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Here are a number of postings regarding that ultimate search for peace, love, freedom, joy and bliss - all the divine qualities encountered on the inner journey.


Dear Mom

posted May 12, 2012 4:41 PM by Jim Ellis


I want to write from my heart, and so I ask myself what is in my heart right now?
A longing actually.
A longing.

I had a dream about you the other night.
We were in the kitchen in the house, and we were able to talk.
Just like we used to.
Just silly talk, just talk about stuff going on in my life.
You, the great listener.
I was so happy that we could be this way, again.
Because strange enough, I also knew in the dream that it wasn't this way in the waking life.
I started to cry, but it was one of those dream cries where nothing could squeak out.
I was just so, so, so sad.
That's what the longing is about.
The longing to be able to connect with you like we used to. 
Back before the fall, the hip surgery, the medication, the wandering mind took that away.

I've had this dream a dozen times now.
And each time I awake with mixed emotions.
First the sadness and the longing.
But also this other, surreal emotion.
It's a peace, a stillness actually.
For through the dream, I know, for certain, that there is a place.
A place that ACTUALLY DOES EXIST, in some timeless field, where we never lose anyone.
A place we can connect, truly.
Not a dream, not a fantasy, but a reality.
Maybe the only real reality ... beyond all of this.

It brings me hope for you and your health.
It bring me peace of mind for us and our relationship.
It brings me stillness and a knowing for all of humanity.
It takes away the longing.

I will always speak with you.
I will always love you.
And for this love, I am most grateful.

 Your son,
      Jimmy

Most of All

posted Apr 3, 2012 5:31 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Apr 4, 2012 12:26 AM ]

For my friend who recently lost his dear sweet girlfriend...



I remember all the things that you said

I leaf through the album nice and slow

I wish we were talking together instead

The past and its memories come and go

 

The past where you wanted only my best

The past where we'd eat before my game

The past where we'd laugh and play and rest

The past where we knew we were just the same

 

And while you're gone from this time and space

I will make all I can out of the night and day

And while you lift into that ethereal place

I will visit awhile; I will kneel and pray

I will speak, out loud, to you anyway

In dreams, I will hear your spirit simply say…

 

“Please just know, there is another world

Keep in mind, there is no end

Yes it’s true, I was your girl

But most of all, you were my friend

Most of all, you were my friend”

 

I will remember all the things that you said

I will leaf through the album nice and slow

I wish we were talking together instead

The past and its memories come and go

 

So I hold to this song that I can sing

I hold to a love I can defend

I hold to almost everything

But most of all, I hold you my friend

Yes, most of all, I hold you my friend

Hennessy Super-Dog

posted Apr 3, 2012 5:29 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Apr 4, 2012 12:29 AM ]

This one is pretty self-explanatory - a girl and her dog.  The one on the right is my girlfriend; she requested a poem.

Hennessy, the super-dog of the year
Chasing and attacking cars with no fear
Yet cowering when a water bottle makes a "click"
She fetches those squeaky toys, not one stick
She checks out the couch and stays for awhile
It's almost like she wears this subtle secret smile ...

... saying "
I know you know that I know you know
But I'm a dog, and it just goes to show
That I will be there as your companion faithful
Showing up consistently when there's cheese that is tasteful
Or eggs leftover for this here pet
Or all the dog treats that I can get
But in return I will be your watchdog forever
As long as we can be in our one pack together
Yes, we are a pack, as long as we have love
It came when you met me, it came from above
You saved this puppy's life, for this I am grateful
Did I mention I want the cheese that is tasteful?
You are my owner, I am your Hennessy
I have blessed you, and you have blessed me
So onward we will go, into car and then out
Showing what true love is truly about"


Hennessy, the super-dog of the year

A sweet, sweet one who is so near and so dear...

The Offering

posted Apr 3, 2012 5:27 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Apr 4, 2012 10:59 AM ]


Dedicated to Scott Lange, who can debate almost any topic, like this one.

We offer our money and our dues
So much to gain, so much to lose
We only ask that you spend the offering right
To bring the collective's well-being into sight
For roads, signs and schools – a governor's plan
For helping society – every woman and every man
For taking care of civic finances, all in line
We want you to account for every nickel and dime
We give up taxes, dues and tithes, just to know
That we can truly – in our minds – let it go

We offer our boys and girls for your military troops
So much to gain ... so much to lose
Our great defense, standing at the front line
We want you to account for life, every single time
We want our young ones to be taken care of
These are our children ... our joy ... our true love
They shall not be strewn on fields of folly – dark and cold
They shall be honored as souls who defend the code
We give up our boys, and our girls, just to know
That we can truly – in our hearts – let them go

The offering – all we ask is that you honor what is there
The offering – all we ask is you consider what is fair
The offering – all we ask is that you receive this with care

We offer our hearts to the one sweet muse
So much to gain, so much to lose
Opening up to give from the one giving place
Trusting to release the mask for the one true face
Offering all we can so we can be free
So we can both sit beneath the giving, living tree
So we can share in the one honest surrender
To run in the fields of freedom forever
We give up the armor, the masks and defense, just to know
That we can truly – in our soul – let them go

The offering – all we ask is that you receive this with care

The offering – all we ask is you consider what is fair
The offering – all we ask is that you honor what is there


Together They Arise

posted Mar 6, 2012 3:52 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Apr 3, 2012 5:17 PM ]


The problems, the mess
All that I must confess
The communication gone astray, awry
As we watch hopes crumble and the loved ones die
All the silly misunderstandings with words that crash and collide
All the problems that convince us to cower and hide

Not alone do they manifest, not alone do these arise
Calling out for our best, asking us to realize…

The cuts and bruises inflicted upon each relationship
The cutting off of hands extended in companionship
Finding ways to uncover the mayhem, the turmoil and the hurt
Seeing new excuses to find cause to abandon and desert
Pointing out the crap, the issues, the reasons to feel bad
Counting the traps, the tissues, the loss of all we’ve ever had

Not alone do these manifest, not alone do they arise
Calling out for our best, asking us to realize…

For in the reflection of ever-clear eyes
As we slowly stop the drive to dehumanize
And heed the echoing need to simply harmonize
We gently approach the wicked … with the wise
And yes, the solution and the problem – we realize
Together … they do arise

Our self-hatred is met with a call for self-love
The collapsing fortune asks us what we’re made of
The painful past returns when we can face what’s coming up
The half-empty can be seen as an overflowing cup
The problems of the other mate is a reflection of our own
The solitary path of the lonely branches off to a village home
The quandaries and the puzzles have a built-in solution
The controlling forces await the corresponding revolution
The mother of invention meets the father of creation
In a union where duality is the one manifestation

Not alone do they manifest, not alone do these arise
Calling out for our best, asking us to realize…
Just as the soaring eagle takes wing and flies
Just as the newborn’s peace is heard in gentle sighs
Just as the reflection is pure in the purest of eyes

The fear and the courage …
The pain and the bliss …
The hate and the love …
The problem and the solution … we realize …
Together … they arise
Together … they arise

A Flight Over the Land of Eire

posted Mar 6, 2012 1:35 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Mar 6, 2012 1:58 PM ]

 I definitely have the Irish soul who holds that sacred longing. I wonder where the Irish get that quality? The green landscape? Years awaiting the sun? A bottle of whiskey? Van Morrison? In either case, Happy St. Patrick's Day folks!

Close your eyes and imagine a flight
On hawk feathers into day, out from this night
Over this nation, over sea and sand
To the lore of Eire, to this rich land


Over Dublin town, a cobblestone majesty
Where stone roads echo a distant memory
When horses carried carts down this narrow path
Before compact cars blared the industrial wrath
Now, factory smoke billows out the family pride
While children in the streets play to seek and hide
Street signs gather at downtown intersections
Pointing three or four, sometimes five, known directions
Calway, Killarney, Westport, Roundstone
County Cork, Waterford – all of them read “home”
Soaring out of this city, where families make their stand
In this lore of Eire, in this rich land

As the road opens up and points you inland way
You leave behind the traffic over a lonely highway
Stacked stones stand as boundary guiding guardrails
You glide over countryside as the flying hawk sails
Bed and breakfast signs, they’re below you at every turn
Green pastures, they greet you – the gardens and the fern
Full, round trees blossom up like small explosions
The glen amidst the trees – a home for leprechaun notions
Rolling hills tumble and rumble right down to the stream
The loch’s calm water is filled with swans so serene
Dotting the land like slow moving balls of cotton
The sheep graze in fields that time must have forgotten
Every now and then a small village town comes to view
A row of pubs, local shops – yellow, red and then blue
Steeple peaks, tombstones, cemetery gates black
Brothers and sisters playing football in the back
A hillside castle bears the cry of the brave knight
A flapping flag of pride – green, orange and white
The Ring of Kerry waterways wraps around mountains lush
The flora full forest, the ocean view thick brush
Here the gnomes make up their beguiling band
In the smiling eyes of the Irish, in this rich land


Finally, now on the West, your fancy takes you here
Where the end of the world arises and magically disappears
The clouds – once your rooftops – the horizon they now kiss
And sprinkle its fair showers with a mysterious mist
The road to the sea ends with magnificent flair
As you soar over Earth’s edge, over the Cliffs of Moher
The immense, deep embankment, the land plunges below
All you hear is the distant ocean, humming gently and low
The cascading sheer cliffs, their angelica hymns they sing
You simply glide there without effort, no flapping of wing
In this forever place of stillness, you feel embraced, not alone
In the silent skies of Ireland that can only be “home”

So now, with eyes closed, you imagine a flight
On hawk feathers out from day, back to this night
Back to this room, right here where we stand
But holding the memory of Eire’s rich, rich land

A True Patriot

posted Feb 8, 2012 3:15 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Feb 8, 2012 4:30 PM ]


They dropped the ball, they lost the Super Bowl
It's hard not fall to the ground, laugh and roll
The evil empire - with the hooded emperor at the helm
Could not win the big one, come high-water or hell
They took on the gentle Giants, and lost another game
A deja vu, a repeat of 2008 - the result just the same

It brings to mind the sound of "ha ha"
Or the realization utterance of "aha"
It rekindles the common law - karma
And the sign of doom - the fallen raven's "caw caw"
When over, it's the end of the red, white and blue
Nowhere to find - a Patriot that is true

A true Patriot - one you can stand behind
A true Patriot - one who is trustworthy and kind
A true Patriot - full of humanity and heart
A true Patriot - a "good sport" from the start

They took their dive, they lost the big bowl
Manning up, the other team was on a roll
Perhaps not the best, and definitely not a crowd fave
The Brady bunch couldn't even inspire the wave
They lost the big one, they finish with nothing left to lose
And no one cares about a Patriot who is untrue

A true Patriot - you want them to win at all cost
A true Patriot - you feel bad when they feel the loss
A true Patriot - you cheer their wins, you grieve their defeat
A true Patriot - you finally accept, at battle's end, the destiny that they meet

The Other Side of the Sun

posted Feb 8, 2012 2:46 PM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Feb 8, 2012 3:03 PM ]

Tell me where do they go - my friends who were here with me
People tell me to let them go, let it flow, let it be
Tell me of a heaven in the skies, tell me all of those lies
I want to know where the angel of death lands and then flies
The mystery of death is a door with cracked streams of light 
The mystery of death may just reveal the mystery of life
So pull back the curtain, unveil the veil
Disclose the final scene of every fairy tale
Roll that bolder away from the secret cave
I want to know - where are Christiane, Steve, Jullya and Dave?


Is it the haven where angels sing a perfect tune?
The land where every sin has been undone? 
Is it the dark side of the moon?
Or ... is it the other side of the sun?

Tell me where do they go - the souls who used to walk and talk
And eat and drive and play, and stop and start
They would speak on the phone and then gather for dinner
And watch TV sports - consoling the loser, celebrating the winner
They would gather at parties, and have fun out on the town
They would play the roles of competitor, collaborator and class clown
They were, in the end, someone that no one could save
I want to know - where are Christiane, Steve, Jullya and Dave?

Is it a heaven where all have reserved a mansion room?
The kingdom where the Divine reunites with everyone? 
Is it the dark side of the moon?
Or ... is it the other side of the sun?
The other side of the sun

Who Are These Souls?

posted Jan 8, 2012 2:11 AM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Apr 16, 2012 12:33 PM ]

For the yoga teachers at Pilgrimage of the Heart in San Diego.

Who are these souls?

Who – gently, sweetly, kindly - guide us so?

Who halt, just for now, space and time
Sharing a world … subtle … sublime
A world beyond the static of the untrained mind
So hearts, heads, backs and thoughts may simply unwind



Who are these souls?
Who – gently, sweetly, kindly - guide us so?

Into stretches that loosen shoulders and legs, so tight
Into stretches that bring the breath into light
And the peace of body and soul into sight
And the end to the unconscious contraction and fight

Who are these souls, so conscious, so full of care?
Alyssa, Brenna, Courtney, Blair

So concentrated on the heart and mind to mend
Dani, Tyler, Elizabeth, Jen

So poised, so precious, so lovely, so ready
Julia, Maral, Heather, Hedy

A spinal twist, a downward dog, a forward fold
Rachel, Rachel, Nicole, Nikole

Who are these souls?
Who – gently, sweetly, kindly - guide us so?

Revealing a path to peace of a body-mind
Unveiling a world … subtle … sublime
So hearts, backs and thoughts may simply unwind
Halting for now – this space and time…

Who are these souls?

I'm Saying "No"

posted Jan 6, 2012 4:43 AM by Jim Ellis   [ updated Jan 8, 2012 2:24 AM ]

For the people who said, "hey, turn the other way"

For the people who told me what not to say

For the people who set up the game for me to play

I'm saying this so you can know

I'm saying this so I can grow

Simply ... I'm saying "no"

 


For the people who said just be quiet and mum

For the people who wanted me to simply play dumb

For the people whose leverage demanded I succumb

I'm saying this so you can know

I'm saying this so I can go

Simply ... I'm saying "no"

 

I'm saying "no"

Not to be mean, not to bring grief

I'm saying "no"

To bring the sweet joy of release

I'm saying "no"

So we can be more, not less

I'm saying "no"

So that I can someday say "yes"

 

For the people who said, "hey, turn the other way"

For the people who told me what not to say

For the people who set up the game for me to play

I stand as the riverbed whose waters wrap around in flow

I stand as gravity's grace that keeps everything in tow

I stand as papa deer warning of the arrow and the bow

I stand as brother whose protection arrives in one swift blow

I stand as the innocent who reaps what it sews

I stand as one who can simply say "no"

 

I'm saying this so you can know

I'm saying this so I can grow

Simply ... I'm saying "no"

 

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