Poetry

 A Barnbow Canary and her son 

©Chrissie Michaels 2010
 
This narrative poem is dedicated to the memory of Margaret Cameron, who at 54-years-old was a Barnbow Canary at a munitions' factory in Yorkshire, England. While three explosions tragically took the lives of numerous women and men who worked there, Margaret, like many other munitions' workers, died during the war (in 1917) as a result of TNT poisoning. This poem is further dedicated to her son, John George Cameron, who was killed in action during 1915 and is buried at Hospital Farm Cemetery near Ypres. 
 
Margaret lived in a back-to-back, two up, two down, with a smoke-caked chimney pot
the redbrick stack running down from top to bottom and a cellar below.
It was a damp dump but home nonetheless
to her and the hubby, Our Lad, Lovie, Tis and Babs
with two lost, twenty-years separating this pair
and a last (but not least) living infant, numbering five
who was a cherub, albeit a gulp for the milk,
which Margaret was sorry to say had well and truly dried up by then.
It was a dear family life in spite of the hardship and heartache.
Never mind, not one to wallow, she knew how to soldier on.
 
Still, she was struck dumb when her firstborn got the call and strutted off to war,
a load of tin for a hat and a kitbag full.
(A storm of lead would soon come pelting and tearing at him―stop his parading―
only he didn’t know it yet.)
She wept when he left.
He was still her little lad, with a life beyond metal and medals...
 
...which decided her to do her bit.
So she lined up with the old pegs (those who’d hobbled back from the Boer),
alongside the shuffling women and girls,
who were already rubbing their aching legs from all the standing and waiting.
There, at Barnbow, one of a hundred thousand to apply,
she was one of the (lucky) ones, in for the 10 p.m. shift.
Proud as punch she was to be working there,
being as the shells would help the Effort
and she could do with the extra to get by― the bonuses:
up to twelve pounds a week and a bounty of milk;
plenty of cream from the herd kept on site to lug home for the brood,
the youngest, Our Cherub, in particular.
Not for any lass (young or old) to scoff at.
 
Keeping philosophical, she stripped to her underwear, put on a buttonless smock,
tucked the stray hairs beneath her bonnet and set to work.
(She could have done with a hairpin, which of course was forbidden,
 and the rubber-soled clogs did aggravate her corns something cruel.)
 
In spite of all the inconvenience it was a grand thing to be doing her piece
for them lads.
The lads away at the Front she meant, of course,
who by then were praying and wading through the mud and the stink,
dodging fragments of bone; 
a hand, an arm, a face blown apart;
the fear of hell in their shell-shocked eyes.
The lads who lit up in a flash, hot white, as they dropped rifle and bayonet.
The lads who were falling back from the lingering gas,
while its stinging and burning made a mash of their nerves and their flesh.
The lads who lay low, white knuckled―one eye on the enemy,
one eye on the pistol primed from one of their own
(one in the spout, the trigger slack, for one in the chest or one in the head)
in case they changed their mind, refused point blank to go over the top.
Our Lad, she meant, of course,
in the dug-out with his best pal slung over his back.
 
 Margaret kept her chin up, doing her best,
 passing the days (or in her case the ‘nights’) priming and fusing
 each and every shell to be sent to the Salient and the Somme.
It wasn’t a thankless job, not in the least,
making munitions to smite the foe, sever the march of death - 
although lips were sealed.
(Words were hardly necessary. It was war after all.)
 
The lassies worked hard,
a band of distant dreamers thinking of their own (their boys),
trying not to think of what those bonny young faces faced.
Wishing them back home safe and sound, nestled close to their bosoms
(the mams),
or having their way in a soft green meadow
(the beaus).
A million sighs hid in their hearts and kept them solemn.
Not a mention of danger or dying.
 
Even when their skin was turning sallow.
See, the lassies’ skin was turning this slow, creeping yellow.
(The TNT tint was not evident in the original Barnbow job offer,
although the disclaimer was there all along for those who thought to see 
in the simple offering of milk.
An ineffectual remedy, what with medical science being in its infancy.
Undeniably sad, but maybe excusable in hindsight.)
Soon many a Canary followed son after son, beau after beau,
into an early grave.
Top secret (of course). No truthful recognition of their sacrifice.
(What could the War Office say or do? It was war.)
 
Not a word either of those caught in the heart of the Barnbow blast.
Room 42: where the late-shifters were preparing fully-loaded shells.
It was a simple enough task to insert a fuse (by hand),
screw down the shell cap (by machine),
finish them off and pack them up.
Practice should make perfect.
The munitionettes who survived, ran out screaming,
their hair and arms bathed in a cadmium glow that no milk ration would ever cure.
(The prayerful dedication "in perpetual light" would not be far amiss.)
No shortage of the brave, no-nonsense ones who rushed to help.
The many willing hands. The hearts of gold.
The good sorts.
 And the one young lass, whose only wish was to go back in
and collect her shoes.
‘Me mam’ll kill me if I come ’ome wi’out ’em,’ she was heard to say.
(The shock of it all. Bless her dear little heart.)
No one quite knew where the others were finally laid to rest.
It served the realm best to hush the ins-and-outs
 of women and girls blown to smithereens. Bad for morale.
 (And there was the issue of compensation. Burial payments notwithstanding.)
 
Margaret, having stood next to a girl whose limbs were blown off,
clung on through the winter, battling to stay alive.
Each one of her rasping breaths drifted into the low-lying mist,
which carried across the sea
and settled over the mire of black mud and ice (and blood)
 where the young men were dropping.
It fell over the lads hoping to die clean and quick
and the lucky lads, those at the hospital farm,
dressed eyes, head down, left arm on the shoulder in front
(better not to see),
and the silent lads who were noting the pelting and cracking,
the blasting, the ripping and pounding, the last post sounding
with deep regret,
over the lads who had hard earned their dead man’s penny,
and Our Lad ─
whose unimaginable sigh seemed to settle like a veil
 over the desolate place where he fell.
 
Come spring, with the golden sun bright
(Carpe diem, in this case, being both sad and inexcusable)
one more yellow bird faded away.
(Margaret did live long enough to contemplate the cost,
 to consider what it meant to expire.
 Those trenches her little lad dug, his life
 no more or less important, no more or less disposable than hers
or the shells she made.
She knew the war was a machine. Parts had to be replaced.)
 
Only a blood-red flower in a green, foreign field
and a scratch on a stone―Margaret Cameron―
are left to memorialise their space.
                                                                                                                  
 
You can also read a version of this poem at the website for:
 
"Project Inspire" -  an Abbey Grange remembrance.
 
 
Convict Girl

©Chrissie Michaels 2008 

 
Ann Smith sailed as a convict on the First Fleet to Australia in 1788. She disappeared soon after arriving, as did the convict, Peter Parris, who claimed to have French ancestry. A First Fleet journal refers to the two convicts making contact with the Lapérouse ships while the French were anchored in Botany Bay (Jan - March 1788). Did they sail away with the French explorer?
 
Both Ann and Peter make an appearance in my children's novel On Board the Boussole, The Diary of Julienne Fulbert which is published in the Scholastic Australian - My Story series. This novel explores the famous and tragic voyage by the 18th century French explorer, Lapérouse.  During my research for this novel I was fortunate enough to be assisted by M Pierre Bérard and Mme Monique Bérard of the Lapérouse Museum in Albi, France; M Jean Genou of the Association Salomon (Nouvelle Calédonie); and the late Mr Reece Discombe who rediscovered the two wrecked ships off the coast of Vanikoro in the mid 20th century.
 
 
What can be revealed about you, Ann Smith?
You thought you could just disappear without a word,
without a trace,
you and Peter, both?
They say he was a scoundrel -
but you knew him better than us all
and I wonder if with you he was tender.
 
I pull out the fingers of the white gloves inside to out,
ease them on.
The journal covers the pillow on which it rests,
dips over the sides, filling one corner of the wide library table.
Already I can smell the sour paper.
Already I am craving more.
I lay the pencil to the side, too eager to absorb, struck by this fever,
turn, turn over the sacred pages,
read...read...
 
Yet there is so little about you, Ann Smith.
All that is left of your memory only two dismissive sentences
recorded over two hundred years ago...
 
Here―
One day soon after landing in the new colony you both disappear,
you and Peter, without a trace.
Does he say you can walk to China?
I don’t doubt your word, Peter, you reassure him.
And his reply: Well, you are the first in this world to tell me so.
Do you go bush
        die from the heat
        a wild dog take you
        a snake bite you
        starve in spite of all the plentiful tucker for the taking?
 
Here―
One day you and Peter steal across to the French ships,
beseech the crew to take you on board.
Do you navigate your life thereafter,
your sails full and silver in a lashing of spray?
Or are you set adrift?
 
I am left only to contemplate, Ann Smith,
fill in the details of your suffering plea for freedom
        from this harsh island
        this wild hot wind
        this deep blue green sea, heaving and billowing to the very edge of the world.
        The nothingness is behind, around, ahead of you
and there is no stepping foot off this dry earth again in your lifetime
unless you can find your way onto one of those ships
 stay until the skeleton masts are filled with sailcloth.
When they blow with wind and drive forward
only then do you breathe freedom.
 
Sad, if you went down with the French ships that tempestuous night in
1788.
There’s a salvager from the wreck site swears he saw a woman’s bones.
 
 

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