Unlovable

By Lily Liu
October 29, 2024

“Unlovable”

“I love you” you say,

You tell me you love everything about me,

Yet I can not love you back.

Those words linger in my head “I love you.”

I am unable to return this affection you feel for me,

Why you may ask, well that’s because I believe I’m unlovable.

I refuse to believe that anyone could love me, not even myself.

Yet I can’t find any possible reason that you would like me.

I was never a good talker nor did I fit into your group of people.

I wanted to say “I love you too.”

But the words couldn’t leave my mouth,

The words were on the tip of my tongue. 

I knew if I couldn’t love myself,

I wouldn’t be able to love you.

“I’m sorry” I apologize again and again

“I want to find self love before trying to give love” I say.

You believe it’s a lie and I'm just uninterested.

I tried reasoning with you but you shut down all my explanations.

I want to explain my thoughts but I give up.

I know you wouldn’t care what my reasoning is,

You storm off and leave me there alone.

There I was, alone with my thoughts,

I am “unlovable.”