Brief Bio (in letter format)

Dear Existence,

For twenty one years i have watched most of the world twist itself into bland figurations.."creators" who feed on some previous host...i am wrong to determine "good" and "bad"...but the longer i live, the more people i find who are senselessly/hopelessly full of #@%!--those who forsake anything; those mindless voids in the midst of a beautiful existence; those grey perspectives who bend and follow preconceived notions....i do not believe this mindlessness is not an individual folly; i believe it is a general mortal epidemic--i do not understand this disease at all (it makes no sense,,, it is obvious we die, it is obvious we should live the pure life while the opportunity lasts) we should LIVE; we should AMAZE ourselves; we should LAUGH and CRY and FEEL and FEEL and FEEL and WANT and know and believe and truthfully understand....it is a rarity to find something (someone) pure/true.perhaps it is more unique to find someone who gives half a #@$%!.....and then again, from another perspective, it is all reality and it is all wonderful and it is all there....

but NEVERneverNEVER ever have my ears received a valid answer to "WHY?"......something is something--a metaphor, a thought, a feeling, a sense; something is everything.  As one defines the word "something" they become a limitless god.  It is in these moments of creation that we control reality...and something is a flexible/general/meaningless word that we say we understand.....it is the connection of mind and object/thought/meaning/(whatever you want, just fill in this blank)...and is that a human?

and the more i observe, the more i see the world screaming, demanding chaos--there is no true validity, that there is no true foundation, that, in the midst of everything, there is a complete and unchangeable nothingness..............................................but "WHY?"

eternity,
christian