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By Rochelle Raphaela Celesta
February 26, 2024
(Pieces of poetry/share in a “Diary” inspired by music lyrics)
Love's Bitter Aftertaste
CHAPTER I
22th December 2022
“HEARTBROKEN (PT I)”
It took me ten gloomy moons
To realize that the sun has set forever
Allow me to refine
So you would know,
Well at least someone will know
That I was a very, foolish person
Admiring you from afar was painful
Your glance,
And the cold breeze
Felt strange but I know of him,
Bitterly didn’t know who he is
Or who he was for
I know I shouldn’t have done this
But was I wrong for not knowing?
In the end, it was criminal love
As I have fallen for a friend’s lover
-Elle Kim
Credit : (Criminal Love, performed by Enhypen)
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24th January 2023
“HEARTBROKEN (PT II)”
And here I am again,
Being a very, foolish person
I thought I’d met a new prince
But I knew I didn’t have a chance
Because she took the chance,
First come, first go
I let her,
I let her take the chance
I encouraged her
But yet I ignore myself,
And I’m back to being more alone
It was just another fantasy,
Because I loved her more
And the prince was no longer to see
Maybe I’ll sleep with an uncertain feeling
But I will get over it,
I will
That's what I always do
Getting heartbroken again
-Elle Kim
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1st February 2023
“DANDELIONS”
Dearest to whoever reading this
I retell a tale
About a funny boy
Who always gets his way of everything
He can be a menace,
Enough to get you annoyed
months ago he confessed his love
And now living in his happiest moments,
not really…
He didn’t actually know what love is
It was just a rose being picked out from the garden
Only to be adored,
But not nurtured
So the rose did not grow
Because the rose and him both knew
That he was in the field of dandelions
And he sang quietly,
“ I wanna hold you when I’m not supposed to,
When I’m lying close to someone else”
He has wished on dandelions all the time,
All the time,
All this time.
-Elle Kim
Credit : (Dandelions performed by Ruth B)
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5th February 2023
“The one that could break my heart”
I’ve always been the one to say the first goodbye
Had to love and lose a hundred million times
An unknown message caught my eye
My feelings might lose another dime
One day I was in a sorrow
He only said “Hello”
I replied on that night,
And said to myself, “Can’t I just play along for a while ?”
Oh no, my friends warned me
“He’s the guy who played with every girl in town”
I smirked the reddest flag I could be
Because I’m tired of giving up love for someone else
I wanna feel romance, even if it's not real
It’s mischievous, I know
But for the first time,
I get to have someone’s attention
I’m falling, are you falling too?
Just curious, but if not, that’s okay
Since we’re just playing along
Hey don’t blame me,
You started this
It's you in my reflection
And now I’m afraid of all the things it could do to me
I was doing better alone
But when you said “Hello”
I know that was the end of it all
-Elle Kim
Credit : (Break My Heart, performed by Dua Lipa)
*****
14th February 2023
“A Day Before Valentine's”
I have nothing to share in this valentine,
At least not about me
A plot has made Shawn in distress
He was alone on valentines day
Ranged with anger and mixed emotions he says
Boys can have dilemmas, too
Well, in love, of course.
A day before valentines,
Shawn came up to her
Slammed her into a goddamn wall
In a quiet yet nerve-racking library
Whispers a loud to her beautiful face and said,
“I know I can treat you better than he can,
And any girl like you deserves a gentleman.
Tell me why are we wasting time,
All of your wasted cryin’
When you should be with me instead”
His hands trying to hold hers
Both eyes are begging so much
Trying to tell her heart
To see that her lover is not the one
“I just wanna give the love that you’re missing,
Tell me what you want to do
Give me a sign, take my hand, we’ll be fine
Promise I won’t let you down
‘Cause I know I can treat you better,
than he can…”
-Elle Kim
Credit : (Treat You Better, performed by Shawn Mendez)
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18th February 2023
“Still not over with”
Yes,
I lied
This gonna hurt,
But I blame myself first
‘Cause I ignored the truth
Drunk of that love, my head up
There’s no forgetting you
Every time I look at him
Her shadow appears in my darkest mind
The fear of what would come if I ever broke the code
I secretly burry my feelings
As they grow deeper that makes my heart ache
Honestly, I have nothing left.
Me?
Me, fall in love with you?
That’s right
I did,
I absolutely did
Either way, I loved you,
dangerously.
-Elle Kim
Credit : (Dangerously, performed by Charlie Puth)
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26th February 2023
“My journey continues”
The one that could break my heart,
Yes, it's him again.
He faced me,
“Where you’ve been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, Madness, Heaven, Sin”
Saw him there and I thought,
You look like my next mistake
He smiled, “Wanna play?”
What can I say?
I know you heard about me,
So hey, let's be friends
I'm dying to see how this one ends
But I can make the bad guys good for a weekend
He only wants love if it’s torture
Like I said, I just want to play along
Just for a little while….
-Elle Kim
Credit : (Blank Space, performed by Taylor Swift)
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(to be continued)