Before I began this course, I carried many traumas and pains from my own undergraduate STEM experience. However, I did not truly understand the reasoning behind why I found undergraduate STEM courses to be so traumatic. It was not the course material that was challenging for me, it was the feeling of not being cared for and simply being a number on my ID card. I felt that I was a dollar commodity for the department and not a person. Fascinatingly, I found my humanities courses to be juxtaposition to my STEM courses. My humanities courses were taught in a humanized fashion and they gave me the much needed support for me to continue to pursue my dreams in the STEM field. In my own teaching practices, I have strived to try to prevent my own students from feeling alienated and instead feel that they are cared for. I did not have a recipe book for this practice and it was based on what I thought I would have liked to have seen in a caring, yet high demand course structure. This professional development workshop was the most enlightening workshop that I have ever attended. Not only do I understand how to help my own students in a meaningful way, but I also understand the specifics of what was so challenging for me in undergraduate.
Now that I have taken this workshop I have a deeper understanding of myself and how I can improve my own courses. One interesting thing that I discovered about myself was that what was challenging for me in undergraduate was the cultural mismatch between a low context culture and a high context culture. This course made me much more aware of my high context cultural values and to be aware of balancing my teaching style within a low context culture. Another powerful lesson I learned about myself from this course is how I struggle with imposter syndrome. I now have a term for this feeling and I can now help my students work through those feelings as well. Finally, the main important takeaway from this workshop was how to create a humanizing course that builds on trust, presence, awareness and empathy. Those characteristics allow for instructors to demand high quality work in an environment where students feel cared for. When students feel cared for, growth can occur in students' metacognition awareness and cognition of the material. The term for this style of teaching is warm demander pedagogy and it is my plan to continue to strive to be this type of teacher.
In many ways, I have held myself back from my true nature and have tried to work within what I thought were the " rigid expectations" for a professor. However, I now have a deeper understanding of how important emotions are in learning. I plan to start my face to face courses with light music from a variety of voices and ask my students how their week has gone. In my online courses, I plan to ensure that I will provide instructor presence and show my own weaknesses through empathy and storytelling. These practices can increase feelings of trust from the students, which will allow for them to feel safe to make mistakes and participate in class activities. When students feel cared for, they are more capable of learning. I plan to make it clear in my syllabus and in my assignments that students are encouraged to grow and make mistakes. I will encourage my students to reach out to me and their peers for help. I believe that these humanizing pedagogical practices will allow for me to be a warm demander and for my students to produce high quality work.