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When I was new, I wanted anonymity for the sake of my ego. to not have anyone I knew reminding me that I'd admitted that I shouldn't be drinking by going to AA. Now it is for the opposite reason, to keep my ego in check, being less able to seek praise by staying sober in AA by keeping it at the level of the mass media. I am now retired and living alone, so I have no reason to not mention being in AA if it comes up in conversation, but it seldom does as most people are not really interested unless they have the problem in their family. I recall that, early in sobriety, another teacher at the school I was working at mentioned that he hadn't had a smoke for six months, and I didn't care because I'd never had that problem. Then it hit me that most others would see drinking the same way, something anybody who is not crazy or stupid would stop doing if it became self-destructive. |