By, Anonymous
On the first day of college, I walked into my first class. It was Introduction to Sociology and I sat in the back.
The professor called out my name while taking attendance and all I hear is, “Jessica Parks… Jessica Parks, are you here?”
I nervously raised my hand and said, “Here,” feeling like everyone's eyes were on me. I look directly in front of me and see this boy, his name was called a little after mine. His name was Dominic Salazar. He was tall, had brown hair, and the most beautiful brown eyes that you can get lost in. The time flew by in class and I caught myself staring at him multiple times. When class ended and I was scared I would never get to talk to him.
Walking out of class all that was going through my mind was, “What if I can never talk to him? What if I’m never able to find the courage to even follow him on Instagram?”
While walking through the door, I feel a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and there he was, standing behind me. To my surprise, all he wanted was answers. He didn’t want to talk to me because he wanted to get to know me, he just wanted to use me. I said yes thinking he would want to talk to me more. All throughout the day I could not get him off of my mind.
Later that night, I was scrolling on Instagram when I got a follow request from Dominic. I jumped out of my bed with joy like a kid on Christmas morning. The next thing I knew he directly messaged me, asking for homework answers. My joy went to sadness and excitement went to nervousness. I thought this would be my chance to ask him if he could just come over and I can help him rather than give him the answers.
To my surprise, he said, “Yes, I can be over in 15 minutes.” The joy I had felt for a few minutes was back and I never knew I could be so happy and nervous about something at the same time. Fifteen minutes later, I heard a knock on my dorm door. I waited a minute to open the door so he did not realize I was so happy to see him.
I ended up helping him with his homework. I was happy I did because I did not realize he was struggling that much.
“Jessica is the answer to #1 nuclear family?” Dominic asked.
“So close it is a blended family,” Jessica stated.
“I am sorry for not being too smart, I am really trying,” said Dominic.
“It’s okay, school is not for everyone” Jessica said.
We went on continuing his homework and I could not stop looking at him. The sparkle in his eyes was captivating. The second he would look up, I would look back down because I did not want him to catch me looking at him. I could catch myself feeling butterflies in my stomach.
He went on to say, "Thank you for helping me with my homework, I actually understand what is going on now.”
“Of course,” Jessica said nervously.
“We should do this again sometime,” Dominic stated.
“Sure!” Jessica said while gaining a giant grin on her face.
Dominic got up from the ground and walked towards the door. He left and I immediately called my friends and explained to them what was happening. I caught him in my mind all the time. Everyday in class for the next few weeks I could only think about that night. Even though we did not talk for a while in class or over text. The professor told us that we would be having a test coming up and I looked over at Dominic and he looked over at me. After class, I did not want to talk to him. After he ghosted me practically for the few weeks in between me helping him and us hanging out. I wanted nothing more than to help him, but I did not want him to know that. About to walk out of the building, he comes running up to me begging for help again. I noticed he desperately needed help as the look on his face got scared when he thought I was going to say no. I obviously said yes, but this time was going to be different. I was finally going to make a move.
That same night he came over and we studied together for our UNIT 1 sociology test, which I was already prepared for, but he was not. I kept catching myself staring at him and I wanted to kiss him so bad but at the same time I was so nervous. But when he looked up at me after asking me a question, I went for it and he kissed me back. I was so shocked that it happened. After so much doubt, he felt the same way and I had no idea.
4 years later…..
We have been dating and I feel like something big is coming and is going to happen, but we will just have to wait and see.