"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead."

Have you ever asked yourself "why me"? Surely, you must have. Nobody is perfectly happy and content all life long, for without those inconveniences we like to call bad luck, problems and things of the sort, life would be the most boring experience we shall ever have, and we shall dread every moment of our existence. If you have not seen and tasted the bitter part of life, you shall never be able to savor the sweet and pleasant experiences as well as you should.

I certainly was not happy all along my life, therefore I have asked myself this question over and over again, failing to find a satisfying answer. As time passed, I gave up. Why waste precious moments thinking about something as insignificant as this, when I had so many other things to worry about? Why try to solve the riddle most of us call life, when all I am to do is live it? I haven't got the time to waste on "what ifs", and I have long passed the dreaming state of a teenage girl, so I have chosen to live my life, the real life I can have, not the dreams that may not become true.

I have chosen to live for what I am, not for what I might be. I have my aspirations, but I do not live solely for them.

One would think that, at the moment, I have absolutely no reason to complain, for I am currently sitting in a private airplane that is flying towards a wonderful villa, I am dressed nicely, I have eaten and I have a glass of sparkling cider in my left hand, while my right one is busy with the laptop in front of me. What does one need more than that?

The affection of another human being! I say that because I am one of the few human beings who have lived the last years in solitude, with the absence of a soul to be there when I most need it.

For the last five years of my life, I have been alone, all alone, and only my counscience has kept me company, and sometimes the shadows in my room. What an interesting life I have! How exciting is my struggle for survival!