Part One: Video of Actual Primal Re-Experience
of the Moments after Birth
The Experiencer, Mary Lynn Adzema, who was born caesarean and thus before she was ready, re-experiences the pain of the umbilical cord being cut too early and of being swaddled tightly so that she cannot move. She connects this to feelings of being held back throughout her life. This is only the first part from a much longer session. It was a spontaneously occurring experience; only the very beginning, which was much like what is seen at the start of the video, and how this Primal was triggered is not caught on video. How this was triggered is brought out and explained on one of the succeeding pages, containing the videos of the events that followed the ones seen here.
As for those videos of later events: After this one -- which many will see as being painful, perhaps strange, gruesome, excruciating, torturous, or worse (over the years many extreme adjectives have been used to describe what primal experiences look like to an outsider who has never experienced a primal; including the very bizarre -- e.g., demonic, possession, Satanic. This is one of the reasons that only now, after nearly forty years, as far as I know this is the first time that a video is being published to the public at large -- leaving it open to the projections of the extreme crazies in our world, who, full of their own Pain, are prone to seeing their own craziness in such an event as this and to attack upon what is different and scary to them. Yet, it is new and strange; and Westerners who are largely cut off from deep experiences compared to virtually all of the cultures of the world that ever existed, might be tempted to view this negatively, to miss the healing that is occurring; in general to be turned off and to turn away; perhaps scared; perhaps thinking that the Experiencer is being tortured.
To those, and to those of those who are capable of hearing and learning something outside of their normal experience, grant me your trust -- which I will prove to you is warranted very soon -- that these negative feelings and/or perceptions of yours are easily, and will soon be, thoroughly dispelled. In fact, they will be replaced by a perception and understanding of great wonder, beauty, and Divine Love.
First: Trust me that the Experiencer is undergoing no real "pain" as it is normally thought of. She is "in" her experience and is releasing Pain from a long time ago. And though that release might look painful, gruesome, or torturous, the Experiencer is feeling great relief at releasing it from her system. The Experiencer -- and I have had thousands of these experiences myself over the course of 40 years -- is actually feeling more alive than normal, very happy - on a level within - that true answers to life long questions are finally coming forth, and while expressing the Pain in a way that might seem very dramatic, the Experiencer is actually not reliving the Pain of that earlier time in the EXACT PAINFUL WAY THAT IT OCCURRED AND WHICH WAS TRAUMATIC. I like to say it this way: The Experiencer is getting to experience the Pain for the first time because when it originally occurred, it was too overwhelming to be handled and was sufferered through, not experienced or felt. If it had been it would not have lingered on to affect the person from that time forward. No, what I like to tell clients is that "You couldn't feel it back then, you were only a child (a baby, were prevented from feeling it by someone else, or whatever it was), but now you, as an adult can resolve it the way you WISHED you could have then. And it is quite a relief to be able to fight back, to get angry, to cry, etc. -- all the things adults do to cope -- for the first time about an experience, never resolved, that has been sticking in one's craw so long it is often forgotten, but when one remembers one remembers it has always been there in the background. It is quite a relief to -- metaphorically speaking -- get to scratch an itch that was layered so deep it just made one uncomfortable throughout one's life without any recourse.
So, though this may look tortorous, trust me that these are great discoveries for the Experiencer and the chance to do something about them, though it might seem gruesome, is the release of a lifetime of wanting to do something about a thing that has until the moment you observe been unable to be reachable and only caused one misery.
Finally, if you get through this first video based on what I have told you. Go to the next ones, and you will see that I have not really adequately put in words how actually wonderful and beneficial these experiences are from the Experiencer's point of view. OK? Ya gonna trust me?
Those few who are familiar with these types of deep experiences, please excuse the above; realize that the vast majority of Westerners do not live lives like we do, experience the things we do, and are for the most part very alienated from deep experiences -- something that is not their fault; and which requires education, explanation, and understanding of where they come from.
OK, enough on that. As I was starting to say at the outset, these experiences are part of process. In fact, in the very next video, part 2, the experiencer reports spiritual experiences of a comforting nature occurring. I don't want to say any more, because I don't want to spoil it. Prepare to have your prejudices challenged and to come back a little changed (for the better) for watching what evolved in the course of this session.
Finally, lest this part not have been made clear, I, SillyMickel Adzema, the webmaster of this site, am the disembodied voice in the video. That means I am the Facilitator. Part of me wishes that I had let that be a mystery so all the silly clown types like me could have had fun joking about it being the voice of God coming from some invisible place, and things of that ilk. Sorry. Maybe next time.
FIRST VIDEO: MARY LYNN'S ATTEMPT TO LOOK INSIDE TO ANSWER A QUESTION AS TO WHY SHE HAD LIED ABOUT SOMETHING, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT WAS COMPLETELY INCONSEQUENTIAL, LEADS TO A SPONTANEOUS "REGRESSION" TO A TIME RIGHT AFTER SHE HAD BEEN REMOVED BY C-SECTION FROM HER MOTHER'S WOMB. YOU SEE HER HERE ONLY A FEW MINUTES AFTER THAT QUESTION ELICITED A RESPONSE FROM HER THAT SHE THOUGHT IT HAD TO DO WITH FEAR OF THE OBSTETRICIAN AFTER BEING BORN. IN A PREVIOUS SESSION, SHE HAD REALIZED THAT SHE THOUGHT THE DOCTOR WAS GOING TO MURDER HER, AFTER SHE CAME OUT OF THE WOMB. MEANWHILE, IN THE PRESENT, NOTICING IN HER BEHAVIOR THE SIGNS OF SOMETHING ABOUT TO HAPPEN, I, HER THERAPIST AND HER HUSBAND, ENCOURAGED HER TO LIE DOWN. NO SOONER DID SHE LIE DOWN THAN SHE WENT INTO THE KIND OF EMOTIONAL RELEASE (I DID NOT SAY ANOTHER WORD; SHE NEEDED AND RECEIVED NO PROMPTING) MUCH LIKE YOU OBSERVE AT THE OUTSET OF THE VIDEO, WHICH IS ABOUT TWO OR THREE MINUTES AFTER HER LYING DOWN.
