My Research On Self-Healing

John L. Waters

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Paper Number One

Directed Study English 499

Professor Jerry Martien

Fall Semester, 2000

My Research On Self-Healing

John L. Waters

Words = 2,662

Revised on September 2, 2000

"Student will work on critical skills to develop

written descriptions of his research on self-healing.

Four short papers will be developed."

First Note:

I am adding to this "First Paper" an additional 43

page original manuscript which illustrates how I work

to get new ideas using both my hands and a ball-point

pen in each hand to "slip easily from one idea to

another in a rather non-linear fashion." You are not

expected to critique this 43 page manuscript. I am

including it to illustrate what I am going to discuss

in this First Paper.

Non-linearity in thought produces a disconnected

"word-salad" or melange of seemingly "unrelated" ideas

to the psychologist or psycho-analyst who has been

trained to be very linear in his thinking. A medical

doctor also tends to be very linear in his thinking

and to not jump around from idea to idea or from topic

to topic. However when a creative person is working

to solve a problem his subconscious mind may be

permitted to produce a number of seemingly unrelated

ideas.

On the other hand, a medical doctor has spent a lot of

time learning to key-out disorders, and by key-out I

mean follow a branching trouble-shooter's guide which

enables a diagnostician to identify a certain named

disease or disorder by eliminating the other

possibilities. This is a very methodical approach to

solving a problem, which fails when not all of the

disorders are identified in the key.

End of First Note.

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Second Note:

I am planning to put up a web page at HSU website and

display the writings I do for my "Directed Study"

classes, plus maybe some other writings which I decide

aren't too perfunctory and which relate to this

ongoing research which I am going to attempt to

describe succinctly in this First Paper.

End of Second Note.

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Start of Paper:

My research on self-healing began in 1963 when some

mysterious process caused me to be unable to function

as an honors student and graduate student working

towards a Master's Degree in mathematics. I was

studying a certain equation in a book entitled

"Infinite Sequences and Series" and all of a sudden

the tiny printed letters were wriggling and squirming

on the page. I felt nauseated and a stabbing pain

settled in over my right eye which is still the eye I

use in reading.

The pain and the nausea got worse and I had to go lie

down on my bed. I felt so dizzy it was hard for me to

walk even ten feet.

I lay on my back breathing heavily and sweating,

fighting back the waves of nausea. This had never

happened to me before. I had no idea what it was. It

took me a long time to feel able to get up and walk

again. As I lay on my bed I determined that this

graduate level mathematics was just too detailed and

too difficult for me to understand. But I didn't know

why, and some of my professors thought I was gifted in

mathematics.

I didn't discuss this episode with my mother, or with

any professor or with any doctor. I didn't really

know what to think about it. I didn't really think in

depth about anything because I had mild autism and

autistic people can't really think in depth about

problems and solutions to problems because of their

handicap in speech and social cognition. I had put

all my hope and trust in my scholastic development and

my mother and I both were financially dependent on my

scholarship which was five hundred dollars a year.

But the taxes on our house were that much, and so my

mother and I had a worsening financial problem.

My mother responded by selling many pieces of old

furniture and many old rugs which had belonged to her

father. We even sold several specimen trees out of

the garden, just to pay the bills. Even so the water

heater and the stove both didn't work properly and the

roof leaked. Since my grandmother had died the year

before there was no longer her pension money coming

in. It was hard for my mother and I to figure out

what to do so that a disaster could be averted.

I would say it was this difficulty in being able to

cope is what really pushed my body and brain to react

in a way which I would consider typical. I mean, even

though I had autism, my body and brain were alerted

and I was forced to take action as best as I could. I

responded by switching my academic major and moving to

Kansas University and working in a totally different

graduate program and subject field, which I thought

would solve the problem. But in fact my problem was

much more difficult to solve.

I became a graduate student in entomology under the

world-class entomologist Dr. Charles Michener. The

trouble was that although as a younger man I'd shown a

lot of interest in insects, and particularly in

hymenoptera, that is ants, wasps, bees, ichneumons and

other small wasp-like insects, I had autism and that

is a handicap in cognition, in speech, in reading and

in sending and receiving social non-verbal cues, so

that I couldn't really keep up with non-handicapped

persons in their social interactions and their

word-usage. And this same handicap undermined my many

attempts to be successful.

I've told my life-story in other papers, and I don't

feel this paper should be just devoted to my retelling

the same old story.

This "First Paper" is intended to introduce my

research on improving brain functioning and treating

certain chronic diseases of the mind or of the body.

But the method I used requires a person to spend hours

outside each day, and preferably with not many clothes

on, so that the skin can really breathe and so that

light from the sun can reach the skin. And when a

person practices this method, the mental condition

improves and so does the physical condition. How well

this method will work for other people, of course, has

to be further tested.

In my own case I found this treatment by letting my

body lead me to it. That is I learned to sense an

auxiliary intelligence working in me, an intelligence

which I felt working in me as I sat and typed for

hours at a time, and as I sat and drew lines on paper

without having any pre-conceived idea of what I was

going to draw or what I was going to write. By

letting my body intelligence guide me I was led to

ideas I never would have gotten otherwise! And this

was really the revolutionary step I had to take. It

was a reversal of priorities, a revolution in me

against the rules I had been taught as a boy to

follow.

The problem was that it wasn't easy for me to just

revolt against the rules I'd been raised to honor and

respect and trust. And not all the rules I'd learned

to follow were wrong. There were just some rules

which I had to question and improve upon, so as to

avoid worsening health and an early grave. At the age

of 38 in 1978 I was in worsening condition with

irregular heartbeat, arthritis in my left foot so bad

I often couldn't walk, bursitis in my right shoulder

so bad I couldn't play catch with my son, and with low

blood sugar so bad I had to carry candy and sandwiches

everyhere I went and eat every half hour to avoid

fainting and sweating and shaking spells. And I was

subject to fits of destructive rage. These problems

had been with me for years.

I had occasional episodes which a psychiatrist called

"schizophrenic" or "manic" episodes but these words

don't really explain the eccentric brain activity. I

was kept on medications from 1971 to 1977 but I went

off all the medications and stayed off. By 1980 I'd

worked out the basic improved treatment but I needed

to work on refining my use of language so that my

autistic handicap was less debilitating. The last

twenty years I've mainly been working on language

usage.

This is why my taking "Directed Study" under reputable

professional educators is very important for me at

this time. This will help me learn how to use words

better, at least in writing, so that what I write will

read better. I will learn better how to write. And

these professors will get a chance to interact with me

and come to understand better this method I have

worked out for accessing and using the

super-intelligence which is preverbal, prehistoric,

precultural, and preconscious. In other articles I

have called this the intelligence of the super-mind.

The term "super-mind" is used by Barbara Brown, M.D.

in her book entitled "SuperMind the ultimate energy"

published by Bantam Books. Barbara Brown includes in

this book a section entitled, "Visions of Hidden

Intellect" and she describes in this section a

two-hour episode in which she went into a trance and

typed out a finished medical article which was

published unrevised in a professional medical journal.

This episode impressed Dr. Brown a great deal but she

never worked up a theory around this phenomenal

performance. She didn't re-enter the "super-mind"

realm and become a prolific producer of literary works

comparable to, say, Bahaullah.

Bahaullah, one of the founders of the Bahai Faith, was

actually received by some followers as a "messenger of

God" because of his amazing facility in producing new

works. Other persons have been identified as

messengers of God for the same reason. They enter

entrancement quite like Barbara Brown did, but they do

this much of the time. And their lives come to

revolve around this entrancement and performing

amazing feats while they are entranced.

In my own case, I discovered this state of

entrancement by becoming more autistic than I'd been

as a young man.

In other words, I had autism as a child but I managed

to grow out of it to some degree, and learn how to

listen to people and work in school and even write.

But I didn't write much on my own volition until I

became "inspired." And my becoming "inspired" was as

I became "manic" or "schizophrenic." These are all

just fancy modern words which dance all around the

issue.

This isn't a totally safe subject to bring up, because

a lot of people really worship one Man they believe

was or is an "Incarnation" of God, because he has

developed his own "supermind" without really

understanding what the "supermind" is and how it

works. So the isolated "God-man" collects a bunch of

disciples and sooner or later the new "God" and his

"new revelation" comes to be the center of a new

culture and a new militaristic regime. And the bloody

cycles of conquest begin all over again.

My research suggests that there is a truly immense

reservoir of health-promoting and health-maintaining

power inherent each human child, but that the existing

cultures do not understand this healing "super-mind"

which Barbara Brown hints at in her book "SuperMind

the ultimate energy" but she doesn't come out and

propose what I propose. So I argue that my research

is really an advance, even if some of my ideas and

practices are a bit shocking and even offensive to

some people.

I teach that every little child has a "super-mind" and

the "super-mind" learns fast by interacting with older

people who are "super-minded." But exactly what I am

I talking about and exactly what was Barbara Brown

talking about? What exactly were the "God" men

talking about? I figure that each year millions of

naive human beings start to feel the process of

"schizophrenia" working in them and they can't control

this process. And this "schizophrenia" is just one

more word which dances around the issue.

The real issue, I feel, is that the human race has

evolved this huge brain, along with other parts of the

nervous system both autonomic and central, and working

this whole brain together has not yet been possible

for most humans because no one has taught them how to

do it. So this integration and fusion of the full

spectrum of innate talents latent in a healthy and

whole human child remains a medical and a scientific

frontier.

Now I think you can see that a person like myself who

has had some chronic physical disorders and some

chronic brain damage or disability so that certain

common abilities were not present in me, is under more

pressure and stress to compensate just to get along in

life and in society. Adding the chronic poverty to

this mix just made matters worse. And I was expected

to take care of my mother as well. So I was forced by

circumstances to make use of this "auxiliary"

intelligence which is also called "super-mind." Other

people have called it by other names but again, all

this name-calling, all this florid wordiness is just

dancing around the main issue.

So what I've done is make this subject as simple as

possible. That is, I've worked out a method for

sensing better the "supermind" working in your own

body, and using this "super-mind" in conjunction with

your cultured verbal-social mind. Now I don't say

this is easy!

In my own case, I feel I had no other choice but to

pull out the cork and let the bottle's contents erupt

all over the party-goers. I pulled out the cork and

blew champagne all over the place and this shocked

people. One might just say that society put way, way,

way, way too much pressure on me, a handicapped

person. Society expected way, way, way, way too much

from me as a handicapped person. And as an autistic

person I had no way of understanding all this in

words. But the main damage was over and done with by

the time I was thirty. I mean when you get a

schizophrenic episode and that runs its course, it is

really hard to totally recover.

I believe my writings are important because I not only

use the "super-mind" to write, but I use the

"super-mind" to produce colorful artistic designs and

patterns and I use the "supermind" to create hours of

new music each month. I just go into the entranced

state and automatically, spontaneously and without

premeditation or planning I manipulate the tools and

equipment in the entranced state and out comes

finished work. I mean the work is almost finished.

More important than any body of art, music, or

writing, though, is a testable, scientific theory of

the so-called "God"-mind. I argue that in millions of

people each year, this "God"-mind tries to break

through and pops its cork in a person who has just

been put under way, way, way, way too much stress but

a family, a community, and a society whose leaders are

totally ignorant about certain handicaps in people who

just don't measure up to the traditional culture-ideal

and social-stereotype of the "good boy" or the "good

girl." And the latent healing power in children is

immense, and yet the cultures remain totally ignorant

of the nature of this universal "super-mind."

Barbara Brown, M.D. was a great modern pioneer and

published professional writer. Her work introduces

the term "super-mind." But modern science just needs

to follow up on her work, and the work of other

persons who were using sometimes this amazing

auxiliary intelligence which isn't yet understood at

all, even by the leading scientists of our times.

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