This is a story that I treasured, the kind of fairytale that was beautifully written by deities but along with that, it followed the shadow of pain.

Remember the day when I kept on telling that I wanted to travel Neverland? It was you who I envisioned as Peter. My thoughts would say that I'm your Tinkerbell, for me to always be with you. Yet, my heart opposed, it told me that I should be your Wendy, the one you love, and you as my love.

But I still can't decide who am I in the characters.

Years passed and I finally knew where I belong, it's a different place far from neverland because I'm Alice, who has her wonderland.

I woke up one day realizing how long we've been in a flowery road as the time being. I was there when you achieved your dream, you were there as I dream.

Together we faced the different trials of life, you by your words and me by listening. Both of us were not on the same page, as if you are the writer and I'm your avid reader. Despite the differences, you made me happy.

Your love keeps me sane in this insane world.

Your love who made me grow and my love who made you stand.

No one may understand because we have our orbit whom we follow, your orbit whom I succeeded on following.

Simple things you do can bring out all my emotions.

You were, you are, and you will always be the light who can reach through my heart, and that reason is enough for me to be frightened of this love.

It's an innocent love of ours that a single damage may hurt so badly. You can live without me, but will I survive without you? I let love controlled me yet I’m too afraid of the pain that will follow.

In a blink of an eye, the screams from the audience woke me up from all of my thoughts.

My eyes roamed around when the lights went off as the familiar music started playing. My heart started to beat faster. It was cold yet my forehead and hands were covered by sweat.

The crowd went wild when your voice reached everyone.

The concert ground became different, just like a new world that opened up.

No more neverland nor wonderland, just this dome and reality.

The barrier dissolved as soon as I saw you at the stage. The guy who I love, the guy that loves by millions of people.

I still can't believe that I'm standing here and watching you giving your best.

A tear escaped and I quickly wiped it off. I slowly waved my lightstick as it changed to my favorite color, green. My heart was beating so fast that it may rip my chest. It was so happy, I'm happy.

Finally, I met you.

One string, two ends, in this uncertainty love loop.

The love of a fangirl.