P • 59 •T?e ??м? c?г???cles• 02 • 11 • 2011 Have you ever found yourself in a rut? Rut (n): a settled and monotonous routine that is hard to escape; "they fell into a conversational rut" I haven’t truly ever been in such a place till now. It’s a scary place to be because it isn’t entirely bad on the surface. It’s kind of like too good to let go of but it lacks any “excitement” leaving you feeling hopeless and almost dead. Routine becomes comforting but not rewarding. Everything has already been achieved and you only seem to move laterally. Probably even moving ever so slowly d o w n . . . See, my life hasn’t been like this. I have always been on the move, changing, evolving, getting better, and looking at the future. I have always been achieving goals while setting newer and greater ones. I always felt like I'd fit in real good with the gypsies back when they did their thing. Except I'd be the one who always wore a suit. A lot of this I attribute to me moving around so much my entire life. Which was for better or for worse – but it led to define who I am. I don’t think I stayed at the same school for more than 2 years until I hit Junior High School. City by town by state my mother took me and eventually my younger brother for what seemed to me as a child to live in every viable imaginable place in the northeast US. Of course when I graduated high school I chose to relocate to a small unaffordable school hundreds of miles away in the state of Connecticut; a place I had never been to before at the time. I think I lived in every town in that snow ridden nightmare of a place during my 5 year stint there. Then I finally made my exodus to another place I had never been to: California. And following suit, I have moved around here to various parts of this place too. But now? RUT. RUT RUT RUT RUT RUT! Between my dead-end job, renting in a lousy apartment complex, and other aspects of my life, I’ve dug myself deep into this fucking routine hole. I guess you could say everything right now is just kosher. I have no real hard press reason to change any of it because the pay is good, the price is right, and the neighborhood is nice. Kosher (adj): legitimate or proper And if I kept a list of words that I never wanted to be used to describe me, legitimate AND proper would have to be on it. I will not SETTLE. I will not just be okay with sub-par. I will not allow myself to be held down because I’m comfortable. My theory has always been that the minute I get comfortable with ANY FUCKING THING in my life, it’s time to get UNSNUG and move on to something more challenging. And this theory applies to anything from the video game that I am playing for fun to the job I am working at to support my family. Comfort isn’t my game. I have goals, and I intend on reaching my goals. No I don’t want to conquer the world. But I want to see the world and be part of this world. Hopefully even give back to this world in some way. And likewise have it give back to me the way Mother Nature was intended to do. The shot at hand? That's me smoking a cigarette in front of a really old car. That's also me walking back and forth. I think conceptually it's supposed to be me in my rut and leaving it all artsy and shit. So just pretend that is what it is for me? Cool. Worst case scenario it's a cool car? €?n??м Tђu ?$

I can pan cool cars too. It is just that there are not many of them around. I have relized that exposing the cars correctly is tricky in Tv. Why? Cars are different colors so the camera gets utterly confused. White cars get underexposed and red cars get overexposed. I start with some training shot in Tv to get an idea of the exposure (and to practice the location - every location is different). during this training I pan everything that moves. After selecting the best focal length, exposure, following technique and location (small moves) I start looking for nicer cars - however, it is often long between them so I'll get impatient and start panning Camrys.