December 14th

By Yaz Awcrushed
January 10, 2024

 Dec 14

My hearing just seemed to get worse 

The moment I woke up I heard my

voices fill up my room with words.

Trying to fix it only made me feel 

like I was underwater.

The moment I would Talk I could only

 hear my own annoying obnoxious voice

That drowned out everything else and 

anyone who was talking to me. The 

more I talked the more frustrated I 

Became.

Hadn't I gone through enough already.

It was only until a matter of time that 

complaining made me want to cry by 

the edge of hearing myself so loudly, 

and so pathetically.

By the morning of today I was ready to give up 

And stop talking, there was no help available to me

But to keep shut from hearing myself. And fall into 

Denigrating the same voice and sound of myself.

So I whispered. 

And even then the smallest raise

made me cry at my own voice 

10:45am 

I don't have much reason to talk in one class

 so there was no way of confirming that my

 the voice was still there waiting to yell back at me.

It almost felt like a curse.

Like I deserved it.