When you came into my life, I knew you were different
The moment I looked into your eyes, I knew…
Te quiero
Even if we must hide this,
You are my sweet addiction-
One I want to keep forever
My dulce milagro
I pray we will stay together
I love your company
Never forget I will always be here for you
I will remember you forever
I cannot wait until we can be together without worrying…
I want to be yours
I love you more than words can express… but I can try to express my feelings
I love you more than the moon and stars
I love you more than the setting sun
I love you more than the rainy days
I want to be in your arms
How blessed God has made me by bringing you into my life
I have often thanked Him for you, and I often will
Thank you for being my sweet addiction
Betrayal
I was always there for you
But I guess it wasn't enough
You chose to go behind my back
Your "love" apparently a bluff
Those words you said cut deep enough
To let the blood flow free
The thoughts don' t stop, but keep in mind,
The fault doesn’t belong to me.
I never thought that day would come
When you would choose to betray me
But unfortunately the day did come,
The pain as big as the sea
Why, then, was that your choice?
What exactly was the reason?
On what idea can I place the blame of this, such hurtful treason?
Torn Up Inside
All the time I think of you
My heart is pulled two different ways
I love you yet I hate you
No matter what I do, neither feeling goes away
You ignore me now but you used to be so nice
I guess your past kindness is what stays with me
Because I still hope to see you smile at me,
To hear you greet me and hang around to talk
But of course, you never do
I watch as you walk away without a glance
Why are you being so cruel?
If only you knew how I was bleeding inside
Maybe you would rethink your choice...
The Result
A million swords are slicing through me
Because of what you’ve done,
It’s the worst pain I’ve ever gone through,
My only comfort left is God’s only Son
It hurts me so bad to think of you,
My heart has broken into bits of tiny glass,
It destroys every part of me
All the hope is gone of this mess healing fast.
Waves of depression overtake me
These feelings just well up inside
Anger, sadness, and resentment are the result
But when accompanied, my feelings I must hide
Sometimes I feel like giving up,
That life isn’t worth living,
But God and my guardian angel comfort me
And remind me that life was given me to go on living
Only a Dream
I’ve always dreamed of having a guy like Him,
But it always seemed a million miles away.
Only in my dreams was he ever close enough
That I could reach out and touch Him,
Only in the light of the silvery moon beams
Could I ever talk to Him, walk with Him,
Only while I dreamed…
Even though it was only a dream,
It seemed so realistic, so vivid, so true-to-life.
I could just picture me walking and talking with Him,
Just being together, enjoying each other’s company.
It was just me and Him
Nothing else in the world really mattered.
We would just talk about our lives,
How and where we grew up.
But just then, the brilliant yellow beams of the sun
Would shine through the blinds and curtains.
My mind would realize that it was only a dream,
And I would wake up.
I just wish that someday, any one of those dreams would happen right before my eyes.
Someday, maybe I’ll be able to walk with Him, talk with Him, and be comforted by Him.
Blue Pain
No one is here to comfort me and take away my pain
The pain washes over me constantly like a pale blue ocean
My heart has been shattered
You cannot see my pain, as though it merely did not exist
I want to express my feelings to you but the fear of worse rejection reveals
Itself all too often and my heart cracks even more
I must simply suppress my feelings
I need someone’s love to wrap around me like a jacket
My wish is that this love would be yours
My life is left here with little time to collect my hurt spirit
Though I hate this pain, it remains, like a dark cloud
The pain has now become red, although it still smells like rain
You seem to have forgotten all that happened between us, like we had never
Been anything more than just friends
I cannot stand this anymore
This again-blue pain has caused me to end my emotional suffering forever
I will not give my heart away to anyone
When the City Sleeps
Setting sun escorts nightfall into the presence of the city
Golden eyes scan the silvery streets
Now night rules people so unsuspecting
She stalks the streets, searching
A victim is lured to a desolate alley
A small struggle and the vampire consumes the liquid of life
Blood streams from the victim to the vampire
One’s pain is another’s ecstasy
The prey falls limp while the predator is strengthened
The vampire smiles and reveals her gleaming fangs
She stares at her victim with glowing gold eyes
Decides to leave the prey alone and saunters away
Searching for her next moment of pure bliss
Tears Fall
Reminiscing about past conversations
Wondering what went wrong
I see you walk right past me
And wish I’d be going along
I remember how you used to look at me
You’d look me straight in the eye
And now I get not even a glance
I sadly look down and sigh
Now every time I think of you
The tears always beg to fall
They glitter in the sunlight
But then I hear His call
He tells me to remember
That no matter what I go through
He’s always there for comfort
“I’ll always think of you”
Crash and Burn
Much of the world experiences it...
The hope of something great
Then it all falls apart
God's love should penetrate the pain,
but the flesh longs to mourn,
though the spirit longs to heal.
Make the crash and burn stop...
Love is the most common source of crash and burn,
What seems like love is dangled before the heart
then someone comes along to take that prize away
without realizing the pain they're causing.
Make the crash and burn stop...
My spirit and flesh are vying for their longings.
The crash and burn I continually face in love feeds the flesh
God's love feeds the spirit
Will He make the crash and burn stop?
A relationship vs. continual rejection: which hurts more?
Help me escape this crash and burn Help me nourish my spirit Help me be wanted Help me escape love that friends unintentionally take Help me finally be wanted (genuinely)
I'll always think of you
No matter where you are,
No matter what you do,
No matter who you’re with,
I’ll always think of you
I see you during the night
When all the world is sleeping,
I long to hear your voice
So the sound remains in mind for safekeeping
I wait to see you smile
For it always brightens my day
And I wait to softly greet you
Wondering what you’ll say
Even if time and distance separates us
Just know this much is true
Even if we’re miles apart
I’ll always think of you
Loco
Never thought I could feel this way I'm crazy for you, absolutely
How much do I love you? I can't say 'Cuz Words cannot describe the feeling I get that fluttery feeling
Whenever I think about you
You make my heart race
And when two hearts race, both win-
I can only wonder if your heart races...
If it does, will our hearts win?
I can't imagine how much it will hurt
When we can only speak seldomly
'Cuz I love to hear you talk to me
Promise me you will be true
I cant' imagine not being with you because of unfaithfulness
I wouldnt' dream of cheating you
I'm loco for you
I won't be with anyone else while you're gone
It's not possible because I will only wish he were you
And what is the point of that? I'm loco for you
Don't let me down please
I love this emotional high too much
Please dont' take it away from me
Insignificance Sometimes Isn't
How the smallest acts affect us
Some random first-aid led me to a best friend
In some walks of life, that act of help
Would be but a passing act.
In others, like mine, that act of help
Brought me to one of the most encouraging friendships I will ever face
The smallest things can affect our lives forever
Hopefully, for the better each time.
Sometimes one day is all it takes
To love someone with all your heart.
I found that out firsthand.
God grants us that blessing, and I thank Him for it every night
Life Itself
Too many people. Too much crime. Too much murder. How can people ignore the lives and souls of others? As if only the murderers deserve to live. If that is so, how long until the whole planet’s population is exhausted by cold-blooded murder? Sooner or later, there will be one gang left. Or one family or one group that is left alive. The world could be repopulated by these murderers, but only through incest. That incest would lead to more murderers who in turn kill their families and each other. When will that lead to a duel that kills both of the opponents and therefore leave the world unpopulated? How the world is dissolving into nothing. Nothing but stone-hearted murderers. Nothing but those who kill and therefore do not deserve to live. Nothing but bleak “people” who resemble rabid animals more than men and women. When will this war between good and evil cease? When will God allow His Spirit to reign once again?
