Ian Crawford again, this guy is so inspiring. You could never know how inspired I actually am. okay, so I uploaded another photo from the concert. and you're like "when am I going to see some actual 365 pictures?" well, I have the answer. Next week, wednesday. because all I have is film and it needs to be developed. I took it into walmart today, and I don't get it back for a week! what shit! and now you're asking "why don't you just use your digital camera?" well, I have an answer for that too. I can't find my memory card. I will though, I will. okay 10 things going on in my life. 1. I have had soooo much angst these past couple of days. 2. Why you ask? Well, when I went to that concert, I realized how much I love music. How much I regret giving up guitar, when I'd barley known how to play. My best friend and I have decided to pursue our dreams of traveling on the road 'cross country in a volkswagen bus, indie touring. no goals for record labels, just free music and venturing. We're 15, and were planning everything already. As soon as we turn 18, we're out of our folks houses. We've already started saving money up. Three years from now, we will be having our first summer after high school. that summer will hold our first experiences on the road, and performing. After that summer, we're both off to college to ensure jobs to fall back on, mine being photography of course. no matter what happens I will always have my photography though, not to worry. See, we had a false start with this last year. It's real now and i'm sure of it, my life literally changed after that concert. SO CLICHE I KNOW. 3. I am applying for a job soon, just a dishwasher at a nearby restaurant. 4. It's been 4 days since the concert. I've been cramming this guitar, and I will be for a very long time. I can't wait for my future. I am going crazy with ANXIETY 5. I really want a holga camera. film photography is the most gorgeous thing i've ever seen. The only time i've ever used film was in photography class last summer, and disposables. that's why i'm making you all wait for my film. It just means so much to me, and I want this 365 to be special. the film your waiting for is two disposables (one experimental -who knows how that will turn out) and one 35 mm roll. I also have an underwater disposable, but it still has 6 exposures left and I have an idea that I want to them for. 6. I don't care that i've never had a boyfriend. i'll never lower my standards seeing as though there are amazing people out there that I just haven't met. I can't see myself with anybody in this city. I just don't care. My time will come and I know that. 7. I love you guys, you are all inspiring and supportive. I wouldn't be telling you any of this if I didn't think so. You are some of the only people that understand my art and my decisions. I'm not talking to you as a whole, i'm talking to the person who is taking the time to read this. 8. I love my life, I wouldn't trade it for anything. 9. This past year (freshmen year) I wasn't where I was suppose to be. I didn't care for my grades. Next year, I am getting a 4.0 gpa. it's not an option, i'm not giving myself an option. 10. you are now updated to my life, the end :)

I write poetry. I like to close the windows, turn up itunes and clean the house while pretending to be a rock star. I can't sing to save a life. My hubby is a great singer. I sing loudly in the shower. I love movies. My favorite movie is The Princess Bride. I sometimes show my age. I am quite shy in person. I played a talking tree in a grade school play. I love to dress up. I love going barefoot on the beach. I have a crush on a certain football player who shall remain nameless. My favorite flower is a white rose. My sister is my best friend. I held hands with a boy for the first time at age 14. I kissed my first boy at age 17. I have never kissed a girl. I got my first bouquet of flowers at age 19. I loved my first boy at age 20. I lost my virginity at age 25. I'm sexually free but have only slept with one man. I love Coldplay. I love music. I've cried before because I don’t know the name of the song that was playing during my first kiss. I have never been to a rock concert. I have totaled 3 cars. Two before the age of 18. I have paid for 3 of my own cars. I have a Cookie Monster collection. Nothing is a bigger turn on than having your hubby beat you home from work and finding the dishwasher running. I have always wanted a tattoo. I hate needles. I hate needles. I hate needles.