I'm still trying to get my Desert Oasis room in shape. I ordered a bookshelf that will hold all of my scrapbooks. I didn't really need to order it today, but sometimes I just do things. I worked at home today and got a lot done and was able to go straight into working in there. I'm winding down in this project and running out of ideas. Not that I really had a lot of ideas during the past year anyway. Some days, sure...an idea would spring into my brain and I would actually think it was awesome. But, for the most part, I do not give myself any credit. I say I have no idea how to decorate, when in reality...I did most of the decorating in my apartment. I just ask my sister for her opinion of what I've done. And she normally says "That looks great" or if she has a change to suggest it's normally in the vein of "I think you should move that to the left a bit" or "move it higher." Never a major overhaul. I never think my photographs are that great. I don't think I'm that creative. I usually believe that most compliments are just people who are really nice, being nice to me. I'm trying to come to terms with my appearance and this project has brought me a long, looooong way to self acceptance. There are some days that, yes, I can look in the mirror and think "you really are pretty, Andrea...go forth with that knowledge and stop being so damned silly." Other days I still cringe and ask "why do I even bother?" I think I hurt my back yesterday trying to do too much heavy lifting on my own. But, my back hurts me a lot anyway. Because I don't stand up straight and I have horrible posture and I believe that I've caused myself this pain and there's nothing that can be done for me other than me going to a doctor to pay for a lecture I've already given myself. Probably not the case, but it's what I believe. Sometimes I doubt my intelligence. Sometimes I doubt my opinions. Sometimes I don't trust anyone around me. Sometimes I want to kick myself in the behind for doubting how nice and good and awesome I am. But sometimes...sometimes I just want to hide. I guess today was a me just wanting to hide day. I say, nothing wrong with hiding...so long as you peek out from time to time. Yeah...

I finally got the room in some sort of semblance of order, and I finally got the tree somewhat decorated, so I can FINALLY do the shoot of Zhen coming back from the hospital and such. So I took all the photos last night, and I should have the comic put together soon, so keep your eyes peeled ^_^