dig the hill | (chat with my online friend) me: what makes you believe you can or you might win (chat with my online friend) Dr.Toqeer: but to transfer ones pain in his creation is an artDr.Toqeer: it needs a true artistic mindDr.Toqeer: u cant really put ones brain in a single frameDr.Toqeer: human beings are extaraordinary differentDr.Toqeer: and difficult as wellDr.Toqeer: just look around and see the worldDr.Toqeer: what we have made it now....how it was before few centuries agoDr.Toqeer: creation is to humanme: yea...i wish i was there many centuries ago...so that i dont have to be here now with people struggling for technology...power...wealth...they are like robotics already...no heart, no wisdom...lesser intelligenceDr.Toqeer: hahahaDr.Toqeer: its a way to get rid of life's hardshipsDr.Toqeer: but u cant get rid of it by hiding urself under any coverme: challenges they have in the past has more virtue than todayDr.Toqeer: hmmmme: yea..that's sad...coz whatever you do...even if you have given all the best for this life...dreamed for all the good things...still you have to wake up and face the reality....the injustice...pain...hypocrisy...all those evil things rules..and go back to the question of "why am i here for"Dr.Toqeer: hmmmDr.Toqeer: so......Dr.Toqeer: how r u?me: am fineme: salamatDr.Toqeer: tnxDr.Toqeer: u to salamat...means be safeme: ingat=be safeDr.Toqeer: yeahDr.Toqeer: here we use salamat for thisme: yeame: so if you tell me salamat...i will be safeDr.Toqeer: no guaranteeme: but if i tell you salamat...you say you're welcomeDr.Toqeer: no guaranteeme: okayDr.Toqeer: okayDr.Toqeer: u welcome sweet ladyDr.Toqeer: u r up so lateDr.Toqeer: MOMDr.Toqeer: thats like a sexy ladyme: reverse psychologyme: i tried that once...it didnt make any good to meDr.Toqeer: it might have madeDr.Toqeer: but u r not ready to accept itDr.Toqeer: cos u feel pleasure wid ur painme: no...who wants pain anywayDr.Toqeer: and u r not ready to accept the bitter realities of lifeDr.Toqeer: its ur ego...me: baby...noDr.Toqeer: okkkk...if u say some: my experiences have diminished me alot alreadyme: i cant even thought of any ego i could haveme: i dont even know how painful is painfulme: all i can feel is numbness in all thingsme: just live each day the way i shouldDr.Toqeer: hmmmm...u rightme: just maintain whatever integrity that has been there and still thereDr.Toqeer: its is like the way it isDr.Toqeer: this is the reality u have to faceDr.Toqeer: and tell ur self that life can be some times purposelessme: yea...me: reason for living is hard to find, it's a mystery that hurtsme: yet you have to work hard for life, you never asked to haveDr.Toqeer: yeahDr.Toqeer: say it out plzzzzzme: and fight for the cause which you dont even know when to endme: never knew when it actually started though...many are victim of what we call lifeme: out from nowhere...there comes life...to suffer or enjoy, you dont have a choice...just one thing is sure, this life you never choose will soon has to end...back to nowhereDr.Toqeer: hmmmDr.Toqeer: actually u r rightDr.Toqeer: life has no purposeDr.Toqeer: in reality its there without any reason to justify itselfDr.Toqeer: look back at our own historyDr.Toqeer: its human who is busy in giving it some reasonDr.Toqeer: every one is trying to find its own reason to be happy and cope with life easilyDr.Toqeer: but our collective wisdom and collective experience tells us somethingDr.Toqeer: and that is... u can justify ur life, ur being here, if u do some thing for allDr.Toqeer: like collective struggleDr.Toqeer: collective efforts to bring joysDr.Toqeer: peace and happinessDr.Toqeer: if we get every thing but others dont....we cant be happyDr.Toqeer: we can never beDr.Toqeer: this is like giving life a big purposeDr.Toqeer: now come to small joysDr.Toqeer: and happinessesDr.Toqeer: which can make life goodDr.Toqeer: in this catagory....freedom of thought and speach is necessaryDr.Toqeer: if ur thoughts are governed by myths and guiltsDr.Toqeer: u cant think freelyDr.Toqeer: u cant enjoy like a liberated soulDr.Toqeer: apparently u may look happyDr.Toqeer: but ur soul cantDr.Toqeer: similarly if u can express ur feelingDr.Toqeer: this hearts ur inner a lotDr.Toqeer: some times one cant feel itDr.Toqeer: but internally a disintegration is in processDr.Toqeer: think free and express free is for humansDr.Toqeer: and we have another problemDr.Toqeer: we have psychologyDr.Toqeer: animals and plants dont haveDr.Toqeer: so brain and psychology has complex things in itDr.Toqeer: some thins related to pastDr.Toqeer: some to presentDr.Toqeer: some to futureDr.Toqeer: some to our forefathers timesDr.Toqeer: some very strong instinctsDr.Toqeer: which rule our all activitiesDr.Toqeer: so if u snub or press those instincts ...it can harm u so badlyDr.Toqeer: that u wont really able to express or to understand whats happening with uDr.Toqeer: so my dear MOMDr.Toqeer: it will be u who decideDr.Toqeer: what purpose u want to give ur lifeDr.Toqeer: what are those things u supress inside uDr.Toqeer: what u feel but cant sayDr.Toqeer: what u want to think but u do not back to menu(chat with my online friend) dr.toqeer: we oppose such terrorismme: better be safedr.toqeer: its not guaranteeddr.toqeer: cos where there is disturbance and political crisisdr.toqeer: no one have the guaranteedr.toqeer: of his life or safetydr.toqeer: how ever, i take care of my self and friendsdr.toqeer: we are here to change thingsdr.toqeer: we cant afford to be foolsdr.toqeer: and killed by state like flies are killed with fly kill spraydr.toqeer: u cant get ur goals through individual terrorismdr.toqeer: and these type of thing bring hell for common massesdr.toqeer: more oppression, state's brutality and everythingdr.toqeer: and most of all 99% of these acts harm and kill common peopleme: is it that bad?me: how could you think of such possiblitiesdr.toqeer: yeah....we see arounddr.toqeer: every where from iraq to afghanistan, from palistime to africadr.toqeer: who are those being killed and disturbed in these type of actsdr.toqeer: common peopledr.toqeer: womendr.toqeer: childrendr.toqeer: whos suffers the most?dr.toqeer: women and childrendr.toqeer: who is forced to migrate...poor peopledr.toqeer: common massesdr.toqeer: so acts of terrorism cant bring positive effectsdr.toqeer: u need a political struggle to defeat ur enimiesdr.toqeer: hit them where the get it worstme: is terrorism the main problem why people migrate?dr.toqeer: some times in some places ...yesdr.toqeer: but there are other factors too u cant neglectdr.toqeer: some times govts are involved in terrorism themselvesme: and you are also anti govt...but does condone terrorism?dr.toqeer: some times govts are involved in terrorism themselvesme: really? and its an open knowledge?dr.toqeer: wait...dr.toqeer: hmmm..yes we are not anti govt onlydr.toqeer: we are anti system as welldr.toqeer: but we saydr.toqeer: the system we are opposing...dr.toqeer: is an organized systemdr.toqeer: it rules politically,dr.toqeer: legally or illegallydr.toqeer: but organized with lot of military machinedr.toqeer: big armiesdr.toqeer: state run police and militiadr.toqeer: so u cant defeat them with unorganized violencedr.toqeer: u need organisationdr.toqeer: u need people behind udr.toqeer: u need workers behind udr.toqeer: u need youth wid ume: who support the cause...does united nations a help or the asean or other worldwide org?dr.toqeer: nome: okay...go ondr.toqeer: thse orgs support regimesdr.toqeer: govtsdr.toqeer: to make their grip tightdr.toqeer: united nation is not for peopledr.toqeer: its rulers clubdr.toqeer: U.S. is the boss nowdr.toqeer: she dictates how to run worlddr.toqeer: who has to be safe and who has to suffer....dr.toqeer: who will rule and who will be ruleddr.toqeer: all the human steps taken by UN or its subsidiaries are todr.toqeer: make the face of exploitation and rule a bit humandr.toqeer: so that it can justify its existancedr.toqeer: and it is not that i am saying it...dr.toqeer: its an open secret nowdr.toqeer: every wise man or women beleives like thatme: yesdr.toqeer: and knows about the character of UN and other clubsdr.toqeer: so we need a world wide struggle against the enemies of humanitydr.toqeer: when u get fed up with ur srtruggle...dr.toqeer: and start beleiving that we cant win...dr.toqeer: and let us kill all those who r ruling us...here u make a mistakedr.toqeer: and start individual terrorismdr.toqeer: u can kill even 100 soldiers in one attackdr.toqeer: but it makes almost no difference for statesdr.toqeer: but if they start operation against u after thatdr.toqeer: ur whole organization has to run awaydr.toqeer: undergrounddr.toqeer: being caught and executeddr.toqeer: so ur cause.......just stoppedFrom: George One of the many characters is Kit E Kat she is a manicurist and has her own beautician business. No one has to work in the Utopia and you can exchange jobs. This is a bit of my story Mariel. The Liverpool Community Art College are interested in making a performance play from it. There willl be dance,music and some dialogue. My Funkadelic Chicken character comes from my story. It is a dancer entertainer inthe story. Hope you have a lovely week. Take care regards George From: mariel Utopia here is an internet cafe, so maybe i could also write something like, robotics inherit the earth but having a lesser I.Q. than animals and insects, animal rules, hehehe that's a nice story you have...its like alice in wonderland, but an ant to marry an elephant...they might get divorced so soon, hahaha...that's really cute. i enjoy reading your letter...its very entertaining. you are very talented and seems like enjoying life so much. From: George have been a bit busy with my painting for the Summer of Love exhibition at the South Bohemian Gallery near to me. I am fortunate that I live by two beautiful parks with plenty of green fields, trees and lakes. With a range of wild life swans, fox,badger,rabbit and all kinds of bird life.The Phillippines sounds a lovely place, a paradise compared to here, with exotic flowers, plants and different animals. But there is a lot of people in the small place. Manila is teaming with traffic, people and pollution. I have seen it on the Micheal Palin Around the World TV Programme. I would say you're intelligent and interesting.Without being too philisophical i agree to enjoy everything about life, we have a short existence. My paintings reflect a positve message about life for the coming generations. I like the idea of a Time Machine but maybe not go back to the Stone age incase i bump into a dinasaur....I would like a taste of the medieval time or a bit of the Elizabethan time with all the fashionable eccentric clothes. It has been raining elephants and rhinos (cats and dogs)This means it has been heavy rain for 3 months off and on. The middle of the UK is under water with floods. With global warming the world is upside, the rain should go to places like Africa where there is no rain. If this country could import all of the water it would solve a lot of the world problems. Must end now. look forward to your words. Take care,regards George From: mariel yes, for me philippines is paradise,its the only country i have and its the place where God chose me to be...but of course,God made all things perfectly even those things people considered imperfect. The medieval fashion is so classy,looks so expensive because of too much details,unlike nowadays where they promote the "less is more" fashion, you are right,i dont like also to get bumped with a disosaur in case i go back to the stoneage,maybe i am just a fan of flintstones that's why it came to my head. Send my regards to diane....God bless you From: George God is needed even more today with the Tsunami's,catastrophes,conflicts, violence, crime,desease.If only the human race would become more peaceful,caring,loving less greedy. like in my Animal Utopia Story. In my story i will name yourself Mariel the Bird of Paradise looking after your beautiful gardens.Visiting me, the Funky Chicken for dinner of; pecan with soya beans,rice and spinach. Also i would teach the Chicken Salsa dance to you. Play Latin and classical music eating Chocolate Walnut Gatuax. (cake) The Philippines seems a tranquill place for you. One day when the Chicken Artist becomes famous i would love to visit your homeland. To feel paradise for my story? Which of the Flintstones would you be.. Wilma? I would be the Stoneage Artist George Van Goth, carving paintings from stone on the walls. Having my paintings in the Louve Cave. Diane says thank for your kind words and thinks you're a lovely lady with interesting things to say. May god look after your self and family. Take care, happiness,peace,good health to everyone. regards George From: mariel I like the idea of "Mariel the Bird of Paradise looking after her beautiful gardens"....but what kind of bird? eagle or parrot? i am very quiet type..so maybe not parrot. I like the character of wilma in flintstones but i am more of Pebbles Flintstones-hahaha. The chicken artist is welcome to visit the philippines even if he is not famous yet. Yes Philippines is a tranquil place for me,there's no other place like home,i am a person of no ambition,all i wanted is to live each day with peace. you are a blessing to people you are helping and to those who smile because of you. regards to your family friends and to diane From: George I had a good time tonight at South Bohemian Gallery exhibition opening. The theme was based on the Summer of Love, the Hippie era that started in 1967.My painting was very colourful relating to peace, love and understanding. Many friends came including Diane. I did a Funkadelic Chicken performance wearing the chicken collage suit and a curly yellow wig and Elton John Glasses. I was a very good night. I will be celebrating my birthday 14 September at the Gallery/bar. I don't drink a lot chickens only drink water (joke) Best of everything from George PS Diane sends her regards From: George When go to the Gothic Liverpool Cathedral I lite candles every Sunday for my family. I always say i love you and miss you to them. This sunday I will lite one for your self and family. I would love to hear your music one day. I like gospel music and my fav is "Happy days" I did have feelings for someone years ago. When we were in a pub she wanted to marry me rightaway. But informed her i wasn't ready. I bought her large bar of her favourite chocolate she hit on my head and stormed (ran) out of the pub. I never saw her again. But heard she marred soon after and has 6 children. My Funkadelic Chicken comes from the time after when funk music began, with James Brown, George Clinton with his Funkadelic and Parliment bands. Funk is an up beat of soul music. The message of the Chicken Crossing the Road comes from the popular jokes. "Why did the chicken cross the road" "To cross to the other side is one" "Or To going shopping at Tescos for fresh eggs" "Or becuase he was'nt feeling chicken ( chicken is slang for afraid) was felling brave crossing the road" I 'm happy you like my my paintings. I feel there is a need for bright colour it touches the soul. I do like to make people laugh it is the clown in me. My dancing is a comination of James Brown, Charlie Chaplain and Max Wall . Max Wall was a UK famous comedian dancer. he is on the youtube with his famous dance. The South Bohemian Gallery will be having party for me on my birthday. I will perform and have lots of dancing.It will be a great time thank you. I drink very little alcohol it spoils my dancing. Diane has been a bit ill she has heart problems, rhumatics,epiletsy. I will be shopping for her tomorrow and do the hoovering. she comes with me to watch my performances that cheer her up. She has two cats. Diane sends her best wishes. Have a lovely time. Best wishes From: mariel thanks for the prayer for me and my family...i'll do the same with you and your love ones. there's a lot of christian songs nowadays and i dont have any particular favorite...although i like the group named mercyme and hillsongs for now,but there are lot more. I have a boyfriend for about a year last year....i thought we are both ready to settle down...he is 10 years older than me...so i have no doubt we are ready...so we scheduled a wedding...then he realized he is not ready yet...he is afraid of commitment, so i let him go, for me its better to be honest than be sorry for the rest of your life...its the most painful feeling, that's why i understand your ex girlfriend...but for me, its fair enough to tell the truth. anyway...bye for now...God bless From: George The Liverpool Anglican (Christian Cathedral) is the third largest in Europe. ( have a look on the internet). I wish you could the amazing Gothic style building. I lit some candles by the main chapel one for yourself and family. I hope you don't mind i said love, peace and good health to yourself & family. Your written English is very good. Also your description of life was so graphic that i thought you resided in the UK. Will be going this weekend with friends to see the rest of the festivile in the city. Going with Diane to a friend Jo's for dinner tomorrow. It is a famous house was filmed in a comedy called Bread. About a funny Liverpool family. She has a small gallery called the Loft Space in the house. Diane gives her love and best wishes. I really feel you're a very interesting and kind person. I'm glad i have met you on line. I wish you the best. May i send you some of my post cards of Liverpool? I would like you to have a bit of my Livepool. It will make bring my colours and a bit of my spirit. Have a lovely weekend, take care and God bless all dear to you. Regards George From: mariel thanks for pronouncing love, peace and good health for me and my family in that very historical cathedral. One of the oldest catholic church here was located in our province in tarlac but it got burned down already 5years ago, i love that church so much, even i am not religious, i visit that church always, it reminds me of how my forefathers suffered in the hands of the religious spaniards to built that huge cathedral, and during the time of japanese invasion here, thousands of dead filipinos were locked there without food and water, women raped, children and old men and women slaughtered like pigs because they have no use to them...its really a very sad history and its not yet so long ago to forget, because there are still a lot of marks in us, there are still lot of those who have "virus" from the past, its still long way to go, thanks to the new technologies, peoples mind now are diverted to these, for me it has a good effect here because most people dont have a good memories of the past to cherish, so its good that there is this new technology to make their mind busy and dont scrutinize the past in their mind. bye for now...its breakfast time. From: George Oh, how sad about that great cathedral.Is another being built inplace? The Philippines had suffered too much at the hands of the invaders & Imperialists through it's history. Often wonder why so much has happened to a great gentle people. In one way It is all to do with the powers controlling and taking the wealth away from the people. I pray for the souls of those who suffered so terribly under the Japanese. They will be in heaven.The Americans were a bit to blame they caused the Japanese to invade the countries with shortage of food, oil, minerals.rubber, iron. Also the American's were not prepared properly until later to stop the invaders.They under estimated the invaders and were racist then.. Your family/friends are not to blame for what really happened to them in being harsh/abuisive/bitter it is a tradegy of history and location. Maybe they should have treated family with more love, understanding but as you stated they never had much themselves to pass on. It is ok i enjoy you're knowledge about your country it is passionate.One must get on with life and the future and hope history doesn't repeat itself. You are right technology diverts away from the memory of what was before. Working on a painting for the next exhibition called When the City Speaks. It is about the history & culture of a city (London is the theme) AWAYS.. look forward to your great words of wisdom. Hope everyone is well & happy. Please don't work too hard. Have a nice relaxing Sunday From: George Sounds like there is not a lot of choice in either American junk or Chinese food. I prefer Chinese Sweet & Sour. I too don't eat alot of meat more veg and fish with Omega 3 fish oil. You are so right about Americans they think wealth is their be all and end all. of course they can't take it with them. The food wasted inthe Western world would feed the starving and less well off. Also they spend billions on defence weopons and space exploration. If they did colonise another planet it would all start again. (pollution, self endulgence and capitalism) It's ashame about your relatives but living in US means you have to live with all the advertising materialism and become a slave to capitalism. Thank you i do try to think of others less well off. I have donated my artwork for auctions for hospitals and to help students in University and charites. I would like to say that you're a unique & wonderful person and have lots of talent with words and feelings. I would always find the time to write to your self, there is a spiritual felling between us. i'm happy we met online.We are decent and sincere people. Diane says thank you for your kind words and sends her best wishes. I send peace,happiness and good health. God bless everyone from George From: George Date: Sep 11, 2007 6:05 AM so grateful for your very kindness.Through out my life i haven't found anyone like yourself (if it is ok to say) i'm always light up when i have your email and even Diane says have you heard from Mariel? My art was suppressed by my dad when i was young and it was 25 years later that i began to create again. then went to college and gained a Degree with hons in Art & Design. Also have a Certificate of Education to teach. As a volunteer I have worked in community/resource centres as a creative tutor with adults with learning difficulties. Art is a therapy and helps the disabled from stress. Please i will always be here for your as a friend.I enjoy your great words and the appreciation of me. I feel we are getting stronger spiritually and share the same goodness and need to help others.May god look after yourself and those you love & care for. From: mariel Date: 12 Sep 2007, 12:44i am too not rich, i am poor...but money is not the only way to help..."Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach a man to fish and he will sit in a boat all day drinking". through helping others to meet their needs, my own need was also met- a need to be of value, to feel important and wanted and be loved. Living here is a challenge, poverty and corruption all over...but all things here are created by God and He owns everything we can see and feel, so there is always hope, there are reasons why i am here, they are there and you were there, only God knows why, and i trust that His reasons and purpose are perfect. thanks for your friendship and diane....we havent met yet and may not meet personally but it feels like no distance is between us...i can feel your words as spirit and it's deep, honest and caring....HAPPY BIRTHDAY, i wish you more joy and love and friends because you are an inspiration From: George Sep 14, 2007 3:51 AM Thank you for your such lovely and meaningful words. I feel better than money, material things ,we have at last met each other. When i go to the Cathedrals to pray and draw I have always asked God if i could meet someone special, to share my same thoughts i couldn't have asked for more. It is fate that we have met and at last my prayers have been answered.I have tried to meet someone here not tainted by capitalism but share the same gentelness and good intentions. It is a great birthday present to know there is a lovely person like yourself to confide with and to know. I do feel we will meet someday anything is possible. I pray for this day even for a day. A little poem for you my dear; "From thousands on the net we met. This i will never forget. Long live our great friendship. Thank you GOD for the blessed person Mariel i met, this i will never regret. May we meet one day our hearts will be a flutter and maybe melt like butter in each others arms. With our great spirit and goodness like honey to a bee you and me" Diane gave me some words to put in the poetry. I also have experienced the same from my family. They have asked why i volunteer my life for nothing. I as yourself want to give back support /help to others who a haven't a creative gift like myself. But also i want to impart goodness and love to others less fortunate. I respect and admire your such unselfish giving to others. Your a blessing and a wonderful person to me always. It is so sad that there is so much corruption,greed that puts people in poverty. Not like my Animal Utopia story were everyone is equal and gets the same regardless. If only the world started all over and more kind and good intentioned people like us inherited the earth. It would be a better place. Then you maybe catching up with your sleep in heaven then i will have to wake youself from slumber on a cloud. With my harp sing soft kind words, float to paradise to see vivid colours wonderous sights and magical happenings.Smell the sweetness fragrence feel joyus happiness. I feel more closer to yourself each time i read your special words and feel your spirit. Diane gives her love and best wishes hopes to meet you one day. (interesting blog i got from somewhere) Kaninang hapon, dahil wala na naman akong magawa ay nagpasyal ako sa Cubao upang mag-usyoso ng kaunti. Ewan ko ba simula ng mawalan ako ng trabaho e saka naman ako sinipag maglalakad. Di naman kalayuan ang Cubao sa bahay namin. Kinse minutos lang ang biyahe kung FX, pero kung Bus treinta minutos, syempre kasi ang mga drayber ng bus ay karaniwan ng naghihintay ng pasahero sa bawat stop light. Dahil nga nagtitipid ako, sumakay na lang ako sa bus yung ordinary lang..Dahil punuan, nakatayo ako. Ganyan ang pagsakay sa bus kung punuan, nagsisisi ako sa pag-alis ko ng bahay, disin sana'y napakihimbing ng tulog ko sa aking malambot na kama habang payapang nakikinig sa saliw ng musika ni Mozart..Kaya heto at nakikipaggitgitan ako sa mga tao sa loob ng isang punong-punong bus. Oo nga pala, mag-didisyembre na nga pala kaya sobrang dami ng taong papunta sa Cubao. Ano kaya ang gagawin nila? mag-sa-syaping, manonood ng sine kaya, o tulad ko ring mamamasyal lang? Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, lubos ang pag-iingat ko. Ilang beses na kasi akong nadukutan o pinagtangkaang dukutan habang nakatayo sa bus, kaya ayan nilagay ko ang pitaka ko sa harap na bulsa ng pantalon ko sa halip na sa likod. Palagay ko naman ay wala ng magtatangka pang dumukot diyan at baka kung ano pa ang mahipo niya. Life is a challenge – meet it.
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If God gave us only one... day of life.... If God let us laugh only once in the face of calamity.... I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, The Lord is my Shepherd= That's Relationship! After being fed horrifying statistics about hunger, |