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It's a Trillion-Alarm Fire, Not a Boy-Scout Litter Campaign
OR,
Have you heard the new version of the 12 days of Christmas?
It ends with “8 billion Nero’s fiddling.”
Unfortunately no one lives long enough to finish it…
ever.
You REALLY might want to listen to the audio above. It is a
loose reading of this page, more entertaining than simply reading the
text, is more conversational, contains extra information, and is framed
by the feelings of the author/ audio presenter, so is altogether more
accessible than the text alone, and I think an easier and more fun way
to take in this page.
It’s a
Trillion-Alarm Fire; You Don’t Stop at the Grocery on Your Way Home!
I compare what is happening right
now to cause planetary death in the relatively near future to a
trillion-alarm fire with everyone looking the other way. I say, you
need to respond to this with the urgency of being in a world war,
marshaling all available national and world resources to bear on it,
and not with the complacency of a boy-scout litter pick up campaign.
When you get a call at work that your house is on fire,
you rush home worrying about whether your family is alive or dead,
what, if anything, remains of your precious keepsakes, and so on. And
you don’t, this time, stop on the way home to have a short visit with
your mother at the nursing home, grab a few things at the grocery
store, or even fill up your tank at the gas station! YOU GO STRAIGHT
HOME AND TRY TO SAVE YOUR FAMILY AND HOME! [Footnote 1]
Oil Spills and Reactor Blowups, “Where is the fierce
urgency of Now?!!!” I can’t believe the nonchalance around
the huge environmental catastrophes that have gone on in just the last
year alone: specifically, the Gulf Oil Spill and the Fukushima Japan
nuclear disaster. When the BP disaster was ongoing and gushing
devastating amounts of oil into the Gulf, Donna Brazille, frustrated
with the Obama Administration’s response to the Spill, fumed aloud,
“Where is the fierce urgency of Now?!!!
But these hugely unprecedented
environmental catastrophes, daily spreading the damage to our planet,
are just two canaries in a coal mine.
We are just beginning to
understand the immensity of the damage to our planet the Fukushima
disaster did. We will probably not be told the degree of radiation
exposure from it we are receiving until long after people have been
dying in droves from it.
The BP oil spill of 2010 is,
similarly, presenting ongoing planetary damage, which, like the Japan
nuclear disaster, is, as I speak, not being reported. At this moment,
in fact, dolphin carcasses in the hundreds are washing up on Gulf
beaches, birds are dying and some are simply dropping dead out of the
sky, and we know of at least one dead zone–caused by the BP oil
spill–a dead zone being an area in the ocean where nothing can live for
lack of oxygen–which is a hundred miles long and 12 miles wide. That
is the only one that is being reported on, who knows how many more
there are and how great is the ongoing damage?
But none of these dire events are
being mentioned much in the media. We hear the reports, but then the
media directs our attention to something else. (Last week, after
reporting about some very apocalyptic developments at Fukushima, CNN
directed our attention to some in depth reporting on a snake that had
gotten loose in New York City. Now that snake made me sooo scared, I
don’t know why!? *sarcasm*) So we cover our eyes to what is going on.
We dismiss these events thinking
that someone higher up than us is surely attending to the problem
(dream on!). Though we would never admit it, we take comfort in
thinking that people “higher up” than us—people with more status,
degrees, power—will make better decisions than we ever could. So
doing, we blind ourselves to the fact that these people in charge are
blinded and made stupid by their greed and self-interest. They see
dimly, if at all, through that screen at the dire prospects they are
juggling with. With such tunnel vision, they are hardly capable of
seeing the interests of humanity, let alone acting on them.
Furthermore, they also console themselves with the thought that someone
else higher up (or not, often just someone other than them) is
“certainly” taking care of “the big things.”
Ultimately, people are
passing the buck ALL the way up…to God…which is the most reliable and
comforting of cop-outs and the greatest excuse to carry on blindly
acting recklessly out of their continued greed and self-interest.
What’s worse is these things are
only the tiny beginnings of much more that is bound to happen. If we
don’t listen up, and wake up, we’ll be just as unprepared and helpless
when the even worse and more dire events unfold. This is not a time
to curl up under the covers.
U heard..nu–12 days..Christmas?
Ends w/”8 billion Nero’s fiddling” But no 1 lives long enuf 2 finish
it…ever. Scientists are saying we will see a 50%
die-off rate (extinction) of species within the next 20 to 50 years,
i.e., within that time half the species we see now (or actually about
five years ago) will be gone forever.[Footnote 2] To think that we will be
around after that, even to watch video games of the wildlife that once
was, is the same as a doctor saying to someone: “Sorry, within 20 to 50
years, half of the organs in your body will be gone. They’ll die and
‘fall’ away, and you’ll be DISABLED” (! hardly just “disabled” tho).
OK, now you tell me how we’re
going to be alive to even see what happens after that kind of
extinction?! Does no one realize how much death that means? Does no
one see any interconnections between us and planetmates? The world will
come to an end if bankers don’t get money, they tell us. And if they
did away with roads, or trucks…it’s Mad Max time, right? Well, how
about when the bees didn’t show up? One species out of a scientifically
estimated 500 million species and our economy was going ape shit!
What happens with 250 MILLION species gone forever?!
Tom Waits sings, "The Earth died screaming, while I was dreaming...dreaming of you...."[Footnote 2a]
Tom Waits - "Earth Died Screaming"
Ecocide—Global, Universal Death/Extinction—Isn’t Just
Death, Suicide; It Is MURDER, Of a Kind So Evil, Nazis Look Like
Mother Theresas by Comparison
My reply was: You make the point
that needs to be considered as it sits deep down in the hidden center
of this particular wordpool. It’s a mind-bender and mind-stretcher
when you stray down your road for sure. But after having been down it a
fair number of times, both on my own as well as with companions, I
find one tangible, unshakable thing, only, to still and focus my
vision and guide my stance, actions, and position with surety. It’s
this: I, for one, am not assuming death
is an evil. I don’t believe that death is evil at all, quite the
contrary. That is a spiritual perspective; and that is a perspective
about death in its essence. It is a perspective from a spiritual
stance—rooted in science, philosophy, and Eastern mysticism—as well as
from a traditional religious view, where it is held that one’s life
in the body is only a try-out for a better, “real” life in “heaven.”
[Footnote 3]
You are mistaking, as analogy,
the beautiful precise utility of a finely honed and balanced knife
(metaphorically speaking) with what is really important and what is so
hard to look at or fathom or even let into one’s thoughts: that is,
the horrific, ghastly, unbelievably bloody and messy, grotesque,
garish… infinitely hellacious and mind-drippingly insane scene that is
right in front of all of us: that of the angelic young girl and her
vulnerable innocent and kind-hearted mother, their bodies slashed, cut
up, stabbed, gouged, even chopped and minced, and strewn widely and
randomly in this ungodly lake of blood framed within this just
recently homey, comforting surround of simple comfortable living room
furniture and accouterments, which now, however, are awash and stained
and forever nightmarish as they record in blood, guts, and other of
that ilk, but of which we do not want even to know, the violence, wild
aggression, horrible pain, fear, terror, and trauma of the event—the
murder… the murder that was so precisely perfect in its
nightmarishness as it was aided in its perfect horror by such a
beautifully crafted, finely honed, exquisitely and marvelously sharp,
perfectly balanced and joyous to feel, hold, and use KNIFE. I’m saying, OK death is beautiful,
and going back to God is, my belief, the highest accomplishment and
culmination of a life lived well. But we’re not talking about my death
or your death. We’re talking about you and I deciding, by refusing to
fight back the apocalypse (merely by changing some of our greedy,
wasteful, egoistic ways) the death of untold trillions of other living
conscious beings, indeed, of conscious things that we are not evolved
enough to even be aware of. We are deciding that THEIR death, because of
our actions…well, that’s not so evil, eh? Well, that’s easy for US to
say. But how about them? Don’t you think they might be a tad upset
that we would be deciding this FOR THEM…(Jonestown-style)?
So, you bring up the point that
needs to be addressed before we can really commit ourselves to the
fight and the struggle to change that is being required of us. But I
offer that I have never found anyone able to shake or even threaten
the principle I’ve found to stand on: God’s creation, which includes
death, in His time and in the way He would have for each of us, is
beauteous perfection. But, MURDER…that is, MY deciding…or ANYONE (but
God) deciding for another that death is good, well… well… Isn’t that
what Hitler did? what the Nazis did?
Death—not evil, may be beautiful.
Murder of untold
multi-billion-trillions through greed, laziness, egotism, hubris, and
extreme lack of empathy and feeling for the feelings/consciousness of
those others…. well, I say,
EVIL!!!
Evil beyond all imagining. Evil
beyond anything ever conceived or acted ever before in the uncountable
billions of years of existence of this planet.
EVIL—even the killing of the
planet—its systems so perfectly balanced, so far beyond our
understanding—of a nature that is beyond our comprehension, which, for
all we know, is akin to a higher consciousness, a deva, a god,
goddess. Yes, EVIL to murder, incredibly evil to bring to an end such
things so far above and beyond our understanding that we cannot even
comprehend the magnitude of that evil. Now, that’s my conclusion. I deem
that murder on a scale so huge as to be inconceivable, of numbers of
beings so great we have no way of knowing the hideous magnitude of the
crime, not to mention eight billion alone of our own species, and
laying to waste the dreams, efforts, and results of multibijillions of
past lives on this planet of all species IS EVIL!
That is something I don’t want to
ever think that I helped to happen…indeed it is EVIL so huge that I
think that I would not feel right, ever again, in the consciousness
forever after this life and after my death, if I did not expend every
ounce of my energy while I still can/could to try to prevent, to try
to stop, to work against, to struggle to keep from happening. I think
that consciousness cannot be destroyed—so death is not “evil”—but as
we stand on the precipice of this planet murder and hugest crime of
all time as far as we know before us and with us, as a species, being
the cause of it… Well, I can only say the worst thing that I can
imagine is having an eternity of consciousness knowing that I could
have been part of the solution, but I trivialized it, I used a
convenient spiritual belief/teaching/awareness to rationalize it so that
I could continue asleep and unaware of the horror I participated in
as I chose, through being afraid to look at the immense suffering
involved, to blind myself with distractions (the perfect knife, the
death that is not evil), and so instead of an eternity of peace knowing
that I stood against the greatest evil ever known and fought as hard
as I could, although we failed… instead it could be an eternity of
regret and loathing not being able to be unaware that I was a part of
the horror, the monster, participated in the killing, and helped others
to also, by participating in the feel-good cover-up, the blinding of eyes, the
zombification of brains, as the deepest darkness ever known gradually
but unmistakably arose on the horizon and came toward us, increasing in
speed, becoming more fiercesome, detailed, clear, unmistakable,
unavoidable, and ever harder to be blind to, ever clearer in its brutality and the
suffering, and unimaginable pain in its aftermath, and so I would
spend an eternity knowing, not being able to not know that I WAS it,
that I became it, helped it…that I was, er, “part of the problem”… and
I didn’t have to be.
And for everyone else I would
ask? Care to choose what you’d like to have sitting around in that imperishable unending forever
consciousness we’re “blessed” with?
A correspondent of mine emailed
me to recommend a book by John Leslie titled, The End of the World.
She said the book makes a disturbingly solid case for our extinction,
saying that we are among the last generations of humans. Part of this
reasoning involves a complex mathematical determination of our
trajectory, which includes the interesting calculation that there are
twice as many humans alive, right now, THAN THE GRAND TOTAL OF HUMANS
THAT HAVE EVER LIVED. That last is a provocative finding, to say the
least.
However, his whole premise got me
to thinking. Of course, what I know confirms his conclusions in
spades, but I couldn’t help feeling irked by his all-too-familiar
perspective. For, to me, it is not just about our species. It is not
just about our extinction. It is not just suicide, but murder. My
correspondent, “Open Intelligence,” has used the term, “ecocide,” to
make this kind of point.
Recently, I checked on the actual
number of species that currently are on our planet, and the number
was estimated at 500 million SPECIES. I think the whole problem IS
that we only see “life” in terms of “our” life—our species. Indeed,
some people think only in terms of life being for those of their
religion, nation, social group, tribe, family, or even just
oneself—all of which aid the murder of those who are “not life.” So,
Leslie is apparently thinking along the lines of many others who are not
seeing the tragedy we are perpetrating to those other than our
species, which is a milder form of the bigotry and prejudice we hold
for one human against another type of human. I think that is a shame.
[Footnote 4]
But then we cannot seem to even
wake people up to saving themselves or their children, so how can we
get them to empathize with the trillions upon trillions of other lives
and the multi-hundred-millions of other life forms we share this
planet with.
I guess that is my problem with
his approach: It comes from my feeling that: OK, we are committing
suicide, but maybe we fucking deserve it. But how DARE we “blow
up”—like a species suicide bomber—without a second thought for their
pain or their lives—which we are only too dumb, and ego-
species-centric, bigoted to see, let alone empathize with—as simple
“collateral damage,” innumerable multi-bijilliion-trillions of innocent
souls/ life forms and hundreds of millions of other entire species of
them with us. That is murder of the highest degree, and an evil that
this planet has never imagined before this time.
But, again, I see the point of
talking to people where they are coming from as a starting point, as Leslie is doing. But shouldn’t we try to raise as much
awareness as possible of, to me, the much greater evil that we are
committing, for those who can hear it? I say, if we want to kill
ourselves off, fine. But how dare we sink to becoming the biggest mass
murderers of all time, by a multi-multi-trillionfold? We are
currently making the Nazis look like Mother Theresas by comparison. Can
you say, “Gulf Oil Spill dead zones,” just for starters!
Suicidal Apes and Our Future as Mars. If
you care about your children, you’ll “man up,” “woman up,” “cowboy
up,” whatever…anything but cover up…and face the horror, become the
noble humans we are capable of being, and join with others to pull off
the most heroic actions of all time…
Or else we’ll be deemed
throughout the Universe as “suicidal ape,” and our portrait will be no
different from Mars.
The better angels of our beings
urge us to pay attention to what is being said in the audio clip and
writing below.
Consider the Topic and then that By the Ending I
Was Feeling Euphoric,
Having Just Stared Deeply Into the Most Horrible Likely Future
Conceivable. MEANING:
Either you really should be checking this out...
Or I Should Be Getting Checked Out... but seriously folks...
Now you’d THINK this would be a
morose piece. I am the author and I fully expected this to be a
wake-up call that only the brave or the Goths would listen to. But
honestly, I have to confess that the writing that came out of me and
that I then expanded upon further in the reading over of it afterward
was beautiful and led to a conclusion that inspired me (that’s not
supposed to happen!) and left me feeling calmer than I have been for a
long time.
Ok, Ok, so you want to know
what’s in here, especially the audio? I’m tempted to say “grab bag”
and split, figuring to let Higher Power decide who gets to hear this.
Sure this is in me; but there is more here in this audio than I, well
at least thought, was in me.
No, I’ll give you the poop: It’s
about a frightening global predicament that everyone seems to be aware
of, but which few people are giving the attention and seriousness it
deserves. I liken it to a thousand-alarm fire going off right now,
with everyone looking away. I talk about why people would do that, why
the media would be inclined to shy away. Basically it’s
understandable because we simply have no way of comprehending the
magnitude of what is happening and how fast, since no living thing on
this planet in its multibillion year history has had to face what we
are. [Footnote 5]
I use spiritual fantasy and real
world analogies to help us get a handle on what we’re facing. In
jumping into these “waters,” I expected to be emotionally beat up. But
instead I came to many understandings, and found I saw the positions
of many who aren’t helping right now somewhat through their eyes, and
found compassion, not blame.
Now that I think of it, I am
having the realization that the reason for my serene, compassionate,
and loving feelings while doing this parallels why I felt there was
hope in the end.
I realize that facing dire challenges—and this being the
most dire of all—brings out the best in Humans. It always has. Though
this has been put off so long we might not do anything substantive
till it’s too late, I realize that a political change away from the
George W. Bush debacle in Washington may be having unknown but
positive ripple effects around the world. In essence, it is only now
that either Americans or those around the world can feel they can
apply themselves to tackling this biggest of all challenges, for the
previous US administration was disheartening and disillusioning to
people of the globe who cared about the crisis, and of course to us in
America, who felt that any efforts we could make would be quickly
outswamped by the massive anti-environmental policies (sneakily
disguised in environmentally positive sounding labels). Not that everything has changed and
corporations are back on their heels in their attempts at thwarting
our wills to life, still, when Bush was US president, it was hopeless.
It is very disheartening when your own government seems to consider
your life completely expendable when it comes to short term gains for
the Bushie’s—the corporate and “filthy rich” FOB’s.
As for the ending which lifted me
up in a way that I haven’t felt in a long time on this matter, I can
only say that my long term study of humans—as a depth psychotherapist
and as a student of other cultures across all time periods, e.g.,
anthropology—informed my conclusions, shaped them, and took me to
visions of possible futures that I did not expect, but seem, if not as
likely, then at least as worthy of the Human spirit as we deserve.
And for all we’ve done it seems
we have called down upon ourselves to be tested and to be found either
worthy, or deserving of the grave we’re digging.
I’ve said too much. The piece is
complete in itself, and if you dare, you may find yourself strangely
invigorated. At least I hope you get some, if not a lot, of the
benefits and positive attitude adjustment that I received.
I left the piece feeling so much love and unity with all
Humans and living things, for I knew that at no other time in the
history of the world was the truth of the saying “we’re all in this
together” more patently true.
“Apocalypse Emergency” is the
preface to my book, Apocalypse? Or Earth Rebirth? which is being
revised and will be uploaded here and other places in the not too
distant future. [Footnote 6]
Apocalypse, Or Earth Rebirth? goes back and forth
between the horrors that are possible and, well, let us say, this
unique situation with the potential so strong to bring Humans to raise
themselves up and be led by their better angels more than any other
time. What it will mean could be exciting and triumphant beyond belief
as Humans come out of their puerile adolescent phase and become
united and shaped for millennia by this great struggle; and we could
also die trying our mightiest, which has a nobility to it. Currently we are looking like the
stupidest beings ever to dream the dream of thingness and duality.
It’ll be scary and interesting,
and you’ll be helped if you have a strong faith in a Higher Power.
Beyond that, it will be the
biggest adventure that that the entire globe ever faced together, and
the outcome could be just about anything.
But don’t get the popcorn, you
won’t be sitting for this one; no one will. Indeed, if we succeed, we
will look back at such terms as “couch potato” and wonder at the lost,
unfulfilled lives they describe, which will seem a strange thing in a
future that will require all of us to come together in a way that we
haven’t seen since before (metaphorically speaking of course) The
Tower of Babel.
So success could be wondrous
beyond all belief; at the same time the odds will be against us, and
even certain segments of humanity will want to monkey wrench our
positive efforts.
"Apocalypse Emergency: The Apocalypse Will Kill Your
Child, How Can You Turn Your Head?" - audio presentation by SillyMickel Adzema
You REALLY might want to listen to the audio above. It is a
loose reading of this page, more entertaining than simply reading the
text, is more conversational, contains extra information, and is framed
by the feelings of the author/ audio presenter, so is altogether more
accessible than the text alone, and I think an easier and more fun way
to take in this page.
1.
What follows, from May of
2010, is an example of the attitude of dealing with global apocalyptic
events as if, as in this case, it’s a matter of a plane going down,
instead of with the appropriate urgency—like unto a trillion-alarm
fire happening, a disaster within a catastrophic ongoing ecocidal
process, the tip of which, only, we see in the Fukushima reactor
blowups and the Gulf Oil Spill:
Matthews:
“four-alarm fire” in Gulf! Landrieu smirks. Matthews: R ways 2 suck
up oil..a US emerg not BP bus. prob. May 25, 2010.
Today, Chris Matthews likened the Gulf Oil Spill to a four-alarm fire.
While Senator Mary Landrieu smirked, Matthews said, “I don’t know
what the legality of this is, but the President of the United States
has got this challenge, not just BP. BP has got a business challenge;
we have a national challenge. North America that we inherited and
would like to pass on to our future generations is in big trouble.”
Earlier,
in answer to a question
by Matthews as to whether there’s “anybody in the world that can come
and collect petroleum…that’s out there in the Gulf right now…anybody
that can collect it?” Landrieu responded saying, “Well, first of all,
Chris, just let me say this: If Delta Airlines…plane goes down, I
don’t think we necessarily call all the airlines to come in and help
in this very specific way. Now, I will tell you, that all the oil
companies have been helping since day one, informally….”
2.
While the
severity/seriousness of our predicament is considerably watered-down,
glossed over for the sake of consumption, in the following report, it
is instructive nevertheless. It shows the extent to which our
precarious situation is known, and even communicated among the
educated, albeit in a manner as to not threaten or scare the audience
(into action to stop it!):
Has Earth’s Sixth Mass Extinction
Already Arrived?ScienceDaily (Mar. 5, 2011)—With
the
steep decline in populations of many animal species, from frogs and fish
to tigers, some scientists have warned that Earth is on the brink of a
mass extinction like those that occurred only five times before
during the past 540 million years.
Each of these ‘Big
Five’ saw three-quarters or more of all animal species go extinct.
2a. Lyrics for "Earth Died Screaming" by Tom Waits:
Rudy's on the midway And Jacob's in the hole The monkey's on the
ladder The devil shovels coal With crows as big as airplanes The
lion has three heads And someone will eat the skin that he sheds And
the earth died screaming The earth died screaming While I lay
dreaming of you Well hell doesn't want you And heaven is full Bring
me some water Put it in this skull I walk between the raindrops Wait
in Bug House Square And the army ants They leave nothin' but the
bones And the earth died screaming While I lay dreaming of you
There
was thunder There was lightning Then the stars went out And
the moon fell from the sky It rained mackerel It rained trout And
the great day of wrath has come And here's mud in your big red eye The
poker's in the fire And the locusts take the sky And the earth
died screaming While I lay dreaming of you
3.
Just yesterday, sitting in a
doctor’s waiting room and watching CNN reporting on the Fukushima
reactor developments, I heard this viewpoint from a stranger: We agreed
on the magnitude and severity of this Fukushima event and that of the
Gulf Spill, among others, agreed even on the cause
of such events and the way we are being
misinformed on them—partly as patronizing misdirection, partly as
cover-up. But where we disagreed was on whether it was important or not
to do anything about them. As he put it, in his superior but cynical
tone, “what can you do? We can’t do anything about it, besides it
doesn’t matter anyway, it’s not THIS that is important...but only after
death,” pointing heavenward at that.
4. On
the subject of not being
able to handle such a huge concept as mass extinction, my
correspondent phrased it this way:
The link shared—to an
article by Simon Barnes writing for The Sunday Times, of
London,
on March 20, 2010—reads:
Species are going
extinct because humans can’t see it happening, and therefore we can’t
believe it is happening. It is as simple as that.
Believing that the
elephant will no longer be around is like believing that one day the
sun will rise in the west and the stars will fall as rain.
We can only really get a handle
on
the short-term. A generation at most. Long-term planning means the
next year or two. Our minds can’t cope with anything longer. That’s
why we choose to govern ourselves by means of a comfortable timescale.
Four years, five years: that’s Politician’s Time.
Extinction
is a happening thing,
as I have pointed out more than once before. But it is happening in
slow motion: you don’t see a monkey turn into a man, and you don’t see
an animal go extinct. It’s just that one day you notice that they
haven’t been about for a few years. The current rate of extinction is
one species an hour,
5. The
idea that there was no
other time where any human lived knowing of the very real possibility
of ending our species in its lifetime was criticized as follows:
No other time has been
like this, but there have been plenty of times in the history of the
human species where we have been met with the ability to and
possibility of our ending—from when we were a few dozen leaving the
mythological savanna of Eden to the discovery of the forging of Bronze
to the hypothetical Event that led to the Dark Ages, the Apocalypse
has been Nigh. It ain’t happened yet.
I responded: I have no idea of
what time in our evolution that, other than modern times, our species
even knew that it was a limited species on a limited globe and had any
idea that its actions could wipe out what it thought of as itself as a
species when we did not conceive of ourselves as a limited species in
any of those time you speak of. We, with our science and technology
are able to know of those times and ourselves. But hell, only in the
last 500 years did we find out we lived on a globe or lived in a solar
system! Before that how could anyone in any culture know where either
their ability to roam ended or their species no longer existed! So
you miss the point, which is, “no other time” did humans live
“KNOWING” that THEY could bring, not only themselves, their families,
or their cultures to an end but THEIR ENTIRE “SPECIES,” to an end
“in”…their “lifetime” (not to mention the other estimated 500 million
species). From: http://sillymickel.amplify.com/2010/05/24/no-other-time-was-like-this-we-live-knowing-of-the-very-real-possibility-of-ending-our-species-in-our-lifetime/
"Apocalypse is Now; Why
not Known?" - audio presentation by SillyMickel Adzema
You REALLY might want to listen to the audio above. It is a
loose reading of this page, more entertaining than simply reading the
text, is more conversational, contains extra information, and is framed
by the feelings of the author/ audio presenter, so is altogether more
accessible than the text alone, and I think an easier and more fun way
to take in this page.
Now you'd THINK this would be a morose piece. I am the author and I fully expected this to be a wake up call that only the brave or the Goths would listen to. But, honestly, I have to confess that the writing that came out of me and that I then expanded upon further in the reading over of it afterward was beautiful and led to a conclusion that inspired me (that's not supposed to happen!) and left me feeling calmer than I have been for a long time.
Ok, Ok, so you want to know what's in here, especialy the audio? I'm tempted to say "grab bag" and split, figuring to let Higher Power decide who gets to hear this. Sure this is in me; but there is more in here than I, well at least thought, was in me.
No, I'll give you the poop: It's about a frightening global predicament that everyone seems to be aware of, but which few people are giving the attention and seriousness it deserves. I liken it to a thousand-alarm fire going off right now, with everyone looking away. I talk about why people would do that, why the media would be inclined to shy away. Basically it's understandable because we simply have no way of comprehending the magnitude of what is happening and how fast, since no living thing on this planet in its multibillion year history has had to face what we are.
I use spiritual fantasy and real world analogies to help us to get a handle on what we're facing. In jumping into these "waters," I expected to be emotionally beat up. But instead I came to many understandings, and found I saw the positions of many who aren't helping right now somewhat through their eyes, and found compassion, not blame.
Now, that I think of it, I am having the realization that the reason for my serene, compassionate, and loving feelings while doing this, parallels why I felt there was hope in the end.
This should have been in the piece, but I realize that facing dire challenges -- and this being the most dire of all -- brings out the best in Humans. It always has. Though this has been put off so long that we might not do anything substantive till it's too late, I also realize that a new administration in Washington is having unknown but positive ripple effects around the world. In essence, it is only now that either Americans or those around the world can feel they can apply themselves to tackling this biggest of all challenges, for the last administration was disheartening and disillusioning to people all around the world who cared about the crisis, and of course to us in America, who felt that any efforts we could make would be quickly outswamped by the massive anti-environmental policies (sneakily disguised in environmentally positive sounding labels).
It is very disheartening when your own government seems to consider your life completely expendable when it comes to short term gains for the Bushie's -- corporate and "filthy rich" FOB's.
Consider the Topic and then that By the Ending I Was Feeling Euphoric, Having Just Stared Deeply Into the Most Horrible Likely Future Conceivable.
MEANING: Either you really should be checking this out... Or I Should Be Getting Checked Out... buy seriously folks...
As for the ending which lifted me up in a way that I haven't felt in a long time on this matter, I can only say that my long term study of humans -- as a depth psychotherapist and as a student of other cultures across all time periods -- anthropology --- informed my conclusions, shaped them, and took me to visions of possible futures that I did not expect, but seem, if not as likely, then at least as worthy of the Human spirit as we deserve.
And for all we've done it seems we have called down upon ourselves to be tested and to be found either worthy, or deserving of the grave we're digging.
I've said too much. The piece is complete in itself, and if you dare, you may find yourself strangely invigorated. At least I hope you get some, if not a lot, of the benefits and positive attitude adjustment that I received.
I left the piece feeling so much love and unity with all Humans and living things, for I knew that at no other time in the history of the world was the truth of the saying "we're all in this together," more patently true.
This piece can be considered the preface to the book I am uploading on Entertonement of the same name "Apocalypse, Or New Dawn? And I realize that my book also goes back and forth between the horrors that are possible and, well, let us say, this unique situation with the potential so strong to bring Humans to raise themselves up and be led by their better angels more than any other time. What it will mean could be exciting and triumphant beyond belief as Humans come out of their puerile adolescent phase and become united and shaped for millennia by this great struggle; and we could also die trying our mightiest, which has a nobility to it.
Currently we are looking like the stupidest beings ever to dream the dream of thingness and duality.
It'll be scary and interesting, and you'll be helped if you have a strong faith in a Higher Power.
Beyond that, it will be the biggest adventure that that the entire globe ever faced together, and the outcome could be just about anything.
But don't get the popcorn, you won't be sitting for this one; no one will. Indeed, if we succeed, we will look back at such terms as "couch potato" and wonder at the lost, unfulfilled lives they describe, which will seem a strange thing in a future that will require all of us to come together in a way that we haven't seen since before (metaphorically speaking of course) The Tower of Babel.
So success could be wondrous beyond all belief; at the same time the odds will be against us, and even certain segments of humanity will want to monkey wrench our positive efforts.
When you get a call at work that your house is on fire,
you rush home worrying about whether your family is alive or dead,
what, if anything, remains of your precious keepsakes, and so on. And
you don’t, this time, stop on the way home to have a short visit with
your mother at the nursing home, grab a few things at the grocery
store, or even fill up your tank at the gas station! YOU GO STRAIGHT
HOME AND TRY TO SAVE YOUR FAMILY AND HOME! [Footnote 1] 
right, ever again, in the consciousness
forever after this life and after my death, if I did not expend every
ounce of my energy while I still can/could to try to prevent, to try
to stop, to work against, to struggle to keep from happening. I think
that consciousness cannot be destroyed—so death is not “evil”—but as
we stand on the precipice of this planet murder and hugest crime of
all time as far as we know before us and with us, as a species, being
the cause of it… Well, I can only say the worst thing that I can
imagine is having an eternity of consciousness knowing that I could
have been part of the solution, but I trivialized it, I used a
convenient spiritual belief/teaching/awareness to rationalize it so that
I could continue asleep and unaware of the horror I participated in
as I chose, through being afraid to look at the immense suffering
involved, to blind myself with distractions (the perfect knife, the
death that is not evil), and so instead of an eternity of peace knowing
that I stood against the greatest evil ever known and fought as hard
as I could, although we failed… instead it could be an eternity of
regret and loathing not being able to be unaware that I was a part of
the horror, the monster, participated in the killing, and helped others
to also, by 
participating in the feel-good cover-up, the blinding of eyes, the
zombification of brains, as the deepest darkness ever known gradually
but unmistakably arose on the horizon and came toward us, increasing in
speed, becoming more fiercesome, detailed, clear, unmistakable,
unavoidable, and ever harder to be blind to, ever clearer in its brutality and the
suffering, and unimaginable pain in its aftermath, and so I would
spend an eternity knowing, not being able to not know that I WAS it,
that I became it, helped it…that I was, er, “part of the problem”… and
I didn’t have to be.
