Help me understand this please!

I am a professional single female with a post graduate degree and a healthy income. I have friends and family and normal interests. I enjoy television, plays, and literature but am not consumed with the characters within them. I have admired the physical beauty of many male celebrities but never to the extent that they occupy my thoughts while I work, while I eat, while I visit friends and while I sleep. But all of that has changed now...

Gabriel Byrne...Gabriel Byrne.. Gabriel Byrne...What in the world have you done to me?

I can only surmise that the producers of the show have developed some sort of secret pheromone hypnosis beam that they shoot right out of his eyes, through my television screen into my living room. How else can it be explained? Gabriel Byrne is handsome, of course, he has always been so. But, I could list 20 men that are younger, have bigger biceps, less wrinkles, more chiseled jaws, and none of them can make my heart stop beating just by the way they whisper the word "If". (See Laura week 8). When I am watching the show, which is pretty much whenever I am at home, I often stop breathing when he speaks. I don’t mean to, but my breath just stops. I replay episodes over and over again, I can recite Laura Week 6 word for word, “I’m really glad that you called”, “Losing you is a big deal”, ”It's because when I wash the dishes the soap gets under the band and”, long agonizing pause, “irritates the skin”.

My obsession is full tilt at this point. I surf the net every day to find out what show he might appear on this week. I am renting and buying his movies as fast as I can get them, I would buy his book or his audio book but I am afraid that reading, or god help me, hearing him describe his inner most thoughts, childhood memories and experiences in that melodic, soft, lilting voice would just put me completely round the bend. I am dreading the end of the series next week but hoping I can snap out of this trance once it’s over.

Anyway, I’m interested to know exactly what’s he got that other men don’t have? It's some very powerful mojo whatever it is. Obviously most of it is Byrne himself. His face is not only beautiful but it’s kind, it’s compassionate, his intelligence shines out of his eyes and he is a brilliant actor. But I think part of it is Paul Weston too. This character is what women all over the world secretly want and never get; a kind, verbal, soft spoken, strong, caring, listening, beautiful man with a eyes that can see right into your soul, a vulnerability that breaks your heart and expressive hands that could...brush your hair back over your ears...or etc, etc, etc.

What a man, what a man, what a man, what a mighty GOOD man! *