Music That Makes Me Cry

"Someone in a Tree" from Pacific Overtures
Samuel Barber's "Adagio for Strings"
"What a Day That Was" and "Big Blue Plymouth" by David Byrne
Paul Robeson singing "Balm in Gilead"
"Oh You Who I Often and Silently Come" and a couple of other Whitman songs
    by Ned Rorem
"Who Will Prop Me Up in the Rain" by Kenward Elmslie
"Action Camera Lights and You" by Tom Steele and Chuck Ortleb
The Marschallin's monologue from Rosenkavalier (a flood of tears)
Joni Mitchell's early albums, up to Blue
Side one of Joan Armatrading's first album
Nina Simone singing "Little Girl Blue" and "Don't Smoke in Bed"
Judy Collins' song about Che Guevara
The chorus of the dead in Stravinsky's "Persephone"
"Fourth of July, Asbury Park" by Springsteen
The "Our Father" trope from Leonard Bernstein's Mass
The "Flaming Angel" theme in Prokofiev's Third Symphony
"Solitaire" by Neil Sedaka
The Goethe songs that Michael Bilunas dedicated to me
"Another You," as sung by Steven Christopher Abbott


To Clear Things Up, Scott

McKenzie was the flower
power singer with the long
tresses and love beads
who sang John Phillips' 
"San Francisco" in '67, reaching
the top of the charts, and Scott
McKinley is the poet with great
eyes and a particularly
graceful way of expressing
tenderness asleep in the bed
I just left to write this down


Where I Stand

in your eyes

I mean: cool off
take the time

this is where I stand:
wanting you

wanting to
"be able"

to take a stand
& balance there

a surfboard in the blue cathedral
a washday miracle
the rising Tide of inexorable power

tastes like salt
where I stand wanting
more, always "more"

your medicine
your strange ballet

where you stand
a different way

that is how I want to go
do it, w/that tough grace

my naked feet
the strong cool light

in your eyes



Barry Davison is finishing Remembrance of Things Past.
A hustler's hair and eyes blow Dennis Cooper away.
Bo Huston comes into his inheritance.
John Craig seems pretty stoned.
Lanny Richman's working overtime.

Sam Cross and Janet Campbell watch "The Thorn Birds."
Cheri Fein is getting ready for her wedding.
Steve Hamilton goes to the poetry reading.
Mark Butler is waiting for a phone call from New York.
Michael Szceziak isn't home.

Steven Abbott's somewhere in the Moslem world.
Michael Friedman's torn between two lovers.
Emily McKoane has dreams of empire.
Joe Brainard feels the dope kick in.
Rob Dickerson is getting used to living on his own.

Diane Ward rehearses her performance.
A shopclerk's hair and eyes blow Donald Britton away.
Morris Golde goes to the ballet.
Darragh Park drinks Perrier.
Doug Milford isn't home.

Brian Foster's living in the world of fashion.
Philip Monaghan thinks he'll go to bed with a friend.
Bobby Thompson stands behind the front desk.
Chris Lemmerhirt feels the dope kick in.
Alex Vachon's working on his resume.

Randy Russell hits the books.
Mary Spring is getting ready for her wedding.
Christopher Cox goes to the opera.
Charles Shockley seems pretty stoned.
Edmund Sutton isn't home.

Michael Lally and Dennis Christopher rehearse a play.
The Changing Light at Sandover blows Tim Dlugos away.
Jane DeLynn goes to est.
Teddy Dawson drinks a Lite beer.
John Bernd isn't home.

Frank Holliday paints.
Michael Bilunas eats out with a man who has a famous last name.
David Craig's not part of the picture yet.
Henry Spring is dying of emphysema.
Kenward Elmslie's working on his musical.

Kevin Bacon's onstage in Slab Boys for the final time.
Edmund White is on a "boy's night out."
Brad Gooch makes copies.
David Hinchman feels the dope kick in.
Keith Milow isn't home.

Diane Benson's living in the world of fashion.
A sequence of strong drinks blows Ed Brzezinski away.
Tor Seidler goes to the ballet.
Eileen Myles is on the wagon.
Patrick Fox is getting used to living on his own.

                                        May 12, 1983


copy, copy
deadlines long past

all that I've been 
doing's, being
in love with a boy


Tim Dlugos was a prominent younger poet who was active in both the Mass Transit poetry scene in Washington, D.C., in the early 1970s and New York’s downtown literary scene in the late seventies and eighties.  His books include Je Suis Ein Americano (Little Caesar Press, 1979), Entre Nous (Little Caesar, 1982), and Strong Place (Amethyst Press, 1992).  He died of AIDS on December 3, 1990, at the age of forty.  In 1996, David Trinidad edited Powerless, Dlugos’s selected poems, for High Risk Books.  A Fast Life: The Collected Poems of Tim Dlugos, also edited by Trinidad, is forthcoming from Nightboat Books in 2011.

Photo credit: Jack Shear, 1982