I listen to these songs to remember, to mourn and to feel my baby girl. Some may make more sense to you than others, but they all mean something to me. Here are the songs (click on the title to see the lyrics) and why I choose them:

Slipped Away -- Avril Lavigne (Really just listen to it.)

Breathe -- Anna Nalick (I always start with this song, becaus we used to listen to it going to and from Syracuse. I can remember thinking every time the chorus came up "and breathe...just breathe..ohh breathe...just breathe" Thats all I wanted to say over and over again to her.

Angel -- Sarah McLachlan (This has always been a favorite song of mine and now is well seeded in my heart with the idea of my baby girl being wrapped in the arms of an angel. Really the whole song has meaning because sometimes I think my little angel tries to comfort me.)

Keep Holding On -- Avril Lavigne (This was another we listened to often and this song I would have used in her video if she had lived, but I still hold on to it because now it feels like she is singing it to me. Telling me to not give up, to keep moving on and that she will always be here. The line that touches me the most: "Hear me when I say, when I say I believe...Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny" This is how I feel about how it all went down with Kaitlin.)

20 Good Reasons -- Thirsty Merc (No you have never heard of them since they are an Australian band. Basically it says "Why should I let you go?" There isn't a reason in the world why I should.)

There You'll Be -- Faith Hill (This song I don't think needs much explanation, A part of Kaitlin will always remain with me and in my heart. If it wasn't for me thinking my little girl wouldn't want me to check out of life, I don't think I would have made it through loosing her, she gives me my strength)

Who You'd Be -- Kenny Chesney (I never heard this song until after she passed away. About two weeks after, while taking a shower it came on the radio. It was as if I wrote the song)

Held -- Natalie Grant (I know this is a religious song, but for me it's something entirely different. The line in the chorus "This what it means to be held...This is what it is to be loved." Reminds me of holding her and thankful that she got to have that experiance and being held and loved as she slipped away)

Glory Baby -- Watermark (This is another religious based song, and no i'm not turning towards god. But the lyrics (sans a few wrods) speak for me. Like the line about how it's hard to understand, because we are hurting. Life seems a little cruel and unfair at the moment)

Homesick -- Mercy Me (Another song based around god, but the opening line "You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times" Rings true...and the rest of the song goes on to say how if home is where the heart is, then i've never been more homesick.)

Just a Dream -- Carrie Underwood (I know this song is about a young girl loosing her military husband, but it describes exactly how I felt, and still feel somedays...likes it all just a dream)

With Hope -- Steven Curtis Chapman (With Hope. Hope that I will see her again and Goodbye is not the end, does it mean I believe in heaven or hell, no but it's a belief that she is still around and cuddled safetly in the arms of other passed relatives)

Melancholy Blue -- Trisha Yearwood (The song is about her loosing a loved on, I would guess a partner, but the idea of life being colored in a melancholy blue is very much how I felt after her passing and somedays still it hits me)

Tiny Dancer -- Tim McGraw (The chorus settles in my heart. How she is in me, always with, tiny dancer in my hand.)

Adia -- Sarah McLachlan (Sometimes I still feel as if I failed somehow and this song starts saying how she knows that she failed. But then it states that there is no one left to blame. The whole melody is just soothing)

Without You -- Mariah Carey (She is giving up a patner in this song, but still holds meaning to me. "I can't forget your face as you were leaving.")

How Do I -- Trisha Yearwood (Who looses a child and doesn't ask the question "How do I go one with out you?")

Teardrops on my Guitar -- Taylor Swift (Pretty melody, and it just always fit for some reason.. I can't remove it or else the playlist just seems incomplete.)

The Song Remembers When -- Trisha Yearwood (Just because there are moments that bring back all the memories, moments and feelings, and you just need to let it happen.)

My Heart Will Go On -- Celine Dion (I do know that baby girl is around, and that she will forever be with us.)

More Than A Memory -- Garth Brooks (Kaitlin is more than a memory to me, she is my baby. She will always be considered our child and when we have another it won't be that we have one, but we have two.)

Fly -- Celine Dion (This is how imagine her journey to the everafter would have been. It's such a sweet light song envoking the feeling of flying through the clouds...where my angel is)

Streets of Heaven -- Sherri Austin (Oh how I know everyone pleaded with the man above to save my little girl, and how I worry about who is holding her now when I can't)

Smallest and Wingless -- Craig Cardiff (The day I got to hold her, is the same day I said goodbye. Such a pretty song.)

Far Away -- Nickelback (I just remember how much we just kept hoping she would keep breathing and living)

You'll be in my Heart -- Phil Collins (Because that is where she will always be) 

February Air -- Lights (I was shocked when I stumbled on this song. It's not only singing about the month we lost her but is also says how I know her face like the back of hand, and in many ways I think I know it better)