re trying to prove to yourself, that God will be always there to catch you.
And you do prove it to yourself. You see?
But the only thing is, we as God do it one better….
We forget…that the rope is good.
We forget, and we just throw ourselves off….
And, we throw ourselves off, hoping…knowing! knowing that at some point we will remember, before we die, because there…you’re never gonna die…. So we know we’re going to succeed. And we also know, that we are going to experience things that we will never ever…that we have never experienced before…. We may never want to experience again.
I don’t know, man…. I don’t know enough about this to know if it becomes an acquired taste. I don’t even think that that would be very healthy, yaknowhatimean?
Acquired taste? No! An acquired taste for experience, perhaps, for extreme experience, perhaps. But y’know an acquired taste for like, y’know, like evil or for darkness, I mean that could be, ummm, I dunno, creepy….But, I don’t know… I don’t know, I really don’t.
[“Ok, by experiencing, y’know, even these so-called horrible things, so to speak. By really being rooted in them and experiencing them, kind of knowing them, doesn’t that mean that when you have the opposite of an experience of love and bliss it’s all the more, y’know, wonderful, it’s all the more of the deep experience cause you have the deep experience of the other which contrasts…”]
Well, that was…. Thank you for the point that I didn’t elaborate on but I just started… that’s the point of, as I said, the metaphor of you having a blackness…
A blackness? No. I gotta stop trying to fit words on it for the word is an an icon. There’s the icon! Thanks for ‘clasting that icon, ok?
Y’know, you really clasted that icon…blackness…because after all, it’s not light and darkness that we’re wanting to contrast….
It’s experiences, feelings…and they are harder to fit words on or to picture, so we use analogies like light, dark, but they are icons that need to be removed for us to think clearly again. It is experience, individual experience, that we as God want to contrast so as to manifest it all more wonderfully, more poignantly, in its happy and sad “flavors,” its good and bad experiences of existence.
For we don’t know how good we are as God! until we know how bad we are as God, but not knowing it. Y’see?
We…it’s like you said…. And it makes for the most PERFECT, PEEK-A-BOO, EXPERIENCE…OF ALL!
And that’s what I’m getting at…is that it’s all about peek-a-boo…only…it’s like, life is like, one long peek….
And God teaches peak-a-boo game to everyone. Why? Because no matter how many lifetimes it takes, no matter how much time passes in which that shield is up, and we do not see Momma, or God’s face, so to speak....
The point is, is there such a thing as a short or a long time for returning to God, remembering our true nature as God? No! If it’s longer we are able to magnify the magnificence of the drama, expanding its flavors of experience and poignancy. If it’s shorter…we’ll have happiness and bliss, the experience: “Wow, ok… Now I remember! Wow! That was a trip! I would not have believed it!” We’ll have that sooner but either way is magnificent.
And when we remember…. Y’know, how many people come back from harrowing experiences and say, “Wow, that was a trip…I’m just glad I survived it!” But they’re glad they lived through it! They’re glad to have had it. They said, it was, like, “Wow! I really woke up to life, during that!” Y’know it’s like, “I may have almost died, but I never felt so much alive!"
In fact, y’know, some people pick up on this. There was a movie. It was called, of all things, “City Slickers”! And it was pointing out the dead lives that people live in the city. And then they were speculating at the end…"Hey! We almost got killed, we almost got shot, we got robbed, we almost got left in the desert, and then it was storm...bu bu bu…." But they’re all so happy about the whole thing. For they left the city and went out into greater feelingness, and they felt more alive than they ever felt in their life because they had finally experienced something that scared the pants outa them. And it was all a peek-a-boo!
It turned out to be a peek-a-boo, for the fact that it was going to all end up being great had to be hidden from them the whole time or it wouldn’t have had such an incredible ending; it wouldn’t have been, ultimately, so wonderful, so poignant with pleasure.
And like they, when we take this adventure of human existence, we have to do it honestly.
So they, you see, didn’t know! They couldn’t allow themselves to know. They were under the illusion they were going to be taken care of on the whole trip. They did not know that they were going to experience pain and all that stuff.
So they had to just have faith. They just had to have faith and persevere. And so therefore they won, at the end.
Now, you see, as I was starting to ask, if we are somehow the thing that we create as an experiment in truth, or, as an experiment, in returning to truth…there’s no, like, good or bad; there’s no a’s, b’s, c’s…. It’s like… we’re all God, and all experiences are all, like, well that’s all there is, is the accumulation of experience. That’s all there is, is like, experience, 'cause knowledge is already knowledge. The only thing that knowledge needs, that could ever be better, is the addition of experience.
[“That’s right. Cause through experience, what happens? We share. And that’s where the Love comes in.”]
That’s where the poignancy comes in, that’s where the drama comes in, that’s where the fun of the game comes in. And it’s more than that. Because, in an infinite Universe, with an Infinite God, can you not imagine that there would be an infinite number of experiences, too? And so that there would always be something that hadn’t been tried?
[“Right, and so we don’t have to live here forever because…”]
No, what I’m saying is that…I don’t like to say God is still learning…It’s not like God is still learning. It’s…God is all-knowing…God is all creation. But God knows all this, but what kind of life would it be where there wasn’t some kind of newness or growth?
Keep on Cosmic GigglingSo you might think of it as, the game…the only game that God can play in which, which has such high drama and everything like that, and in which, all, y’know, at times, all the different, all these different things are created, and all these different beings are created, and they all went through different experiences, but the one that’s human, is where you could create the darkness, that will allow you to have the biggest, whooping, howling, like I said, God’s nature, and ours, is laughter. Y’know. And that’s what He wants.
That’s why He created us, because there’s beauty, and all that, in all the rest of creation. But it’s only through becoming less than Himself, becoming us, and totally forgetting...that when He remembers…when He/She remembers…that She can go, “Wow!!!! THAT was FUN!!!” I mean, look it, come on, we are God, what did we create…amusement parks? Right? What do amusement parks do? Lot of peek-a-boo, don’t they?
[“scare the hell out of you…”]
“There’s the, there’s the roller-coaster…oh, it’s going up, it’s going…aaa-ooo-ahaooo!!!! I’m gonna die!!!” Oh. Nobody dies gonna die.
But, there’s more obvious ones. How bout like that haunted house thing…where it’s like do-de-do-de-do-de-do… oh, you got…oh, you’re in a…oh it’s like, oh, you’re in a haunted house, like “oh, these things they go, oh my god, y'know, oooohh!! Nooo!”
And then it’s like, and then what? It’s like it’s all over and you walk out and it’s sunshine, it’s Disneyland, and people are eating cotton candy… It’s like, “Holy fuck!”
You see. But you see you have to really believe it for it to be so much fun, and it’s like, unless you, if you go in there knowing it’s an amusement park, well, it’s not so much fun!
It’s an in-cre-di-ble fun. It’s like the most fun, it’s like when you, you ever have a dream that was sooo horrible…that you were sooo glad it was a dream when you woke up?
Yea, that’s a taste of it, too. How about…and of course this is not exactly forgetting…but like, y’know, we have a taste of it every time we go to a horror movie, why would we even invent them? We have a horror movie because we are practicing that thing of being, having faith that the thing that we’re seeing…it’s actually a practice…a spiritual practice…of seeing horror, but not giving it strength, not giving it reality. Y’know?
It’s only people who give these things reality who actually act them out! And so therefore, they are, in acting them out, experiencing things.
But, y’know, at some point we want to go back.
The dream is over. So that’s why we talk about…there’s no high or low, there’s no good or bad. Y’know, it’s like, it’s just that, I know I think some of us, when we’re talking like this? We’re tired of it, and we want to go back. We’re ready, we’re ready to understand, to remember again.[“Yea.”]
No pain, no gain. No form, no fear. I mean, after all, didn’t I have a peek-a-boo? I mean, come on. I was scared shitless. You guys think, I mean, I’m so kind to you now and everything. You guys didn’t think that when I was melting, fer God’s sake…that I wasn’t out of my fucking brain scared? But then you know what? When I was water? I told you, it was like the most relaxing massage. It was almost like you lose your form, you lose your fear.[“Oh, yea.”]
It was like, wow, and then, y’know, being taken into mouth. S’like, “Hey, Muff, I always love you, man…this is so awesome of you! Wow, how great is that, man? You takin' me inside of you? That's so wonderful. Thanks a lot, man!" I mean, you could not believe it, there was no such thing as an unhappy experience. And, you look all over and, you couldn’t find it!
And then when I went up to heaven? Holy cow! There's God, my best friend in the world. I mean, like, y’know?
And, I mean, uh, God, y’know, no stodgy, y'know, no stodgy, uh, y'know statue love-Jesus looking God, y’know? No icon, man. This is the most opposite of an icon, it’s the most, as we’ve been saying…. It’s the unexpected that creates real experience. If you know it, if you expect it, it is just a trance state.
So…so, I’ll thank you for killing me.
["Yea," chuckling. "Right, yea."]
But you know what? Heh, I thank you, thank you for killing me but I also thank me for being you and for, and as God, for knowing that I would learn that killing isn’t possible for God. That’s the only way I would know. So thanks for that wonderful gift and, uh,
You know, I feel like, uh, and uh, y'know, you guys, I’m sorry that uh you guys didn’t have an experience of it, because I know it’s harder just from the head.
But y’know it’s a, it’s all Love, y’know? It’s all Love that we give each other because, y’know, in spite of ourselves, we can’t help but be God. There’s another, there’s another verse to the song we used to sing, “In spite of ourselves, we’re gonna end up a sittin on a rainbow… Against all odds, yea, we’re the big door prize…” There’s the knowledge, there. “We’re gonna spite our noses right off of our faces…” That’s true. That’s God speaking, y’see? “Won’t be nothing but big ol’ hearts dancing in our eyes.” Nothing but Love. And that’s THE TRUTH.
[“that is the truth. And boy I think you’re …. The experience of death and what is beyond that because we can’t change experience and it’s like the..... the tragedy, the..... Seeing how cruel people can be….”]
You see you’re already forgetting. You see? It’s harder when you just have it in your mind because you’ve forgotten that you were grateful for all those experiences at some point in your life.
[“I am. That’s what I know is that I am, that’s what I was thinking a while back…is that the sum total..those of us who’ve given been given so-called hellacious experiences? We can be even doubly thankful, because without all that we wouldn’t be learning so much, as Baba says, for, you know, for Liberation.….”]
Yea, you might say it’s kinda like a very long peek-a-boo experience, where the face of God is hidden makes you want more and more and more and strive more and more and more, and uh…. Well, it’s actually true, y’know, we take any kind of experience of pain. You increase the pain, you increase the motivation.
Y’know, it’s like, uh, and that’s the thing that’s beautiful about it is that…It’s like, you know you’re God, when you can say you’ve got chronic fatigue, you’ve got flatulence disease, you’ve got up-the-wazoo in-yer…you’ve got all kinds of…phlegm cancer, y’know? Or you’ve got a really bad toejam that’s cancerous and uh killing off your animals… I mean, y’know, uh, y'knowwhatImsayin.
[“And so finish you’re point, you were really, what? So then you’d really be thankful, for these experiences, because you’ll be super-sensitized to the opposite to the nth degree and really grok being blissful..."]
I'm seein, I'm seein' that you can say, "I can’t handle it." You can say… Well, what we usually say is, “I won’t be able to handle it.” Y'see? How often do we say “I can’t handle it?” We say, “I won’t be able to handle it.” And, y'know, even, it’s common knowledge, it’s one of those truths that people are starting to pick up on a lot that have a lot of experience, like alcoholics? Who've had a lot, who've had a lot of negative, painful experiences and so on? And yet they’re the ones who say. They are the ones who say, after going through that hell, and I’ve gone through it. They're the ones who are saying, “God only gives me that which I can accept… God only gives me that which I am able to handle at any particular time." Now, that’s faith.
Now it makes it sound like, "Oooh, I bet we're as cool...I'm gonna be handling this, man." Yea, but as God. The part of us that's God, it’s kind of like eating an anchovy. Y’know? It's like you’re going, “God! This tastes like shit, man! But you know, it is the more I chew on it...it’s a more interesting experience than I’ve had for quite a while, y’know?" And then we're all, then: "Hell I might even try caviar or some...y'know, fish eggs, yknowhatimsay."
It’s just something different.
And in an infinity of experience, why can’t there be an infinity, don’t you see? that...When does God stop growing? When does God stop growing? Why does there ever have to be an end?
Why does there ever have to be an end?
[“…end for human life…”]
No, I’m saying when does God stop growing? Cause I’m saying that God is all knowledge.
But He’s infinitely experiencing, and He has for all time. So, with an infinity of experiences, there’s always going to be newness.
And yet, He’s been doing it for all time. So how fascinating is that?
So, it’s like the only way I could ever imagine that kind of sameness being exciting…. Think about it. Here’s the only way. Try to think of that kind of sameness being exciting. In any other way. Like, for example, oh you’ve had so many experiences and never run out of them… No. Then there’d be sameness, and they would be all the same, and one day would be like the other and it would be kind of like… what was it, uh...Oh, King Midas who had the golden touch, y’know? Got everything he wanted, everything was perfect. But he couldn’t enjoy any of it, because it was just all the same.
Y’know, I don’t know if God makes hashish brownies for everybody, y’know? I mean, I don’t know. But you know, I doubt it. Because, knowing God, it’s all about, why wouldn’t He try that? Why wouldn’t He do that? Who wouldn’t? Cause that’s another thing, We are God…so aren’t we all curious to know…and don’t we really only get our knowing, really, through experience?
So like it’s so beautiful that I can’t even imagine that there is like infinite numbers of poignant dramas…infinite numbers of horrors and heroines and tragic figures and heroic figures and demonic and evil people and, y’know, there’s all of the characters; and they’re all God. And it’s like this is the way in which God continues not just, y’know, experiencing Himself, but experiences Himself as multiple…y’see?
So, y’know? Kinda like being in that play again. Only He knows He’s God…He knows He’s God but He’s playing all these parts. And He has fun.
[“Yea, he has fun, because His supreme act of Love is the fact that He allows us totally to forget, so He can really be into the experience…”]
That’s not a supreme act of Love, that’s a supreme act of just pure recklessness on His part….
But no, it’s just like, there is no faith, He has… It’s not faith, when it’s knowledge. He knows that there can be no harm. It’s kind of like jumping off that bunjee cord, except that as soon as you fall off the bridge, you get amnesia. Theeeeen what happens?
And God knows it’s gonna happen. God knows that in the process of coming to Earth, He’s gonna go through four falls from grace, until He’s gonna end up to be as dumb as a dipstick.
Y’know? And then He’s gonna have to go back from being dumb as a dipstick, and in the process of it, it’s got all the most wonderful things, experiences…more wonderful than animals can experience, because it’s all done in total forgetfulness that it is not real and that everything is just fine even when it doesn’t seem to be. So ultimately, peek-a-boo, it’s all been magnificent.
What does Will Oldham say? He says, “Death to everyone, is gonna come… And that’s why making love is fun."
It’s because of the fear, ultimately that fear of death, which there is no need for actually, but which provides the edge, spice…the beauty, poignancy to life. It’s what makes it fun, and so much more perfect in our forgetting for a time that it is just a game we are playing for our own, as God, amusement and the manifesting of beauty in existence.
It’s because of that fear that there is an edge of pleasure to life as well…..... Because through pleasure we escape even the possibility, the threat, of remembering, which multiplies even more the “flavors” (experiences) of existence. Regardless of the fact that pleasure extends our time in forgetfulness, for the amount of time it takes to remember our nature as divinity is totally irrelevant. It does not matter. It is poignantly perfect and beautiful any way it goes, ultimately.
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