Signe Robertson

I Believed Every Lie

I Believed Every Lie, poem by Signe Robertson, 2009




My love for you
Scares me so much
In order to be with you
I'd have to fight my fear
But even if I do so
I know it won't make you mine
Because either way
I'm not the only one
I'm not a sure choice
I'm a "maybe, maybe not, we'll see"
It makes me feel so cheap
Yet you pretend you care for me
Keep saying you want to be with me
Hold me and kiss me
Then say "we're just friends"
And break my heart again
You know how it makes me feel?
Like a little piece of shit
Because when you say you want me
I am for once glad to be alive
And then you say you're not mine
Stealing away my joy
Making me feel so ashamed
For falling for your stupid lies
I know you're sitting there laughing
And making fun of me
For being stupid enough to hope
That I could be all you need
I believed every lie
When you said you wanted to be
With only me forever
And couldn't ask for anything else
I had hope for all your lies
To be true
That makes me a huge loser, I know
How can I fall for such obvious lies?
How can you enjoy hurting me so much?
Because you know I am weak
And you're humiliating me
Making me cry
But I can't blame you
You're only human
Just like me
I hope you will be happy
I know I won't be